After reading this autistic trainwreck of a thread I will offer a friendly comment:
You're far from the ugliest woman out there, despite the cutting scars. Your biggest blockers to happiness are your behavior, attitude, and psychotic hatred for children (and probably also hygiene, given your affinity for roaches and anime).
You can't stop being a sperg, but that's not your fault. You CAN change your perspectives, grow as a person, and stop going out of your way to start shit and argue with people, though I suspect you enjoy the conflict to a degree.
You come across as a miserable cunt who's perpetually angry and looking for a fight. But you seem happy in some of those cosplay pictures so clearly you're not incapable of experiencing joy.
What I'm saying is: you've got potential. It'll take serious time and effort, but it's there. People who were way further in the hole have come out of it.