Im very upset with myself. I had the worst day in almost my entire life. My best friend died today. Couple that with my fiance breaking up with me and losing my job, and Im just a depressive wreck today.
I was trying to decompress right now and watch something on my PC. I was frustrated with my lack on cleaning my PC and monitor and decided to try to do something good for myself and not wallow in my guilt- I thought my 91% alcohol was perfect for cleaning electronics after modding controllers, etc.
Well, instead of doing a 2 second google search, in my frantic and depressed mind, I immediately just dabbed a bit on my microfiber cloth and started wiping (turned off monitor first. Have reheated pizza and an anime ready to watch, with a drink, just trying to forget today)...
Well, I noticed a kinda splotch in the middle. I immediately googled it and within literally 2 seconds I found out that it is NOT a good idea, it may wipe off an anti-glare coating, etc.
and IF you must, dilute it 50% with water. So I immediately grabbed my distilled water and slightly dampened my microfiber cloth and wiped it away. It did seem to help.
I dont notice much now, but Im seriously concerned. This monitor cost $600 at the time of my overpriced purchase. Im moments away from becoming homeless and I cant ever imagine affording a monitor like this ever again (nor my PC of dreams which is gonna die soon due to lack of cooling).
Ive cried enough today after losing him... And now Im welling up again. How can I fuck up everything I touch? How can I be such a HUGE advocate of googling things for yourself but yet absent-mindedly started wiping my monitor BEFORE double checking? Im so ashamed of myself. This monitor ive embarrasingly been very proud of to have been able to afford and use before. I loved having a 240hz high end monitor.
Can someone please lemme know if I wrecked it? It looks fine with all the lights on but Im just so worried. Im so upset I didnt just take the seconds to google it first instead of *after,* I just thought I knew better and was so stuck in my thoughts.
Man what am I even gonna do? Im sure I destroyed some layer of upper-plastic coating from all that I read. I just used a small dab of 91% ISO on the microfiber, but I could still see the moisture on the screen from wiping. Ive always thought the higher percent ISO the safer it was on technology, but after reading specifically about wiping screens with it, it seems the exact opposite. The lower percent seems to be a lot safer.
Even worse, it seems the slight distilled water wipe did wonders compared to the 91% ISO that Im now literally welling up thinking Ive ruined the last nice thing Ill ever afford before I pass.
Im sorry, its been quite the emotional day. Im probably subconsciously trying to not focus on the passing of yet another best friend but... This was all I had. Im flat broke and about to be evicted and this was my pride and joy. I was hoping to just try and lose myself in a show for awhile after sobbing all day... But before I can even start, I ruin the one thing I have left.
Now my pizza is sitting cold on the counter and Im just so freaking worried, yet again. I just wanted to eat some hot pizza and watch something after being so physically and mentally drained from such a rough day. And now I feel all these emotions coming back to me so strongly. I feel its driving me crazy. Ive lost too much. I cant keep losing more, not when its my own fault. I just want my friend back. Id smash this whole PC just for one more day with them. But instead, I just lose even more. Both irreplicable things (one so much more than the other) and I just dont know what to do now.
I know tomorrow's gonna be worse.
I tried to wipe away any remnant ISO left on the screen with the slight amount of distilled water as quickly as I could (ofc I googled it *right* after I wiped), is there any thing else I can do?
Sorry for the long post...Its been a long day.