Edit2: Some people explained me in the DM's that I was sexually assaulted, I didn't thought about that that before but I feel weird and bad thinking that maybe it was like that (yes, I have some trouble with feeling too guilty about everything, I'm sorry). I try to read only the good comments, but it's hard to ignore the comments of insistent people who says I'm a pos, I don't want to keep feeling bad for not sleeping with her because I have been always really supporting of every LGBT people so yes, even if it sounds stupid I feel guilty for making her feel rejected because that led me to feel really uncomfortable in that situation, I don't want to think that I was sexually assaulted in some way because she wanted to keep kissing me when I didn't wanted, it makes me feel sick (and I want to think it wasn't like that) and the comments calling me transphobic make me feel worse for not having slept with her even if I wasn't at all attracted to her in the hotel, I don't want to think that if I'm really a victim, I'm feeling guilty about it and if I'm really a victim then the comments are really sick and disgusting, My sister always told me that if you felt assulted then it was like that but I really don't want to believe that because it has made me feel weird .
I'm just going to delete the account so that everything gets deleted, I want to forget what happened and it was a mistake to make the post because the comments are a mess in general.
I'm just going to make it clear again that this is not a hate post but people wants to be the victim and they project their traumas with my post, my experience with a trans person is never going to change my opinion about an entire community. Thanks for the nice comments but this place is just too much and I think a lot of people don't even read the whole post or are too young to have reading comprehension.
Telling someone that they're confused about their sexuality and that they need to experiment is sexual assault, that's something many in the comments should understand.
Edit: I feel weird about people saying that I feel confused when I'm not (And yes, I tought about that and I'm not confused. To see it in some way I can say that I experimented and I didn't like it, that's it. And if you want me to say it directly; I like cis women's vaginas. I respect everyone but I can't force myself to be attracted to other bodies), I think it's even aggressive to want someone to believe that they like something they don't.
Also, transphobic comments are unnecessary and disrespectful. This is not a bait post and I don't want trans people to feel attacked by those kind of comments because it's not my intention, I think people can comment without being aggressive. I don't know if the mods can do something about those comments. This isn't a hate post, I don't know why people in the comments can't give their opinion without being aggressive or projecting themselves with the story.
I'm a straight man, I started talking to a girl on a dating app who looked very nice and we share similar tastes, I'm not looking for anything serious so it was fine, we had a date in person and although she had a deep voice I didn't think anything of it.
We went to a hotel and while we were touching each other I noticed that her body was different, it felt different but I couldn't tell what was making me feel uncomfortable because we still had clothes on.
I stopped and I looked at her for a few seconds trying to understand what was different, I guess she noticed how I was feeling because she confessed to me that she's trans and instantly tried to continue kissing but I stopped her.
I don't really know how to say this without being called transphobic but I like cis women, I believe in trans rights and always supported them but I'm not attracted to them. It's just a matter of preferences And if I didn't even like kissing her without knowing she's trans then I'm sure this isn't for me. I experimented and didn't like it, that's all.
To be honest I was annoyed that she didn't told me before that she's trans. Most of LGBT people on those apps have their flag on the bio but I didn't reproach that to her because she doesn't have to put the flag if she doesn't want to, I told her that we better stop everything here and she instantly got angry and started to say that I'm just reacting like that because I got confused and I need to try to find out whether or not I like being with a trans girl, I replied that I am honestly not confused and I do not feel comfortable. I tried to be really respectful when she was getting angry and I didn't wanted to be there anymore.
I just left the hotel and she wrote me a text cursing me and saying that many mans loves trans womans but they're too afraid to admit it.
I have a trans friend and he told me that she is wrong but I can't help but feel guilty and that maybe I was cruel to her by rejecting her but I really felt something ¿different? On her even before knowing that she's trans, the instant I found out that I didn't felt a bit of attraction or curiosity, AITA?
English is not my first language, I write almost everything from the translator.
