How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

Discouraged. I've been shopping around for a place to rent/buy in my state, and there's no options that fit what I need. It's either some hunting camp out in the rough, a 4br 3ba fixer upper, or a literal crack shack "Investment Property".
There's more options out of state, but moving without seeing the location feels too risky. I have an easily transferable job, and worst case scenario gas stations and McD's are always hiring.
 
My boss comes back next week and I'm not looking forward to it. I still haven't heard back from that company I liked and I'm getting nervous.
 
I'm back from my pause, just tired of some people trying fucking with me.

My mom told me I had no empathy, when my sister got her kid. Just told her I don't want to hear about it.

In addition to being low-IQ, my mom has plenty of health problems. It is highly unethical and borders on child abuse to continue breeding on this.

My sister hates my guts, even if I haven't done shit to her. Judgy, arrogant and shit. Truth and behold. In real life, I don't really want any drama, so when I don't have anything positive to say. I shut up.
Anyway, she did attack me on a New Years Eve for no reason, in adult age. I don't fear it or anything, but I wouldn't be surprised if the kid got beat up by her when older.

The dad did go on a drunken rage, and decided to drunk drive. If my parents didn't stop him before driving off, things could go bad. This is a man in his 50's. So my sister on 30 wanted a unstable old man to be the dad for her kid.

None of them are fit to be parents.
 
Apparently that's how she got her husband to marry her- told him she was too fat to concieve so let him hit it raw.
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"And here we're fortunate enough to observe one of the wonders of nature, the mating ritual of the north american Homo Negromuttis Judeus, as it takes place in its natural habitat, without any outside interference. What a sight to behold! The diverse and intricate ways various animal species employ to achieve reproductive success truly never ceases to amaze."
 
Took a half-day off today, and it was a great decision. Yes, I'll be working over the weekend, but I just needed a minute. With today's half-day, I've taken 2 days off this year, and I'm tired. Sure, I spent the last 2 hours using an xacto knife to remove flat, stubborn stains from the enamel panels of my range top (I've been cleaning this damn range top for a solid week, because I have some idea of making a 20 yo appliance (it's in good shape but still...20 years) look like new...at this rate, spring cleaning is going to take me to December 31), but being able to focus on something tangible and put the work stuff to background thinking for a few hours is golden. I have so much shit to do/ move forward I couldn't even figure out what to do next, so this was needed. I think tonight I've got to get the immediate domestic stuff under control then this weekend is planning for the next quarter and taxes and lots of work and professional development. Lol, nothing but a party here.
 
Going for our vacation this weekend, it's just a week but it should be lots of fun. We're going to get a lot of oceanside time for the kids, a date or two and a lot of walking around for my husband and I, and send my in-laws for a few golf days whilst we're here so hopefully everyone will have a good time. I did NOT have time to clean my house as much as I wanted to before leaving and the kids are now asleep so I won't be able to finish up without waking them up which sucks since I like to come back to a sparkling clean home, but it'll be fine, nothing I can't clear within 30 minutes of getting back here. Gave the neighbors a 12-pack of Modelo because they're hispanic and I'm racist and thought they'd like that, so they'll be keeping an eye on our house and mailbox for the week.
 
Work is fine, the people are friendly. I've never worked with this type of business before but they are being really patient teaching me about it (and it's interesting, so that is a plus). I've been feeling good mentally, started taking meds again and therapy is going smoothly.
The only bad thing is that one of my ears is inflamed again. It's a recurring problem and I am only prescribed medication and it's never investigated further. Has been like this since I was a pre-teen, with periods that it's perfectly healthy and then it gets regularly inflamed for months. Time to go to a doctor again, I guess *sigh*
 
I heard back from that company, they want to take a few days to review some of my past work. They also asked for some references, so I gave them the emails of two people I worked with previously. When I let the references know, they never responded to me, which is a little concerning, but I hope it all goes okay. On the bright side, the guy from the company said both of the guys I interviewed with were really impressed with me, which is nice.
 
Been busy, but doing good. Recently, I overheard my boss and a coworker gushing about illegal immigrants and how they do work that "no white person wants to do." I get so sick of hearing that. I know plenty of working-class white people who would unironically love to have those same jobs. Both my boss and coworker are middle-aged white woman who live in cozy gated communities, so of course they have a warped and detached view on that matter.
 
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