This is pretty much going to be the opposite of the typical post you might see like this lol, also idk if this is a good sub for this but this was the first one to come to mind since I stalk here often since I'm ftm.
Recently my boyfriend (was mtf, now doesn't really know) told me that he was struggling with his gender and wasn't sure if he was like fully a girl and just isn't sure about a lot of stuff related to his gender anymore. Ofc I'm being as supportive as I possibly can, I love him more than anything, but I just haven't been handling it well since he said that he might be cis, even though he still isn't sure.
He still enjoys femininity and wants to transition to a point (he's pre-anything, just wants to go on e), but him bringing up that he might be cis just scared me because us being t4t is just one of the things that I've enjoyed the most from our relationship. It makes me feel like I'm really understood and it's made me feel so much more comfortable with him than anyone else that I've ever been with because I never felt there would ever be any judgement from him. I still don't, but I'm scared that something might change for some reason? I think it's just me being irrationally fearful, especially since having a lot of bad experiences with cis men, but I can't help but be scared of it.
Another thing I'm really struggling with is that I just don't see him as a man in any way, he's just a girl to me and he has been basically since he came out to me (he came out to me when we barely knew each other still so there wasn't any sorta "getting used to it" on my part), and I'm scared that I'll never see him that way if he does end up being cis or even some mix of things and I'm scared it'll fuck with our relationship in some way. I've talked to him about it and he says he'll be patient with me if that's the case but I'm just terrified honestly, I don't want to lose him, I love him regardless of who he is.
I'm not even entirely sure why I'm making this post, I guess to just talk to someone? Hope that there's someone else that can relate? Looking for advice? I'm not sure but anything really is welcome.