She had a nuclear level meltdown two hours after posting her last update video, manifesting in a "huge panic attack, a meltdown, a full insomnia episode, and physical issues arose from the amount of stress [she] was causing herself" [s
ide note: how do you have insomnia right after a panic attack? I've always found myself so drained after one that I found it easy. Super stress = insomnia, yes, but panic attack where you powerfully expunge that stress? No]
She cancelled the trip the morning of due to acid reflux
Refers to Tyler as James. Wonder if Tyler goes by his middle name (which is also his father's name)
Lots of woe is me, "mental illness is cruel" type stuff
This meltdown's triggers included her seeing a local singer named
Taylor Grace have an album drop party in Florence. Being at this party made her feel inadequate since she'd have a different career path than this young pretty woman
Polissa will self sabotage if she doesn't know how to do anything, something, and everything
Claims she has auditory processing disorder because she has ADHD. If she's in an enclosed space, she can't hear shit, especially if the person talking is a dude. Oh, but then crowd noises hurt her and--
Since the hotel was crowded, it "triggered" her auditory condition, sending her into the full blown meltdown thirty minutes into the party due to sensory overload. She had to be taken out shortly after the singer started performing
If she goes out in public for longer than 30-45 minutes, she experiences sensory overload
Pledges that she'll try again, because she's been wanting this after twenty years of failure, despite that she self sabotages and experiences "what if brain" until she melts down
More elaboration on last summer: A "sausage party" wanted a young pretty girl on stage, Polissa volunteered and was promptly rejected. They also had actual recording sessions and that triggered Polissa's inferiority complex too. Not that it matters, because they were "shooting their own foot" for being a dick to her