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- Oct 7, 2023
the only one i can really think of is more of a missed opportunity. i overlooked a lot of stuff because at the time (about 15 years ago) i was just thinking with my dick.
i was dating this young woman who was a college student. she at one point told me she thought [underage actress in popular media] was hot. i asked, "isn't she underage?" as if i was informing her of this, not realizing (or wanting to realize i guess) she had already known this obvious information.
she was one of those insane liberals who tried to "nuance" everything. said 'non offending pedophiles' shouldn't be looked down on, etc. i replied with the usual, all pedophiles should die. she clammed up and hit me with "well my friend is a pedophile and his girlfriend doesn't mind putting her hair in pigtails and dressing the part to make him happy." wrote it off as her having fucking weird friends. i wonder now if she was the one who did that stuff for her previous boyfriend, and if this was just some weird form of equivocation.
the only real reason i started questioning that stuff is because after we broke up, i found out she had told all her roommates previously that she was a "they/them" and to use a shortened version of her name. i knew nothing about this and would still call her by her full name and use she/her pronouns. one of her male friends i had met for the first time got big eyes and asked me, "oh, you don't kno-" and the young lady panicked and started telling him to "shut up" over and over again. again, i was just trying to fuck, so i wrote it off as them being weird.
we parted on decent terms. at the time i used party drugs and she sold out of her student housing, so i kept her number and would hit her up when i needed something. she was upset i didn't want to hang out and after a while cut me off and blocked me, iirc.
i occasionally think back at just how many fucking red flags i ignored, and really wish i could take a look at her hard drive. she was internet savvy, an active l.u.e. links user, bought drugs off the silk road, etc. no doubt in my mind she could've easily have found cp if she wanted to.
not gonna post any identifying details. not interested in going after this lady after all this time. but when i saw the "personal lolcow" title, it made me think of her.
bonus story: she was one of those white girls who thought psychedelics were a spiritual experience. first time i ever took a big dose was with her, on the house. she said she'd be my "sherpa" since she was soooo experienced, and make sure i felt safe and comfortable. an hour into the trip she's puking and sobbing trying to open a little metal box to get into her emergency benzo stash and i'm just laying on the bed thinking she looks like a psycho.
i was dating this young woman who was a college student. she at one point told me she thought [underage actress in popular media] was hot. i asked, "isn't she underage?" as if i was informing her of this, not realizing (or wanting to realize i guess) she had already known this obvious information.
she was one of those insane liberals who tried to "nuance" everything. said 'non offending pedophiles' shouldn't be looked down on, etc. i replied with the usual, all pedophiles should die. she clammed up and hit me with "well my friend is a pedophile and his girlfriend doesn't mind putting her hair in pigtails and dressing the part to make him happy." wrote it off as her having fucking weird friends. i wonder now if she was the one who did that stuff for her previous boyfriend, and if this was just some weird form of equivocation.
the only real reason i started questioning that stuff is because after we broke up, i found out she had told all her roommates previously that she was a "they/them" and to use a shortened version of her name. i knew nothing about this and would still call her by her full name and use she/her pronouns. one of her male friends i had met for the first time got big eyes and asked me, "oh, you don't kno-" and the young lady panicked and started telling him to "shut up" over and over again. again, i was just trying to fuck, so i wrote it off as them being weird.
we parted on decent terms. at the time i used party drugs and she sold out of her student housing, so i kept her number and would hit her up when i needed something. she was upset i didn't want to hang out and after a while cut me off and blocked me, iirc.
i occasionally think back at just how many fucking red flags i ignored, and really wish i could take a look at her hard drive. she was internet savvy, an active l.u.e. links user, bought drugs off the silk road, etc. no doubt in my mind she could've easily have found cp if she wanted to.
not gonna post any identifying details. not interested in going after this lady after all this time. but when i saw the "personal lolcow" title, it made me think of her.
bonus story: she was one of those white girls who thought psychedelics were a spiritual experience. first time i ever took a big dose was with her, on the house. she said she'd be my "sherpa" since she was soooo experienced, and make sure i felt safe and comfortable. an hour into the trip she's puking and sobbing trying to open a little metal box to get into her emergency benzo stash and i'm just laying on the bed thinking she looks like a psycho.
