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This part bothered me more than I can even begin to explain.
The greasiness, the slurping, and most of all, the two handed chug like a fat retard baby.
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This part bothered me more than I can even begin to explain.
The greasiness, the slurping, and most of all, the two handed chug like a fat retard baby.
- Joined
- Jan 2, 2023
She actually pronounced it PROO-durr.
I can't. I just can't.
Also I'm currently archiving her video for posterity (I will upload later if no one else does but my upstream is painfully slow so I'll only do that if she takes it down) and here's the transcript for those of you who can't stand her retarded grandma voice.
Edit: I'm gonna guess you don't watch much Chantal, do you?
I can't. I just can't.
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Also I'm currently archiving her video for posterity (I will upload later if no one else does but my upstream is painfully slow so I'll only do that if she takes it down) and here's the transcript for those of you who can't stand her retarded grandma voice.
Transcript
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so where have I been um I had intended
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on doing like I usually do
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um recording a video in advance scheduling it to post but not going to
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lie um this October hasn't been October in um and what I mean by that in in my
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personal life things have been pretty brutal if you don't follow me on any of
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my socials and um I recently changed my name on Tumblr
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just I came up with something on the spot that
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didn't jive with any of the my other usernames so
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I changed it to um it is
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now pther rager
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077 and while that is not a [Music]
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username on any
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of any other platform it is something I've kind of
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taken up as I don't know a nickname unofficial title
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because of the homophobia in Norse Pagan
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Heathen spaces I can't remember if I defined it
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in another video but
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puther means proud and ragger it's kind of a old cultural
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concept that um I wouldn't exactly call it homophobia
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but because you know Vikings are Old Norse
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culture they they didn't I'm sure they knew of gay people
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but they didn't think of it like we do in modern
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times they were just concerned with um defense of the homestead in the
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Homeland and um so ragger more so means
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cowardly but because it has a component in there um that refers kind
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of to sexuality in the sense of
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um a man being submissive sexually submissive
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than in a roundabout way it is sort of like being gay homosexuality so I've
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just adopted that as a kind of and as well as um embrace your Argie and again
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Arie is that kind of social stigma of like submissiveness
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or being cowardly or practicing the the sather when a
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man so um the month started out with
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um someone taking advant AG of my
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um gender affirmation surgery Gund me to
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try and with my bank account and I had
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to go get that sorted out uh which started as a private
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message on Tumblr and
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um then things hit a rough patch with um my mom's cancer
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treatments and
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finally my cat was diagnosed with kidney disease so yeah all of those things at
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once and I kind of thought that I was sick with something but I'm not so sure anymore if if it was if I was really
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sick or I'm in
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this kind of dispute with the downstairs neighbor
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who was smoking inside her apartment and now um hates my guts
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because the management came around and threatened to a Victor which I never intended to happen but now she
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thinks we're like In Cahoots or [Music] something it is what it
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is and [Music] um the latest thing that happened is I'm
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getting fake claimed by somebody on Tumblr which is really
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frustrating given that I'm in the middle of an SSI disability
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case but you know people reach for low hanging fruit when it comes to certain
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things and I've sort of danced around the topic on here but given that tomorrow is
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Solin I am just going to go Dive In The Deep
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End so hopefully this won't stretch too long of a video but I
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apologize if it
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does let's start at the beginning we're going all the way back
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to
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2008 I was a spirit worker not by choice but because
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whatever you want to call it I could sense things I could pick up on things I had strange experiences going all the
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way back to my childhood that nobody believed me
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um I had weird dreams
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about there being a child with cancer
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in my elementary
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school and I would see a boy about my
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age that looked like a cancer patient that was trying to kick a ball at
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me and I would insist everyone that there was someone in the hallway there
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was someone there I even remember drawing it but
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I've lost the drawing obviously that was a start
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of teachers and fellow students thinking something was really off with
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me and um so I kind
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of oh and then there was uh my local area there's
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a museum that was um made out of a
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Victorian guys
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mansion and um went there to a pretty sucky haunted
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house one time with my parents again one this started when I was like maybe 10
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years [Music] old and um just seen him chilling there in his
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living room again nobody believed me so I kind of started to repress this
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and not put any focus on anything I was experiencing and it went away for a
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while probably a decade and then when I went to
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college the college was so haunted that I couldn't repress it any [Music]
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anym so we're at 2008 and I was in
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college and um I started feeling as if a male tall male Spirit was following me
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around and given that this was November 2008 and I had developed a hyperfixation
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on um the movie The Dark Knight and Heath Ledges portrayal of the Joker
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I got caught up in thinking that it was
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him and
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um said to leave me alone and go back to your daughter and then it disappeared for a
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while and um only to come back in January of
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[Music] 2009 I'm not naming any
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names in the course of this video of who any of these could
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be I'm just saying it's quite the
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coincidence I started calling him Jimmy as a
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pseudonym and people are telling me that
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it was unfair to Jimmy that I was keeping him Earthbound so you should set
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him free and that caused the first
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big conflict with other people and how I was handling this well no that wasn't
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the first big conflict the first big conflict was this woman that was that called herself
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Tina who insisted Ed that they had been lovers in a past life and who he kind of
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vaguely seemed to remember but she took things way through too far
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and tried to fake her death to prove that I was faking it and got everyone
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pissed off at her that was the first
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big I don't know conflict or drama
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but the second big conflict or drama that still follows me to this
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day is what happened with the second
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spirit and kind of annihilated any hope that I could ever
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have of having a real relationship with him even though from a distance I feel
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like that he wishes we could reconnect but it's just not going to happen
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because of the trauma that unfolded around all of
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this so I've said before that I've never lied about anything that happened and and that is
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true people think that well there are no Spirits this is
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just some big rules um some big lies
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but it got to the point where it was bleeding into all areas of my life
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including the time I was threatened to be hospitalized against my
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will by some Doctor Who was throwing every diagnosis in the
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book that he could think of to try and prove that I was delusional
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and I don't know what was going through his
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mind you might derisively hear me refer to a doct Tim
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Burton only because I can't remember the guy's name and all I can remember about
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him is this ugly frizzy black hair that he had on his head like Tim
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Burton so but I finessed a way to get out of
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there and even my own family doesn't know to this day why ghosts even came up in that
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situation but it was because the spirit like to play pranks on
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people and he insisted that he was going to play a prank on this employer that I was
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not getting along with and his pranks were usually very
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Innocent but when I said that someone was going to come and play prank on the
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employer they got very concerned
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obviously and I had to explain that oh no don't don't worry he's just a ghost
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and that's where everything started I was so naive so so
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naive um but even before that
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happened I was in mesed with the spirit I
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just I was a doormat and wanted to do anything and everything
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possible to help him and to make him happy
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and he took full advantage of that to the point of using me
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sexually when I and I I people still insist
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that my consent was there the whole while but I was kind of
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overcompensating bragging to try and make myself feel better when I was feel actually feeling
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really really bad and gross the whole
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while so yeah there was the matter of
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um what I might consider rape or sexual
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assault and then there was the matter of um what people refer to as
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grooming and my part in that
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and how much I enabled how much I let things slide that
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I really shouldn't have
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and how people think that it's me when I was just following along in
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his hairbrain scheme and this particular spirit I
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defended for years and years and years even before he
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died saying that you know
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he didn't have a thing with children but I wonder
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anymore because why did he go to such lengths to talk to
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them why did he keep putting me in
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danger I was being doxed and harassed in real life and he just kept
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going so I don't
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know I don't think when he was alive he ever did anything inappropriate
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but now that my Paradigm has been shifted because of online spaces I find
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myself in where paraphilia are openly discussed and unconventional attractions
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are openly discussed
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um now I think that he at least should have worked through with
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someone some type of paraphilic
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Attraction I'm not
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saying I'm saying that
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an attraction in your mind that you don't act on is different
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from actually harming a
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child and that could have that could have been involved but I'm not inside
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his mind anymore I mean I used to channel him so
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hard so
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deeply that there really wasn't much of a line between
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us and again this this didn't stop on this wasn't just online he was
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interrupting my life I was becoming almost late for work
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my family was noticing the strange emotions that were coming out of me that weren't
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mine it was getting too much I even reached out
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to Chris Fleming who was a pretty famous medium and he answered back at the time
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that at the time his opinion was that it was wrong for
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the dead to use your body to experience re-experience life but he since flipped
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on
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that and that was a whole other aspect of what I consider to be like rape but
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in a more spiritual sense that my body was being used
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without my asking
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so this entire thing happened and
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um oh yeah he would possess me a lot it was uncomfortable this whole
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Invasion this whole moving
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speaking when I wasn't he would just his energy would
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just come in and just overpower
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me and then he got into a relationship with someone that in
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hindsight he really shouldn't have and that got even
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worse and for the respect of the person's privacy I won't go into any more details than
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that but um that be also became very
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abusive very very abusive and I'm not saying that he was
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an abusive person beforehand I just think that all
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of this pain bled out of him and in turn with with them
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and it just created this completely toxic cycle that lasted
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years and when he finally broke out of that that was the only time
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that he finally started to find a sense of Peace but not before up a few
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more people which is where I get to Spirit
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number three and this is where we get into deeply
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controversial territory because up to now I've been
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speaking about spirits who despite number two being arrested
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and being on trial was acquitted found
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innocent spirit number three was
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arrested put on trial and it was very obvious that he
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had done horrible horrible
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things and as a matter of fact he died while on death
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row but I was in the point of my witchcraft
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Journey where I was reaching into the deepest depths of
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Darkness how edgy does that sound to try and
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learn ult
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knowledge and so I reached out to this Spirit to try and get some kind
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of leg up over other practitioners of the
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ult Satanism demonolatry and we
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together helped summon um the demon from the
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nun volak Vic and
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she what did I even ask I think it was helped to find a job at that point yeah
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was helped to find a job at that point because this was September of
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2016 so that was his help his involvement and it was supposed
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to end there but as things have a way of
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happening he decided to stick around decided he liked me used to call me
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brewha which means witch in
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Spanish decided he wanted the relationship to be
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a lot more than a working relationship and considering what we did to summon that
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first demon that was kind of on
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me I'll give you a hint it was very crowy in
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nature so things kind of progressed from there but
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this if you think what I had with Spirit number
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two was off the wall and
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strange and you think it was taken things a step too far with Spirit number
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three to involve him in Witchcraft and summoning a demon and all of
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this when I get to Spirit number four well you won't believe
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this so let's back up a little bit Spirit number
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two I did try and reach out to family and friends and loved ones of
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his but I never received any
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reply so fast forward
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to and I'm not sure exactly if it was the very end of 2016 or the very
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beginning of 2017 but it was somewhere in there we thought
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hell we have one very very evil
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spirit that we've attracted added into
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our Herm as some people call
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it why not one more and at the
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time I didn't realized how deep this one was going to go and that it would be my
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deepest Spirit relationship ever but you
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know life never goes as we think it's going to
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go we found [Music] him back at the scene of the
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crime because it turns out just like in life in
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death he thinks a lot he thinks a little bit too much he's too much up in his
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head too much too many thoughts too many fantasies that was this whole thing
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fantasies overtaking
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reality and apparently as he's explained
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in
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hindsight he became again so corrupted so overtaken
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by these fantasies that he lost reality again only when you're a spirit
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a ghost your Consciousness shapes real ity
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itself he had no idea what year it was he had no idea where he
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was all he had were his thoughts his feelings his
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fantasies and he was trapped on that spot for who knows how
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long and this happened even even though he had been reached out to by
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family and brought to the other side or he calls it
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Heaven I don't think it's that permanent you know when shows
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like Ghost Whisper or whatever when the spirit crosses over goes into the light
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whatever it seems permanent it's it's
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not they can come back whenever they want to it's just that now when they've connected back into
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that Universal energy they're less at risk
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of the dehumanization that can happen from being
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um Earthbound and stuck inide this bubble of your fantasies but his were so
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intense that it was as if he was still Earthbound and he lost his way
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back over there and his family hadn't seen him in
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years so we found him and we kind of unstuck
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him but as it turned out he still had some fighting to
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do and again Spirit number two come
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up everyone's lives by thinking that if he elopes with Spirit number
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four he can get into whatever you want to call it Heaven the other side and see
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his father so
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he decides to use one more person but this time he with the wrong
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guy because this guy feeling
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abandoned is tant him out to murder and what does he do exactly
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that Spirit number four kills Spirit number two and because they're both
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ghosts is not like it's permanent
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kills [Music] him disappears again and then we can't
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find him again for
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years I'd have to say it was about two years that we couldn't find
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him and in that time he had got even more lost than he
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was
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before and if not for a friend of
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mine he might have been permanently lost and if I get a little emotional in
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here so what happened just
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before that with Spirit number
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two is he was finally starting to let his heart crack
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open and starting to re-evaluate his life a little bit accept himself a little bit more
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accept his feelings a little bit more and a way that he never had before
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because he severely repressed
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himself and that was at the detriment of other people around him
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because well if you knew who he was you wouldn't be half as sympathetic
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but see I found myself in a group of people who are sympathetic to
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him and that's really helped him not hate himself as much now you may argue
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but he should hate himself because
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of and that's see from what I've
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learned starting to re-evaluate
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myself and the fact that I have paraphilic attractions
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myself is that shaming yourself and repressing
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them doesn't do anything they don't disappear you you don't you don't fix
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the problem if anything you just make it worse
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so with that in
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mind he repressed he made himself ashamed and
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then proverbial Pandora's box once you open it you can't get
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everything inside to go back in once he Uncorked that bottle there
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was no going back and it turned
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into one of the most disturbing events in modern human
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history so again how can any of us have sympathy for him the fact of the matter
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is to a lesser extent we are him we've
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never went the lengths
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or push the limits like he
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did but the reason in my life why I came to relate to
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Spirit number three and spirit number
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four was because I grappled a lot with these
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sides of me that are very dark disturbing
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Twisted up I tried to be be ashamed of them I
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tried to repress them I tried to make them go away but that didn't work so
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now owning up to that I have them and in a way embracing and
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accepting that I have them has been better for my mental
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health and anything else I've ever tried but it
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comes with the caveat that nobody will understand and you'll attract a lot of
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and there are still aspects of of it that I have
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to hide sorry about the noon
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[Music] whistle
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the people don't sometimes deliberately it would seem try to understand paraphilic
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attractions they want to
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just put this coat on you that says you're a gross disgusting inhuman
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monster and then just shove both you and a coat in the clauset and forget about
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you this little club that I find of
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people this little Club of people that I find myself in that are sympathetic to this man
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despite everything a lot of us have the
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paraphilia too and have felt
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outcasted and we understand that that played a part in what he later
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became that stigma so
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we're trying to not only encourage more sympathy of him but
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encourage more sympathy of people with paraphilia in general notice I do not
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say paraphilic disorders and that's because I don't
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think of them as disorders like I used to you'll still find them in the
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DSM matter of fact he was diagnosed with several of them by the forensic
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psychologists both in the trial and afterwards when he was in
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prison but again like I said my paradigms have been
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shifted some might say in a very controversial Direction
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but that's just one part of it I've I've
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accepted these paraphilic attractions and I've also got a better
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grip on the anger that I used to
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have and it's this anger [Music] too that
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um people remember and that's all they want to see in me
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even though I've for the past God it's going to be it's almost
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2024 and I just can't believe that it's been almost three
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years since I started my journey with
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druidry because I first picked up one of those books in the middle of the
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pandemic so
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um for me it's very hard to strike balances and I I think that's because of
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my neurod Divergence it's very hard to strike
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balances between um mild and
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this is with anything interest
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symptoms I tend to get obsessive with
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things and so when I first got into druidry I was like
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okay pacifism you were to be a very peaceful
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person I went like Jedi almost like forget about the
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anger anger is not
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good you know I got to a point where I was like can I still be involved with Spirit
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number three who was a violent person in life and still
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be yeah it was it was affecting me to the point where I was questioning significant
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relationships but then
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um the Heen Heen re re rebalanced
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me because there are doctrines in
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um not set in stone or anything but
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um the society Old North Society was very Vengeance based you know eye for an
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eye thing and I I wasn't going to um get into that again because that um
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got me into trouble when I was a very early witch Satanist what have you the whole thing
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where I was flinging curses fast and loose and
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I flung one in the wrong direction and became a meme
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but so I I went a while without doing any baneful
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magic and then I found um sather or troll them as it's also
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called and the folk curses of Scandinavian culture
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actually rather fun so I found peace with um doing some
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of them especially against
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theves like for an example
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um and you can still see if you look I'm surprised nobody's ever asked me about
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it I wrote this strange set of letters over the basement
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door below my apartment here because my friend had gotten things stolen from her
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out of the basement so I was like I got you and I wrote
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this I don't know incantation or strange letters above the doorway
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because you know the thief passing through the doorway with these letters would Confessor I forget exactly how it
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worked but it didn't ultimately work but
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um all these interesting little little folk spells and everything from Norway
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and Sweden they almost don't feel like curses they're just so like one that I
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did another one that was um against a thief was um again writing
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these strange letters on paper and then putting egg over it and
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then burning it I mean that doesn't feel like a curse
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so yeah so I I circled
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back and I've found the anger again but this time it's not out of control this
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time it's controll that's channeled it's in a small sense like I'm not you
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know sword fighting anyone but in a small sense I've kind of adopted um
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Berserker Ang which is um the Berserkers
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were um Warriors in the Viking age
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that would Channel their anger into um a trance state of rage and be these
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Unstoppable Fighters and so I've gotten better at
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channeling angry energy and again I might have mentioned
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in in a past video with the th th size room is very
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effective at helping you do that so um I've come back around to a
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lot of the things but
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uh you don't understand what it's like unless you
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live it having violent thoughts and impulses and
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Fantasies and everything sometimes intermingling with your your sexual
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desires arousal attraction what have you until you actually live it you don't
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under you don't understand what that feels like so with both of them I can I can relate
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so much to what they went through it's just that I
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have I don't know what you would call it I have these stop gaps safety
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valves not just my spiritual ethical systems
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but I'm hyper empathetic versus them having low empathy
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so it's never it's never made the jump to real life it's never it's never left
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my mind but but um can I acknowledge in regards to my
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mental health that I have had
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homicidal inclinations yes it's not difficult for me
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to to say that because um it's just the truth and it's and it's something that
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we shouldn't be ashamed about we should be able to talk about because um the fact that Society doesn't talk about it
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I think is a lot of the problem and unfortunately why a lot of
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these um these mass shootings keep happening because there's
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no healthy Outlet especially for masculine
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anger so um
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so when he came
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back it was as if five years had hadn't passed at all
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we just fell into each
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other
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it's unlike anything I've ever
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experienced it's a love that almost borders on Obsession going both
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ways probably has to do with shared
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trauma my fears of Abandonment his fears of
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Abandonment the fact that in my gender Journey I've acknowledged that I am at least partially masculine
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male and he's ridiculously
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gay so it's became
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some incredibly special for both of
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us and that is why I don't care what anyone has to
51:45
say because you're not living this you're
51:53
not feeling the joy and the the passion and everything that this
52:01
is bringing not only in my life but what he missed out in his
52:08
life what he could have had I'm not gonna I'm not going to get
52:14
it I'm not going to get too emotional I've been talking for far too
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long but I just wanted to say um
52:28
that is the overarching goal of not only
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my relationship with him but our metamor
52:39
relationship and this whole project with the blog that people seem
52:47
to hate so much that I'm not going to link because
52:53
I'm not going to encourage any more hate traffic to it than it's already
52:59
[Music]
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gotten and um it
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just meshes back in with everything else that I do um in regards to
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cultivating peace understanding Harmony within the wider
53:34
World Within
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Myself and kind of in a way being his Advocate because
53:47
he before the criminal trial before any of that even happened way back to when
53:54
he was a teenager he needed to be
54:00
heard and now he's being heard unfortunately you know poly as a
54:08
as a spirit but but now we're actually cutting through all of
54:14
the notoriety and the and actually getting down to his
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soul that always needed to be heard so
54:29
if you hate us then you don't understand what we're doing because Spirit
54:37
work is about um not what the spirits can do for you
54:45
but what you can do for the spirits it's a two-way street it's a relationship it's a very deep
54:53
and very fulfilling Rel relationship if you if you let
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it
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so that is certainly enough for now I will try and get back to a regular
55:11
posting schedule but I feel like November's going to be a little
55:19
nuts um I don't know why but it always feels like every year I'm preparing for
55:26
something to happen in November and well I think it's going to happen in
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2024 and hopefully it's goes in a positive
55:38
direction but yeah um that's it for
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now I know as soon as this hits it's going to
55:50
be dissected and GIF and whatever the hell miserable people
56:00
do but I don't care because I was just I needed to speak my mind about some
56:06
things and now it's out in the universe and whatever happens to it now I don't
56:13
care it's just been spoken
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um maybe next month I'll finally get into talking talking more about Loki and how things have been
56:28
going with him or maybe I'll decide to go in a completely different direction
56:33
but this one I I intended to do this almost from the
56:39
get-go and I just never got around it until now
56:47
so and I'm posting this right up it's it's not being scheduled for the future
56:53
future I'm posting it right up you're putting it out there and to just be done with
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it so um
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yeah sa is almost in the rearview mirror I've got my candy bags ready I just
57:17
decided that I was going to put some uh bracelets from Pride left over
57:23
from pride in them that say uh trans rights or human rights
57:28
because we need that kind of energy and
57:37
um who the hell knows for the rest of the year other than planning Ule the rest of the year in a Gregorian
57:45
calendar sense in the wheel of the year or in the wheel of the Year sense it's a
57:52
new year uh but just taking life day by day and I
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hope um everyone else's too I hope you're
58:06
finding peace and Owen in your lives and I hope
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you're just living life for yourself and the
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haters um TransPass Druids signing off again
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so where have I been um I had intended
0:09
on doing like I usually do
0:15
um recording a video in advance scheduling it to post but not going to
0:21
lie um this October hasn't been October in um and what I mean by that in in my
0:30
personal life things have been pretty brutal if you don't follow me on any of
0:37
my socials and um I recently changed my name on Tumblr
0:45
just I came up with something on the spot that
0:54
didn't jive with any of the my other usernames so
1:00
I changed it to um it is
1:08
now pther rager
1:23
077 and while that is not a [Music]
1:28
username on any
1:34
of any other platform it is something I've kind of
1:39
taken up as I don't know a nickname unofficial title
1:45
because of the homophobia in Norse Pagan
1:51
Heathen spaces I can't remember if I defined it
1:58
in another video but
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puther means proud and ragger it's kind of a old cultural
2:12
concept that um I wouldn't exactly call it homophobia
2:18
but because you know Vikings are Old Norse
2:25
culture they they didn't I'm sure they knew of gay people
2:31
but they didn't think of it like we do in modern
2:39
times they were just concerned with um defense of the homestead in the
2:47
Homeland and um so ragger more so means
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cowardly but because it has a component in there um that refers kind
3:03
of to sexuality in the sense of
3:08
um a man being submissive sexually submissive
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than in a roundabout way it is sort of like being gay homosexuality so I've
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just adopted that as a kind of and as well as um embrace your Argie and again
3:30
Arie is that kind of social stigma of like submissiveness
3:38
or being cowardly or practicing the the sather when a
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man so um the month started out with
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um someone taking advant AG of my
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um gender affirmation surgery Gund me to
4:09
try and with my bank account and I had
4:14
to go get that sorted out uh which started as a private
4:20
message on Tumblr and
4:27
um then things hit a rough patch with um my mom's cancer
4:37
treatments and
4:43
finally my cat was diagnosed with kidney disease so yeah all of those things at
4:53
once and I kind of thought that I was sick with something but I'm not so sure anymore if if it was if I was really
5:01
sick or I'm in
5:06
this kind of dispute with the downstairs neighbor
5:12
who was smoking inside her apartment and now um hates my guts
5:20
because the management came around and threatened to a Victor which I never intended to happen but now she
5:27
thinks we're like In Cahoots or [Music] something it is what it
5:37
is and [Music] um the latest thing that happened is I'm
5:44
getting fake claimed by somebody on Tumblr which is really
5:51
frustrating given that I'm in the middle of an SSI disability
5:57
case but you know people reach for low hanging fruit when it comes to certain
6:05
things and I've sort of danced around the topic on here but given that tomorrow is
6:12
Solin I am just going to go Dive In The Deep
6:24
End so hopefully this won't stretch too long of a video but I
6:31
apologize if it
6:39
does let's start at the beginning we're going all the way back
6:46
to
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2008 I was a spirit worker not by choice but because
7:02
whatever you want to call it I could sense things I could pick up on things I had strange experiences going all the
7:09
way back to my childhood that nobody believed me
7:17
um I had weird dreams
7:23
about there being a child with cancer
7:28
in my elementary
7:33
school and I would see a boy about my
7:41
age that looked like a cancer patient that was trying to kick a ball at
7:46
me and I would insist everyone that there was someone in the hallway there
7:53
was someone there I even remember drawing it but
7:59
I've lost the drawing obviously that was a start
8:11
of teachers and fellow students thinking something was really off with
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me and um so I kind
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of oh and then there was uh my local area there's
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a museum that was um made out of a
8:36
Victorian guys
8:42
mansion and um went there to a pretty sucky haunted
8:50
house one time with my parents again one this started when I was like maybe 10
8:56
years [Music] old and um just seen him chilling there in his
9:03
living room again nobody believed me so I kind of started to repress this
9:11
and not put any focus on anything I was experiencing and it went away for a
9:18
while probably a decade and then when I went to
9:24
college the college was so haunted that I couldn't repress it any [Music]
9:31
anym so we're at 2008 and I was in
9:38
college and um I started feeling as if a male tall male Spirit was following me
9:45
around and given that this was November 2008 and I had developed a hyperfixation
9:53
on um the movie The Dark Knight and Heath Ledges portrayal of the Joker
10:00
I got caught up in thinking that it was
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him and
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um said to leave me alone and go back to your daughter and then it disappeared for a
10:19
while and um only to come back in January of
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[Music] 2009 I'm not naming any
10:32
names in the course of this video of who any of these could
10:40
be I'm just saying it's quite the
10:49
coincidence I started calling him Jimmy as a
10:55
pseudonym and people are telling me that
11:01
it was unfair to Jimmy that I was keeping him Earthbound so you should set
11:07
him free and that caused the first
11:13
big conflict with other people and how I was handling this well no that wasn't
11:19
the first big conflict the first big conflict was this woman that was that called herself
11:27
Tina who insisted Ed that they had been lovers in a past life and who he kind of
11:34
vaguely seemed to remember but she took things way through too far
11:40
and tried to fake her death to prove that I was faking it and got everyone
11:46
pissed off at her that was the first
11:55
big I don't know conflict or drama
12:01
but the second big conflict or drama that still follows me to this
12:06
day is what happened with the second
12:12
spirit and kind of annihilated any hope that I could ever
12:18
have of having a real relationship with him even though from a distance I feel
12:25
like that he wishes we could reconnect but it's just not going to happen
12:32
because of the trauma that unfolded around all of
12:40
this so I've said before that I've never lied about anything that happened and and that is
12:46
true people think that well there are no Spirits this is
12:52
just some big rules um some big lies
13:02
but it got to the point where it was bleeding into all areas of my life
13:09
including the time I was threatened to be hospitalized against my
13:17
will by some Doctor Who was throwing every diagnosis in the
13:22
book that he could think of to try and prove that I was delusional
13:27
and I don't know what was going through his
13:33
mind you might derisively hear me refer to a doct Tim
13:38
Burton only because I can't remember the guy's name and all I can remember about
13:44
him is this ugly frizzy black hair that he had on his head like Tim
13:51
Burton so but I finessed a way to get out of
13:57
there and even my own family doesn't know to this day why ghosts even came up in that
14:05
situation but it was because the spirit like to play pranks on
14:11
people and he insisted that he was going to play a prank on this employer that I was
14:19
not getting along with and his pranks were usually very
14:24
Innocent but when I said that someone was going to come and play prank on the
14:30
employer they got very concerned
14:35
obviously and I had to explain that oh no don't don't worry he's just a ghost
14:41
and that's where everything started I was so naive so so
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naive um but even before that
14:54
happened I was in mesed with the spirit I
15:00
just I was a doormat and wanted to do anything and everything
15:05
possible to help him and to make him happy
15:11
and he took full advantage of that to the point of using me
15:20
sexually when I and I I people still insist
15:27
that my consent was there the whole while but I was kind of
15:34
overcompensating bragging to try and make myself feel better when I was feel actually feeling
15:43
really really bad and gross the whole
15:51
while so yeah there was the matter of
15:57
um what I might consider rape or sexual
16:04
assault and then there was the matter of um what people refer to as
16:11
grooming and my part in that
16:17
and how much I enabled how much I let things slide that
16:25
I really shouldn't have
16:31
and how people think that it's me when I was just following along in
16:39
his hairbrain scheme and this particular spirit I
16:46
defended for years and years and years even before he
16:53
died saying that you know
17:00
he didn't have a thing with children but I wonder
17:07
anymore because why did he go to such lengths to talk to
17:14
them why did he keep putting me in
17:21
danger I was being doxed and harassed in real life and he just kept
17:27
going so I don't
17:32
know I don't think when he was alive he ever did anything inappropriate
17:41
but now that my Paradigm has been shifted because of online spaces I find
17:47
myself in where paraphilia are openly discussed and unconventional attractions
17:55
are openly discussed
18:01
um now I think that he at least should have worked through with
18:10
someone some type of paraphilic
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Attraction I'm not
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saying I'm saying that
18:29
an attraction in your mind that you don't act on is different
18:37
from actually harming a
18:43
child and that could have that could have been involved but I'm not inside
18:48
his mind anymore I mean I used to channel him so
18:56
hard so
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deeply that there really wasn't much of a line between
19:15
us and again this this didn't stop on this wasn't just online he was
19:23
interrupting my life I was becoming almost late for work
19:29
my family was noticing the strange emotions that were coming out of me that weren't
19:39
mine it was getting too much I even reached out
19:44
to Chris Fleming who was a pretty famous medium and he answered back at the time
19:52
that at the time his opinion was that it was wrong for
19:58
the dead to use your body to experience re-experience life but he since flipped
20:04
on
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that and that was a whole other aspect of what I consider to be like rape but
20:18
in a more spiritual sense that my body was being used
20:25
without my asking
20:31
so this entire thing happened and
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um oh yeah he would possess me a lot it was uncomfortable this whole
20:47
Invasion this whole moving
20:53
speaking when I wasn't he would just his energy would
21:00
just come in and just overpower
21:07
me and then he got into a relationship with someone that in
21:16
hindsight he really shouldn't have and that got even
21:26
worse and for the respect of the person's privacy I won't go into any more details than
21:33
that but um that be also became very
21:38
abusive very very abusive and I'm not saying that he was
21:43
an abusive person beforehand I just think that all
21:49
of this pain bled out of him and in turn with with them
21:58
and it just created this completely toxic cycle that lasted
22:05
years and when he finally broke out of that that was the only time
22:14
that he finally started to find a sense of Peace but not before up a few
22:20
more people which is where I get to Spirit
22:25
number three and this is where we get into deeply
22:32
controversial territory because up to now I've been
22:37
speaking about spirits who despite number two being arrested
22:43
and being on trial was acquitted found
22:51
innocent spirit number three was
22:56
arrested put on trial and it was very obvious that he
23:02
had done horrible horrible
23:08
things and as a matter of fact he died while on death
23:17
row but I was in the point of my witchcraft
23:24
Journey where I was reaching into the deepest depths of
23:31
Darkness how edgy does that sound to try and
23:39
learn ult
23:44
knowledge and so I reached out to this Spirit to try and get some kind
23:52
of leg up over other practitioners of the
23:59
ult Satanism demonolatry and we
24:06
together helped summon um the demon from the
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nun volak Vic and
24:20
she what did I even ask I think it was helped to find a job at that point yeah
24:27
was helped to find a job at that point because this was September of
24:37
2016 so that was his help his involvement and it was supposed
24:43
to end there but as things have a way of
24:49
happening he decided to stick around decided he liked me used to call me
24:56
brewha which means witch in
25:03
Spanish decided he wanted the relationship to be
25:09
a lot more than a working relationship and considering what we did to summon that
25:14
first demon that was kind of on
25:24
me I'll give you a hint it was very crowy in
25:35
nature so things kind of progressed from there but
25:42
this if you think what I had with Spirit number
25:48
two was off the wall and
25:55
strange and you think it was taken things a step too far with Spirit number
26:01
three to involve him in Witchcraft and summoning a demon and all of
26:09
this when I get to Spirit number four well you won't believe
26:17
this so let's back up a little bit Spirit number
26:24
two I did try and reach out to family and friends and loved ones of
26:31
his but I never received any
26:39
reply so fast forward
26:45
to and I'm not sure exactly if it was the very end of 2016 or the very
26:52
beginning of 2017 but it was somewhere in there we thought
26:59
hell we have one very very evil
27:07
spirit that we've attracted added into
27:13
our Herm as some people call
27:19
it why not one more and at the
27:24
time I didn't realized how deep this one was going to go and that it would be my
27:32
deepest Spirit relationship ever but you
27:39
know life never goes as we think it's going to
27:47
go we found [Music] him back at the scene of the
27:55
crime because it turns out just like in life in
28:02
death he thinks a lot he thinks a little bit too much he's too much up in his
28:09
head too much too many thoughts too many fantasies that was this whole thing
28:17
fantasies overtaking
28:23
reality and apparently as he's explained
28:29
in
28:35
hindsight he became again so corrupted so overtaken
28:41
by these fantasies that he lost reality again only when you're a spirit
28:50
a ghost your Consciousness shapes real ity
29:00
itself he had no idea what year it was he had no idea where he
29:10
was all he had were his thoughts his feelings his
29:17
fantasies and he was trapped on that spot for who knows how
29:25
long and this happened even even though he had been reached out to by
29:31
family and brought to the other side or he calls it
29:37
Heaven I don't think it's that permanent you know when shows
29:45
like Ghost Whisper or whatever when the spirit crosses over goes into the light
29:52
whatever it seems permanent it's it's
29:58
not they can come back whenever they want to it's just that now when they've connected back into
30:06
that Universal energy they're less at risk
30:13
of the dehumanization that can happen from being
30:18
um Earthbound and stuck inide this bubble of your fantasies but his were so
30:26
intense that it was as if he was still Earthbound and he lost his way
30:35
back over there and his family hadn't seen him in
30:42
years so we found him and we kind of unstuck
30:49
him but as it turned out he still had some fighting to
30:56
do and again Spirit number two come
31:02
up everyone's lives by thinking that if he elopes with Spirit number
31:10
four he can get into whatever you want to call it Heaven the other side and see
31:17
his father so
31:24
he decides to use one more person but this time he with the wrong
31:30
guy because this guy feeling
31:36
abandoned is tant him out to murder and what does he do exactly
31:45
that Spirit number four kills Spirit number two and because they're both
31:51
ghosts is not like it's permanent
31:58
kills [Music] him disappears again and then we can't
32:04
find him again for
32:16
years I'd have to say it was about two years that we couldn't find
32:25
him and in that time he had got even more lost than he
32:33
was
32:44
before and if not for a friend of
32:49
mine he might have been permanently lost and if I get a little emotional in
32:56
here so what happened just
33:06
before that with Spirit number
33:11
two is he was finally starting to let his heart crack
33:21
open and starting to re-evaluate his life a little bit accept himself a little bit more
33:29
accept his feelings a little bit more and a way that he never had before
33:36
because he severely repressed
33:43
himself and that was at the detriment of other people around him
33:52
because well if you knew who he was you wouldn't be half as sympathetic
33:59
but see I found myself in a group of people who are sympathetic to
34:07
him and that's really helped him not hate himself as much now you may argue
34:14
but he should hate himself because
34:20
of and that's see from what I've
34:25
learned starting to re-evaluate
34:31
myself and the fact that I have paraphilic attractions
34:39
myself is that shaming yourself and repressing
34:45
them doesn't do anything they don't disappear you you don't you don't fix
34:51
the problem if anything you just make it worse
35:04
so with that in
35:11
mind he repressed he made himself ashamed and
35:20
then proverbial Pandora's box once you open it you can't get
35:28
everything inside to go back in once he Uncorked that bottle there
35:34
was no going back and it turned
35:39
into one of the most disturbing events in modern human
35:46
history so again how can any of us have sympathy for him the fact of the matter
35:53
is to a lesser extent we are him we've
36:01
never went the lengths
36:07
or push the limits like he
36:21
did but the reason in my life why I came to relate to
36:28
Spirit number three and spirit number
36:37
four was because I grappled a lot with these
36:44
sides of me that are very dark disturbing
36:50
Twisted up I tried to be be ashamed of them I
36:57
tried to repress them I tried to make them go away but that didn't work so
37:04
now owning up to that I have them and in a way embracing and
37:10
accepting that I have them has been better for my mental
37:16
health and anything else I've ever tried but it
37:24
comes with the caveat that nobody will understand and you'll attract a lot of
37:34
and there are still aspects of of it that I have
37:40
to hide sorry about the noon
37:51
[Music] whistle
38:03
the people don't sometimes deliberately it would seem try to understand paraphilic
38:12
attractions they want to
38:21
just put this coat on you that says you're a gross disgusting inhuman
38:30
monster and then just shove both you and a coat in the clauset and forget about
38:41
you this little club that I find of
38:51
people this little Club of people that I find myself in that are sympathetic to this man
38:58
despite everything a lot of us have the
39:03
paraphilia too and have felt
39:12
outcasted and we understand that that played a part in what he later
39:19
became that stigma so
39:29
we're trying to not only encourage more sympathy of him but
39:34
encourage more sympathy of people with paraphilia in general notice I do not
39:39
say paraphilic disorders and that's because I don't
39:47
think of them as disorders like I used to you'll still find them in the
39:55
DSM matter of fact he was diagnosed with several of them by the forensic
40:04
psychologists both in the trial and afterwards when he was in
40:13
prison but again like I said my paradigms have been
40:18
shifted some might say in a very controversial Direction
40:25
but that's just one part of it I've I've
40:31
accepted these paraphilic attractions and I've also got a better
40:37
grip on the anger that I used to
40:43
have and it's this anger [Music] too that
40:50
um people remember and that's all they want to see in me
40:57
even though I've for the past God it's going to be it's almost
41:04
2024 and I just can't believe that it's been almost three
41:10
years since I started my journey with
41:17
druidry because I first picked up one of those books in the middle of the
41:25
pandemic so
41:39
um for me it's very hard to strike balances and I I think that's because of
41:45
my neurod Divergence it's very hard to strike
41:50
balances between um mild and
41:58
this is with anything interest
42:08
symptoms I tend to get obsessive with
42:15
things and so when I first got into druidry I was like
42:21
okay pacifism you were to be a very peaceful
42:29
person I went like Jedi almost like forget about the
42:36
anger anger is not
42:41
good you know I got to a point where I was like can I still be involved with Spirit
42:48
number three who was a violent person in life and still
42:54
be yeah it was it was affecting me to the point where I was questioning significant
43:06
relationships but then
43:13
um the Heen Heen re re rebalanced
43:19
me because there are doctrines in
43:24
um not set in stone or anything but
43:31
um the society Old North Society was very Vengeance based you know eye for an
43:38
eye thing and I I wasn't going to um get into that again because that um
43:47
got me into trouble when I was a very early witch Satanist what have you the whole thing
43:55
where I was flinging curses fast and loose and
44:00
I flung one in the wrong direction and became a meme
44:13
but so I I went a while without doing any baneful
44:20
magic and then I found um sather or troll them as it's also
44:30
called and the folk curses of Scandinavian culture
44:35
actually rather fun so I found peace with um doing some
44:43
of them especially against
44:53
theves like for an example
45:01
um and you can still see if you look I'm surprised nobody's ever asked me about
45:10
it I wrote this strange set of letters over the basement
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door below my apartment here because my friend had gotten things stolen from her
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out of the basement so I was like I got you and I wrote
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this I don't know incantation or strange letters above the doorway
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because you know the thief passing through the doorway with these letters would Confessor I forget exactly how it
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worked but it didn't ultimately work but
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um all these interesting little little folk spells and everything from Norway
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and Sweden they almost don't feel like curses they're just so like one that I
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did another one that was um against a thief was um again writing
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these strange letters on paper and then putting egg over it and
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then burning it I mean that doesn't feel like a curse
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so yeah so I I circled
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back and I've found the anger again but this time it's not out of control this
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time it's controll that's channeled it's in a small sense like I'm not you
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know sword fighting anyone but in a small sense I've kind of adopted um
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Berserker Ang which is um the Berserkers
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were um Warriors in the Viking age
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that would Channel their anger into um a trance state of rage and be these
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Unstoppable Fighters and so I've gotten better at
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channeling angry energy and again I might have mentioned
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in in a past video with the th th size room is very
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effective at helping you do that so um I've come back around to a
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lot of the things but
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uh you don't understand what it's like unless you
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live it having violent thoughts and impulses and
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Fantasies and everything sometimes intermingling with your your sexual
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desires arousal attraction what have you until you actually live it you don't
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under you don't understand what that feels like so with both of them I can I can relate
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so much to what they went through it's just that I
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have I don't know what you would call it I have these stop gaps safety
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valves not just my spiritual ethical systems
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but I'm hyper empathetic versus them having low empathy
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so it's never it's never made the jump to real life it's never it's never left
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my mind but but um can I acknowledge in regards to my
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mental health that I have had
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homicidal inclinations yes it's not difficult for me
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to to say that because um it's just the truth and it's and it's something that
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we shouldn't be ashamed about we should be able to talk about because um the fact that Society doesn't talk about it
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I think is a lot of the problem and unfortunately why a lot of
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these um these mass shootings keep happening because there's
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no healthy Outlet especially for masculine
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anger so um
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so when he came
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back it was as if five years had hadn't passed at all
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we just fell into each
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other
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it's unlike anything I've ever
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experienced it's a love that almost borders on Obsession going both
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ways probably has to do with shared
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trauma my fears of Abandonment his fears of
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Abandonment the fact that in my gender Journey I've acknowledged that I am at least partially masculine
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male and he's ridiculously
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gay so it's became
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some incredibly special for both of
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us and that is why I don't care what anyone has to
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say because you're not living this you're
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not feeling the joy and the the passion and everything that this
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is bringing not only in my life but what he missed out in his
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life what he could have had I'm not gonna I'm not going to get
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it I'm not going to get too emotional I've been talking for far too
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long but I just wanted to say um
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that is the overarching goal of not only
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my relationship with him but our metamor
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relationship and this whole project with the blog that people seem
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to hate so much that I'm not going to link because
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I'm not going to encourage any more hate traffic to it than it's already
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[Music]
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gotten and um it
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just meshes back in with everything else that I do um in regards to
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cultivating peace understanding Harmony within the wider
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World Within
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Myself and kind of in a way being his Advocate because
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he before the criminal trial before any of that even happened way back to when
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he was a teenager he needed to be
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heard and now he's being heard unfortunately you know poly as a
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as a spirit but but now we're actually cutting through all of
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the notoriety and the and actually getting down to his
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soul that always needed to be heard so
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if you hate us then you don't understand what we're doing because Spirit
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work is about um not what the spirits can do for you
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but what you can do for the spirits it's a two-way street it's a relationship it's a very deep
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and very fulfilling Rel relationship if you if you let
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it
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so that is certainly enough for now I will try and get back to a regular
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posting schedule but I feel like November's going to be a little
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nuts um I don't know why but it always feels like every year I'm preparing for
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something to happen in November and well I think it's going to happen in
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2024 and hopefully it's goes in a positive
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direction but yeah um that's it for
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now I know as soon as this hits it's going to
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be dissected and GIF and whatever the hell miserable people
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do but I don't care because I was just I needed to speak my mind about some
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things and now it's out in the universe and whatever happens to it now I don't
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care it's just been spoken
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um maybe next month I'll finally get into talking talking more about Loki and how things have been
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going with him or maybe I'll decide to go in a completely different direction
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but this one I I intended to do this almost from the
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get-go and I just never got around it until now
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so and I'm posting this right up it's it's not being scheduled for the future
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future I'm posting it right up you're putting it out there and to just be done with
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it so um
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yeah sa is almost in the rearview mirror I've got my candy bags ready I just
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decided that I was going to put some uh bracelets from Pride left over
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from pride in them that say uh trans rights or human rights
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because we need that kind of energy and
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um who the hell knows for the rest of the year other than planning Ule the rest of the year in a Gregorian
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calendar sense in the wheel of the year or in the wheel of the Year sense it's a
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new year uh but just taking life day by day and I
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hope um everyone else's too I hope you're
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finding peace and Owen in your lives and I hope
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you're just living life for yourself and the
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haters um TransPass Druids signing off again
Edit: I'm gonna guess you don't watch much Chantal, do you?
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Thirsty ass simp.
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Who the fuck holds cans like that? Iv seen toddlers manage better.
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This is what she really thinks of The Brown.
I am half Dutch and half Acadian and can only be calmed by the sound of dikes being built. They say The Brown are calmed by the sound of mud huts being built.
I hope she gets denied until she claims FAS instead of autism.
It's funny how he only died when she lost interest and found his way back when she was interested again.
Maybe she's trying to show off her dyspraxic street cred.
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I’d feel bad about laughing / making disgusted noises at such an obviously deficient retard, but she’s just so vile. Utterly hopeless lost cause. A complete waste of a life.
An empty shill
kiwifarms.net
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Because...rule for thee, not meeeeeeereeeee!
This so much. Just cause you have a mental disorder of some type, doesn't excuse you from being a repugnant ass.
After all, if even those that suffer downs syndrome can still tell the difference from right and wrong, Steffles can too.
No amount of autisim, etc., etc., is an excuse for it. If even some with down's syndrome knows how to behave better than you, you're just an ass.
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I'm going to take this as confirmation that her recent claims of sexual assault were related to the ghosts husbandos. That's pretty much exactly what she claimed: that it wasn't exactly rape, but it was sexual activity that made her uncomfortable.
She actually used her imaginary ghost rape-- which she is also using to deflect from the previous accusations of grooming minors, not to be confused with the current accusations of pedophilia-- as a gotcha.
It's almost like her weird and gross fantasies really do interfere with her life and with the lives of others, contrary to what she claims.
I propose we name her drinking style the "FAS Big Gulp."
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This is what she gets like right before losing her shit.
The dogs know she is a sus animal abuser.
No you don't hunny. Does she think they would fuck her or she would help them in their crimes?
Do we have the video she was banned for?
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I think it was this one.
She received these things in the mail and thought she was being targeted, but it seemed like random far right spam mail that any rando could get sent.
Good god, leave the spear at home. She really puts the 'SOW' in SOW-in.
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Wasn't there a whole deal a while back about Trump needing two hands to drink a glass of water?
Is Staph's video a MAGA dogwhistle?
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Now this? This is autism lunch.
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Do you think she really went out to give them like her Facebook event said? Why not just give out candy from your doorstep like a normal person? We got like 30 kids tonight. Without her ugly patches, I think treat bags are fine. She has to ruin everything good.
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If you haven't created a Facebook event, made a cardboard sign announcing SAIMHAIN CANDY WITH THE SPARKLING YUZU, or plan on sitting on your porch without holding a bunch of weapons to hand candy out on Halloween, then why are you even bothering? Only the most virtuous of druids gives trick or treaters candy at Halloween! Its a very special and grand event when THE druid does it!
Seriously though, who the fuck thinks they're being especially gracious by handing out candy at Halloween. She's such a narcissist.
What the fuck is a bag-chair? Does she mean bean bag?
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This is a level of obesity us normies cannot comprehend.
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I take an extended break from Yarbles because the fanfic bored me and I come back to her being a full on pedo and claiming her fantasies raped her. Will wonders ever cease?
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One last scare for Halloween:
She got into an edgy slapfight on Tumblr:
In conclusion:
Man, I love that shes gone back to the classic days of slapfighting, now with an added edgy twist.
Bonus:
Her way of thinking about gender is exhausting.
She got into an edgy slapfight on Tumblr:
In conclusion:
Man, I love that shes gone back to the classic days of slapfighting, now with an added edgy twist.
Bonus:
Her way of thinking about gender is exhausting.
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It’s pronounced sah-win, you fat retard.
If I was out with my kids and this fucking thing was sitting on a bean bag chair on the street, brandishing a “spear”, I’d make my kid cross the road.Halloween:
I definitely wouldn’t let them anywhere near her. She’s gained weight, too. Looking more moonfaced than ever. I thought she was slimming down for her rot dog?
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Girl, internalized misandry where?? a man can literally rape, torture, and kill teens and you make excuses for him just being misunderstood
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She's getting off on this slapfight and literally liveblogging it. Social media was a mistake.