"The drama." Okay. So today's going to be like a ten minute stream formal announcement PSA. You are going to see me have an emotional breakdown, so buckle up, I've written this all out most part, so I wanted to start off by asking you all to stop bothering Jet and all the other fish, production, everyone else about all the shit that I talked about. It was all supposed to be funny, but it was taken well out of context. So.
"Who's bothering him?" Just people who are getting blocked for saying things like BBB or whatever, that kind of stuff.
So Jet was kind enough to let me, let someone like me on his show, but I took advantage of that and I upset a lot of people. I'm not gonna- I'm not gonna call them out? Although I did not at the time think that what I was doing was wrong, I'm able to recognize now that I've caused a lot of -which I have- I've caused a lot of distress, I've caused a lot of problems. Do not ask Jet about me. Do not start with the BBB stuff. And if you do, do not come crying back to me when you get blocked. It's done. It's over. Also, don't bring Sam in to any of this. Sam and Jet practically work separate. They work separately for the most part. Sam's a good guy. Sam does not litter and I don't have any beef with Sam. It was just a bit. I've deleted my discord. It's done a lot more harm than good, clearly.
"What does BBB mean?" Bring back Betty.
I'm going to continue doing everything else that I like doing whatever else you guys want me to do. I just don't feel comfortable proceeding until we get past this drama. I don't feel like a good person. I'm disgusted with myself and I feel like you should be disgusted with me as well. Not for the piss stuff, but for airing out dirty laundry of people that were nothing but kind to me. Need a cigarette. Jet was fully right to say I was being a cunt. I completely agree. I think everybody should. It's very fucked that I said - what I even though, like I said, a lot of it is taken out of context, lot of things were taken a different way, made to be lies that supposedly came out of my mouth. But what I said in general, I shouldn't have brought up and I shouldn't have brought up stuff about the other fish. I shouldn't have, I shouldn't have discussed any of that. And so the people, if, if anyone that was hurt by the things that I said, be it Jet, be it other fish, anybody, just know that I do not expect any forgiveness. I'm not asking for forgiveness. But I do see that I've caused a lot of hurt, a lot of mistrust in people that were open to having me, someone like me on a show like that. For that I am genuinely sorry. And I don't like doing apologies. I'm not someone to feel regret, I mean obviously, I'm not someone to dwell on regrets or anything. I feel like it's a waste of time. But I do worry that and I do feel like I've caused a lot of pain and stuff.
"No one is hurt or cares, you're taking this stuff way too..." It's still been a problem and it's still something that's been coming up tome as far as this morning, actually. And that's kind of why I'm doing this. I just don't feel comfortable with myself.
"Does this mean you'll be on fish tank 2?" No, this is just this is just kind of reflecting and if you are, um, if you're on, you know, my discord or whatever, and you're realizing now that you're no longer on my discord, because nobody is, we're done with it. We're done with all the bullshit. It's caused a lot more damage than it was meant to. Not just and I mean that for a lot of people. You and my genuine intention going into all this is just to have some laughs and at this point it, yeah, it's cause I'm still gonna do, you know, whatever with, you know, you can hit me up on Twitter, you can hit me up on Patreon. I'm still going to be doing the stupid Patreon stuff or whatever but it's yeah.
"Need moderators." No, I have I have mods. Just regardless, it's discord. There's always going to be problems, right? Yeah.I just wanted to do a brief PSA tonight. Again, I'm not expecting any I'm not expecting anything positive for myself coming out of this. I'm just expecting or not expecting I'm just hoping to let certain people know that I agree with them and and that I do regret my actions. And um yeah, so.
