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I think there’s a lot of truth to that. I dont have time to find tbe post right now but she wrote on her blog ( i think it was called something like whoring was actually good for me) where she details falling in love with a guy to the point where she didnt have any interest in sleeping with other people ( wow but i thought that was impossible for polys)Interesting read. She defines polyamory as simply being fine if your partner cheats, or even giving them permission and encouragement to cheat.
VERY good.
This makes me wonder if Aella is polyamorous for herself or to please others (eliminating herself as a target for suspicion). Like, is she insistent that having any boundaries/restrictions on the relationship is abusive/unfair because she resents being told she can't do something, or is part of her trying to create an ethical system she thinks will help her avoid getting hurt/causing conflict? I tend to think it's the former, but there's a lot of projection there, so it's almost like she thinks being sooooo permissive with her partners is how she can endear herself to them and "keep" them. They will be ever so grateful that she freed them from whatever self-hatred she thinks all monogamous people (like herself) have. That would explain why she's so frustrated with not being able to settle down. She became the ultimate Cool Girl, and it hasn't made men fawn over her in the way she hoped. It only makes people take her for granted instead of greeting her as a liberator.
This guy, on the other hand basically told her he didnt find her sexually attractive and was just banging her for her brain or something (lol) so he brought a constant strean of hotter younger girls to loudly bang while she cried in her room. Allowing this to go on for months spiraled her into depression and she says she got over it by whoring herself out so she could feel sexually attractive again.
Obviously lacking self awareness and complete lunacy. I’ll go into more detail about why in case anyone reading this doesn’t understand why…
This is obviously the behavior of someone with very low self worth. Her dogmatic insistence that poly is the only true way actually allowed her to be gaslit into thinkibg the toxic relationship she describes was fine, and that it was actually good to hold on to a relationship where she wasn’t valued or respected. Classic co dependency that comes out of childhood trauma and abandonment.
Instead of realizing, wow it’s pretty fucked up that i went along with that, maybe I should get therapy, learn how to gain self worth outside of being sexually desired, learn to stand up for myself and what I really want, she engages in more self destructive behavior to fill the emotional need ( prostitution). And actually publicly justifies it.
Instead of realizing, wow it’s pretty fucked up that i went along with that, maybe I should get therapy, learn how to gain self worth outside of being sexually desired, learn to stand up for myself and what I really want, she engages in more self destructive behavior to fill the emotional need ( prostitution). And actually publicly justifies it.
I cant help feeling like people who nod along to this stuff are probably just as broken as she is or extremely naive.
it’s a little scary to me that, unlike trannies, a lot of these rationalist people are starting to reproduce or trying to
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