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I'm worried about my cat. Yesterday morning he had picked up a toothpick by my chair. One that I had chewed both ends of (so I think it was soft at both ends, at least not totally spear-like) and didn't realize was laying around, but had gotten swept up in other crap. I see him pick the thing up and I dart my hand out to snatch it away, and I swear it looked like it disappeared down his gullet and he smacked his lips. I wrested his jaws open, but it's not like you can induce vomiting in a cat. I called up the emergency vet and it was basically suggested that there's nothing you can do at all except surgery if the cat gets sick.

Then, I find a toothpick on the floor right nearby, similar (chewed at ends), but I couldn't tell if it was the same toothpick or not. You ever have one of those situations where you think you see something go one direction, but it went somewhere else? Especially when you're agitated and it's a tiny object being dropped. So now I'm not even sure that he ate it, as opposed to him having dropped it and me not noticing.

He made poop last night around midnight, but it seemed like less (nuggets, thinner, less frequent trips), and he's been eating a fair bit. I wish he'd poop more so I could be sure. Toothpicks kill in two ways (happens to humans), they embed themselves in the gut and cause pain and poisoning, or they block the gut and cause bowel obstruction.

It's sounds like he is probably fine. I hope so. Keep an eye on him, but if he's not acting weird or in pain by now, he is probably OK.

(And dude, put your toothpicks and whatever else might wind up on your floor directly into the garbage bin. My cat loves to carry around rubber bands. Why, I don't know. He mostly totes them for awhile then drops them in his water bowl. ...but swallowing one would be bad, so I make sure he can't access them.)
 
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It's sounds like he is probably fine. I hope so. Keep an eye on him, but if he's not acting weird or in pain by now, he is probably OK.

(And dude, put your toothpicks and whatever else might wind up on your floor directly into the garbage bin. My cat loves to carry around rubber bands. Why, I don't know. He mostly totes them for awhile then drops them in his water bowl. ...but swallowing one would be bad, so I make sure he can't access
In the garbage bin underneath some trash so kitty doesn’t find it. Cats are sneaky little rummaging raccoon bastards
 
Day two of tapering off my antidepressants. I have SO MUCH MORE range of feelings already. I feel hungover as fuck but I'm listening to music and enjoying myself. I love being less numb.

Can't wait until I'm fully off my meds. As a bonus, I'll be able to have a whiskey shot every now and then and not worry about it-- not every day obviously but like once a week for fun.
I got the thing where moving my eyes side to side induced mini head spins, it was awful.

It really is staggering that studies have come out saying anti-depressants do nothing and the entire establishment is like 'no big deal lol'.
 
I got the thing where moving my eyes side to side induced mini head spins, it was awful.

It really is staggering that studies have come out saying anti-depressants do nothing and the entire establishment is like 'no big deal lol'.
I’ve gone off anti depressants several times throughout my life and every time it’s a mind fuck. It’s so stupid how much the medical industry ignores antidepressant withdrawals. All attention is on opiates, I guess.

I HATE that eye movement vertigo you’re talking about! I’m not quite there yet, but I suspect I will be by next week. Worth it to feel human again.

Brain chemistry is a bitch and we’re all it’s slave
 
It's sounds like he is probably fine. I hope so. Keep an eye on him, but if he's not acting weird or in pain by now, he is probably OK.

(And dude, put your toothpicks and whatever else might wind up on your floor directly into the garbage bin. My cat loves to carry around rubber bands. Why, I don't know. He mostly totes them for awhile then drops them in his water bowl. ...but swallowing one would be bad, so I make sure he can't access them.)
I know, I do that with a lot of small objects, I lock my toxic chemicals up, but I happened to slip up.

He made poop last night and made poop this morning, so it seems he's fine.
 
Day three of antidepressant withdrawals:
mood swings. mood swings everywhere. This morning I felt very happy, this afternoon I felt like the biggest loser now this evening I feel frustrated. I'm not taking it out on my family, I'm just wallowing in self pity. It's like "Why aren't I getting x done RIGHT NOW THIS SECOND? I'm a failure!". You know how it is.
My husband has been very understanding.
It's not supposed to be a fun journey to get off these drugs. On top of it I'm doing some hardcore dieting with occasional 48 hour fasts so I'm grumpy af that I can't just eat whatever the fuck I want. I keep a happy face for my son though.

Not planning on stopping this journey though, and I'll KNOW I'll feel better by the end of it.

thanks for reading my bitching
 
I have a job interview tomorrow. It's more of a programming role then a machining role so I am a little worried I won't have enough experience, but I think I can do it and if I can do it it would be better work then what I was doing before. They use some software I'm not familiar with so I should really watch some tutorial videos and ask if they have some textbooks.
 
I nearly got my wrists slit yesterday due to a misplaced knife sliding out of a dishrack. It didn't draw more than a mosquito bite's worth of blood, thank god, but the wound swelled almost immediately and my wrist has been very slightly numb (not enough to impede function but enough to be noticeable while I perform it) since the incident.

It scared the living daylights out of me. I don't have any experience with wounds like this, (once again- thank god,) but I'm more than aware that this is a borderline-miraculous way of gaining some and I've been fixated on that fact for a very long time. To the point where it gave me another nightmare lol.

I put pressure on it and stopped the bleeding pretty fast, too. Things might've been very different if I hadn't known what to do in the slightest.
Fuck.
 
Today I visited my brother, saw my niece walk for the first time and my brother cooked me a killer steak. I know, I have posted that we're vegetarians, but fuck it...everyone can have a cheat day once in a while, not like I'm blowing meth. While doing something totally unrelated, I discovered my favorite manga I had last read like in middle school had gotten continuation in the +10 years I hadn't paid attention. Immediately consumed like 50 chapters, felt like a proper anime nerd. Oh well, not ready to get a dakimakura just yet...and maybe best of all, I rediscovered the creativity to make music. I had been feeling a bit under the weather which had decimated my creative drive, hadn't touched Audacity, Ableton and LMMS in months. But now I have managed to capture that sort of childlike wonder you need to just play around with sounds for hours. I know some people, probably those professional DJs, can just make themselves sit in front of the equipment and force out music, but I need this sort of drive which cannot be forced.

Feeling pretty good.
 
Still doing good. Today I'm appreciating the simpler things in life. Sometimes, it's nice to just take it easy and not have anything stupid or awful happen. It's also nice to not do anything urgent or important. Just sitting around, taking a nap or two, eating good food, gaming, reading, and doing other assorted cozy activities is wonderful! I wish life was like this all the time.
 
I have a job interview tomorrow. It's more of a programming role then a machining role so I am a little worried I won't have enough experience, but I think I can do it and if I can do it it would be better work then what I was doing before. They use some software I'm not familiar with so I should really watch some tutorial videos and ask if they have some textbooks.
So long as you can relate it to something you've done before or show you understand the principles, it should be fine. And if you do study up on it make clear that you'll continue to do so up until the start date and that they are welcome to send you any pre-reading / training manuals / whatever. Just make sure they know you'll pick this up and that you're very enthusiastic.

Know you've had a hard time with employment recently from your posts here. So just know that you have a whole community here rooting for you. Good luck!
 
So long as you can relate it to something you've done before or show you understand the principles, it should be fine. And if you do study up on it make clear that you'll continue to do so up until the start date and that they are welcome to send you any pre-reading / training manuals / whatever. Just make sure they know you'll pick this up and that you're very enthusiastic.

Know you've had a hard time with employment recently from your posts here. So just know that you have a whole community here rooting for you. Good luck!
The more I look at it, the more I think I can do it. And if I do it right, it should mostly avoid the parts of my line of work I hated. This doesn't seem like a shop that's going to be chasing efficiencies bad so I should be able to program operations that run properly, if a little slower then someone who's done this exact thing for a decade. The main thing is it sounds like they used to use Gibbscam which I haven't used and there's not a lot of free documentation on, but the youtube tutorials indicate it should be pretty intuitive. I got the impression that they're using something different now but I'm not sure what it is. If it's mastercam I'm good, Powermill I'll need to brush up a bit.
 
I bought my first car from a dealer and I am feeling a low-level amount of dread, as opposed to the immense amount of dread I felt signing the paperwork I dont think I messed up, but it's hard to kick the feeling.

My cat may have inoperable cancer, testing will be done end of the month.
 
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The more I look at it, the more I think I can do it. And if I do it right, it should mostly avoid the parts of my line of work I hated. This doesn't seem like a shop that's going to be chasing efficiencies bad so I should be able to program operations that run properly, if a little slower then someone who's done this exact thing for a decade. The main thing is it sounds like they used to use Gibbscam which I haven't used and there's not a lot of free documentation on, but the youtube tutorials indicate it should be pretty intuitive. I got the impression that they're using something different now but I'm not sure what it is. If it's mastercam I'm good, Powermill I'll need to brush up a bit.
Show this sort of eagerness and prep in the interview and you'll have a shot. And in my own field, I love to hear an interviewee say how they want the chance to be able to do things properly. Be honest and confident, let us know how it goes. Good luck!

And don't say sneed unless they say sneed first.
 
Well I just realized the other day that links shared from TikTok will include your TikTok account name, and i have posted a few links. A quick check indicates the fallout is minimal as i can't be identified this way.
 
Well I just realized the other day that links shared from TikTok will include your TikTok account name, and i have posted a few links. A quick check indicates the fallout is minimal as i can't be identified this way.
I tried to use instagram for the first time yesterday because an acquaintance refuses to just message normally. So here's how that went:

Create account by signing up using burner email address. Not one second later get a message that says, "we have flagged your account for suspicious activity". Ok what the fuck? "You must file an appeal using your phone number where we'll send you a code". I do that and then it says "your account will be deleted if the appeal is denied by instagram staff within 48 hours". I look up online what exactly the appeal process is and apparently you need to take a photo with your face visible along with a government issued ID to prove who you are.

I can't believe how gay social media has become and how people are just cattle that accept it. This shit has gotten unbelievably bad and I hate it. Mark I hope your business and future endeavors go super well and nothing goes horribly wrong with you or your family.
 
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