I think only her innate defiance has kept her from outbursts until now.
I don't think so in this case. She made it clear in last night's live that she
should be able to get upset and rage/emotionally vomit to her fans and supporters (Haydurs) but
she was kept from being herself. That's paraphrasing it but the message was clear, she
wasn't free to be herself. Those one hour time-limit lives were not her choice either. Sometimes she obeyed, sometimes she didn't, but there was a clear difference in her lives cuz she wasn't overtly raging. That boring-ness was killing her too.
The only time I saw real emotional dread/fear was when she finished laughing about her hairy nip-slip. She looked worried and said, "Oh no, I'm gonna be in...." and then changed the sentence. She also said that the only thing Salah unequivocally required regarding her Muslim cosplaying garb was the hijab. She looked worried when her hijab threw her under the bus. In terms of her wearing a wig, as per the Amina or whoever comment on Piggy's video, she stated in a video towards the end of her Bangkok Visa Beeze that Salah has never seen her without the hijab or some head covering. I don't care if what Amina said was true about wearing a wig, Chantal herself said he'd never seen her without some head covering. I don't think it was a lie because she was caught off guard by the question and stumble mumbled over her response but it was clear Salad has never seen the true Balding of Chantal's Pate.
If someone were to count words per topic, the overwhelming thing she mentioned was;
Food gloriously food, hot sausage and mustard!!
As has been mentioned repeatedly here, it's all about the Food, and as I said before
, No one puts Baby in a corner without her favorite food!!
She did also very very quietly say that she needed to deal with some health issues.
This is Chantal and I'm not putting any money on exactly what I think will come of this particular live, but Chantal is breaching the beach, just not sure on which one she will land. Our gorl is bored and, more importantly, now can't get her desired fix.
Something will change, however slowly, she will not be denied.