Holy shit, a few days ago I was listening to this song High as fuck. (not this exact version) and I cried.
There are better versions of Cohen's version of that song, agree. That one came up first today. The Jeff Buckley version is most known, but I'm a Leonard Cohen fan. And I think I posted a different Cohen song in the music thread recently - in any case, if you liked it, highly recommend him generally.
This album is a good starter.
And crying is OK.
Do you know how many bald and short men are highly successful?
Fixable, if you care
What's your prescription? more importantly, why is this a negative? It's just a...thing.
doesn't have a 6+ inch penis,
No1curr. Truly not a big deal.
This is something you can work on.
Why does this concern you? And why not change it, if you are bothered?
OK, this should be a focus. But it is something you can apply yourself to.
Relative. And also doubtful. You write coherently and indicate a level of introspection. Therefore: not an idiot.
Yes, as noted, fix this.
That's a fact-pattern, not a permanent condition.
I cannot cut my family out of my life, they're all I have left.
OK. But if they make it impossible for you not to not become dependent on substance es that hurt your life, consider that.
If they're gone, I have nobody, and when I have nobody, nothing will matter,
Life has value when you treat it that way. I'm not meaning to diminish the importance of family and connection, but you
as you, and your life, have value regardless of others.
and when nothing matters... God knows what I'm willing to do.
Don't give in to that sort of thinking,
I've been to other countries before as a kid. But not as an adult.
So see? There's a world of new and untried things out there for you. And it's huge.
Above all of those things, the thing I hate about myself. Is my lack of desire to fight.
So fight! Forget "desire" or emotionally based anything; just fight for your self.
My lack of willpower. I can identity each and every individual problem around me, know all of them. Maybe even figure out a solution. But I never make the slightest bit of effort to tackle any of them. Because I'm scared.
Fear is OK. But fear is just a feeling. I've mentioned before a book I once read - and it was useful, but the main thing that stuck with me was the title: Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway.
Do things that scare you.
Wrong. The Bible says God and family is above all. Love them and do not abandon them.
To some extent.
Taking proper care of yourself - even if it means separating from bad influences until you have the ability to do right even with the influence - is more aligned to God than willingly putting yourself in a place that damages you. And taking care of yourself is not abandoning other people. You know how airplanes have that card about putting the oxygen mask on yourself before in others? It's like that. You can't be for others if you aren't healthy yourself. And if those others are adults, your self-sacrifice helps no one. Don't use dysfunctional situations as an excuse for not taking care of yourself.