Imagine how depressing his life is. Sure he puts up a front on stream about supposedly not caring what anyone says about him that only the smoothest of brains would believe is genuine, but deep down he knows just how shitty his life is - Still hungover and feeling like shit, has to get himself ready for a stream that night knowing that everyone is just going to be shitting on you, and the superchats you do get are barely any money, and most of them will just be people paying you pennies to get you to say out loud what a piece of shit you are. All while knowing that every single face you make, every word you say, and even every part of your face/body shown on camera will be hyper-analyzed by people who adamantly hate you.
This is all while drowning in a lawsuit that you caused in the most easily avoidable way possible.
Geez, at that point, just do what you egged on John for. I'm willing to bet FAR more people like John, both on the internet and real life, than you.