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- Oct 24, 2023
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A series of events
I think I just wanted to shed some light on the happenings in my life; i’ve been MIA from friends, family, and just. Everyone all around. I’ve kept working, and trying to keep up with everything, but otherwise…i’ve just been emotionally/socially MIA for a good little while and I felt like folks had the right to know what was going on.
I really really appreciate anyone who takes the time to read this; I know its very long and very wordy. But I hope it really does shed light on the situation happening.
It sorta all started back in 2022. I was doing really good, and had a good direction for me and my family; and it all sorda quickly went down hill. September 2022, I bought a car from a used car dealership. I had to sell my car and everything we owned back in 2020 when we moved from Texas to Georgia. And a couple years later, I finally had a bit in savings and was able to put a down payment on a car.
Welp; for the next 9 months, that car was constantly in the shop. I’m talkin like. Every month it was there the majority of the time. I only got to drive it for a total of like. 3 months. I was constantly shelling out money for repairs, diagnostics, deductibles, etc; because the dealership lied about getting the problems fixed over and over and over.
Around June 2023, I finally had enough because they had replaced the entire transmission with a defective transmission, and then refused to fix it any further. They gave me the option of volunteer repossession, keeping the un-usable car and still making payments, or returning it and transferring my down payment to another vehicle and restart a contract.
I ended up getting a Lawyer, and fighting the issue. SO since June 2023, up till now…i’ve been struggling to meet bills and pay this lawyer. The intention is to get back every bit of it in court, but its still been a struggle. Now the hearing is May 10th, and thats going to decide everything.
Jumping back a bit; around the very end of July; My lawyer advised me to get a new car if I was going to need one. That once Carmart started reporting my account to credit agencies, my credit was going to plummet and who knew when I would be able to resolve those issues. I had tried disputing it down the line, and none of the agencies would dismiss the reports, regardless of being in the middle of a lawsuit.
SO I had to jump in to get a car as quickly as I possibly could; My credit wasnt amazing, and I didn’t have a lot of options, and I had no down payment. So I got the only real option I had; one that would fit my family in it, and be one to last. I had to sign a contract and have had extremely high car payments every since; to the tune of about $800 a month.
Around December of 2022, I had started working with Bluefolf about a company we were trying to start up. I originally had planned to do this on my own, but we had both had the idea and agreed to work together on it. I planned for this venture to start up officially with a 3 year business plan that included the path to getting a physical location.
Unfortunately, Blue started advertising, doing raffles, bringing in team members/a task force to spearhead the project WAY ahead of it’s reasonable projected start date. There was no way to keep up, and due to all of it being extremely public, I had to try and keep up with everything.
For the entire 9 or so months that Blue and I ‘worked’ together, I was stuck doing every single thing regarding the business and PAYING Blue’s portion of the expenses because she wasn’t able to; it’s notable to explain she was going to MANY cons during that time, leaving me to pay her side of things until eventually in September 2023, I told her she was being ousted from the company. Unfortunately it left me with an 8k debt from having to charge her expenses on a business card for almost a year.
Around September 2023 I started to receive a lot of targeted harassment. I was working on Fursodas and was primarily handling all of the business things on my own; and for the most part, she was completely uninvolved with the company.
September 2023, she got into a bunch of trouble. She was the target of a massive anti-trans campaign and because she associated herself with Fursodas, I was thrown into the mix. They targeted me, my family, my job, my clients; everything. I had people creating false police reports against me and making fake emails to make it look like I was going to harm people.
They had my face and my address posted online in multiple locations, my phone number was leaked. Everything was really really bad around that time. My grandmother started having heart complications more concerning than she’d previously been having. Her meds (Xeralto + Entresto) were costing her well over $1200 a month even though she was on Medicaid. We couldn’t afford it, and she asked to be switched to another which started decreasing her heart capacity.
Not even a month later, October 3rd 2023 to be exact. My ESA was stolen out of our yard. She meant the world to us, and we spent weeks ontop of weeks doing everything to find her. Searching high and low, calling and visiting shelters and rescues, leaving posters all over town. You name it.
We live in a very active neighborhood, and right next to a busy interstate. There was no way someone didnt see her if she were wandering the street. She was chipped and had a collar with tags. It wasn’t possible someone could miss her.
We searched for months. Around December, my husband and I’s doctors suggested we look into service dogs. Bianca was already about 8, and soon to Retire before she was stolen, and our other dog, Dodger, was about to be 11. Far past service age. At this time, both of our healths were getting incredibly bad. He was diagnosed with diabetes, both of us were struggling with Autism + ADHD issues with no real way to cope or balance it all, and my own health started to physically go down hill with chronic pain from frequent Muscle issues; the pain was constant from the moment I woke up, to the moment I went to bed.
We got in contact with a trainer who connected us to a couple breeders who had Service line dogs; and we made the decision to go ahead and be paired up with two puppies. Almost immediately after getting them both, the trainer completely vanished and stopped answering us.
Very soon after, around the middle of December, our Food Stamps stopped sending benefits. We were still approved; they just….stopped sending benefits. Most of Georgia was having the same issue. They terminated our case because they said I missed a phone interview , but I had never received a call for the interview despite being available. For the next several months, I continuously tried to make contact, to no avail.
In January of 2024, I had excruciating pain in my feet that had been consistent for almost a year, and as of that time, had gotten so painful I couldn’t walk. I could barely get out of bed it was so painful. I saw several doctors to see what the issue was, and ended up having to get a procedure done on my feet to alleviate the pain. So for over a month afterwards, I still could barely walk.
February 2024 was a horrible month; Our Service Dog Prospect reacted badly to a sound on the interstate, and due to me having had a procedure on my feet done, I really wasnt able to walk very well with her. I was taking her outside to potty, and something startled her enough to dart under my feet and trip me; which resulted in me falling on her.
She ended up breaking a leg that night, and a week later had to have that leg amputated. The trauma ended up making her wash from potential service work. It was a really devastating time for everyone, and we ended up having to rehome her after she recovered. She was originally supposed to go to a friend, but she started having extremely bad fear aggression where she would start biting/attacking if something scared her. Dog biting is an extremely sensitive trauma to me, and it’s not something I felt comfortable trying to train.
She went to a really nice local family, and we’ve been keeping up with her, but it didn’t make it any less heart wrenching.
Very quickly after that ordeal, the end of February….we finally got a notice about our missing ESA who we’d still been searching for even throughout the few months of terrible things. Someone reported a dog that looked just like her on the side of the interstate; and we immediately rushed to see if it was her. It was, 100% without a doubt, Bianca.
Someone had taken her, and dropped her / dumped her on the interstate within that 5 months. Animal Control said she could not have been on the interstate for longer than an hour due to reports they’d received.
We tried everything we possibly could to rescue her, but animal control, rescuers, trappers, no one could or would do anything. A few minutes after finding her, she was killed on the interstate.
After that, I just. Went into trauma mode. I sank myself into cleaning and repairing the house, moving our office, re-arranging the house, fixing up our bathroom. You name it, I was probably trying to do it. I isolated from pretty much everyone, and even now im still trying to get myself out of that mode and back into my mind to be with family and loved ones. I’ve been in therapy since the ordeal happened, but it hasn’t made a whole lot of difference with life. It still feels bleak.
Soon after that, I retained a Knee injury FROM moving everything around, and had to stay out of moving/action for 4-5 weeks until it healed entirely. Not a week after that, I had to go BACK to the Dr for crippling pain in my hip.
It ended up being a strained hip muscle, or they hope thats the case. I had onset arthritis but this crippling pain wasnt caused by that. I had to have injections to try and heal and manage the pain, but it didn’t work. Medication didnt work. At home PT didnt work. So now i’m currently in physical therapy twice a week to hopefully help that muscle and get the pain to ebb away.
I can’t do much physically due to this; standing, sitting, walking, getting in and out of bed, up and down stairs - all of it hurts so incredibly much that the most I can really do is sit and wait for the pain to pass.
Life has been so..unbelievable hard, and I went from being the only one able to help my disabled family members, to being unable to even help myself. I don’t really know how to make life better. I don’t know how to handle everything thats happened.
Ontop of this; ever since 2022, when the car began having issues, I’ve built up a massive queue that no matter how hard I try, I can’t work down. I can’t make sales because of this queue, but also…Twitter’s algorithm is awful and i’ve made 1/4th the sales these past 2 years than I have in the entire 11 years i’ve been doing freelance.
I work day in and day out; and not only do I do freelance with IceFoxWorks, but I also run Fursodas, and I work in procurement for printing + merchandising doing admin work and local delivery work. This takes up every single drop of my time.
I’m genuinely at a loss. I’ve been told by doctors not to do laborious jobs that require me to stand or walk for long durations of time; but nothing else will hire me. My experience doesn’t count for anything. I’ve even looked into disability friendly jobs like walmart, aldi, office jobs, at home jobs, call centers, etc; and either I never get call backs, or they can only pay minimum wage.
If I took a minimum wage job at full time; i’d never be able to work on owed commissions, and i’d never be able to take care of family + pay for their meds. Right now I normally make JUST barely enough to cover medication and household essentials.
At the end of the day; im really not trying to complain. I just want to take take care of my family , and some how survive. And I really, genuinely don’t know how to do that. My husband is disabled physically and mentally, my grandmother is disabled physically, my brother is Autistic + cannot function on his own, and my mother is as well. They're the only family I have, and i’m not sure how to help everyone when I cant even seem to keep myself healthy enough to do anything.
Ontop of that, things keep happening here and there that set me back by so much. I received 2 speeding tickets in March for places that I couldnt possibly be speeding in. Due to the Food Stamps hearing, and the Car-Mart hearing coming up, I just dont have time or energy to fight the tickets before the due date and unfortunately had to pay them.
Our service dog prospect had to see a vet about his skin issues, and then within the same week, our cat we’ve had for half a decade needed to go in for a mammary gland infection that was causing mystery lumps. Off and on our senior dog , Dodger, has been having constant dental + allergy issues that he’s had to see the vets for, and each trip is a few hundred dollars.
Its all just been…a lot. We’ve rehomed animals, we’ve sold our possessions. We just dont have anything left.
I hope this sheds at least a little bit of light on my situation this past year and a half or so. I hope everyone understands, and in general, I appreciate anyone who read this far.
I think I just wanted to shed some light on the happenings in my life; i’ve been MIA from friends, family, and just. Everyone all around. I’ve kept working, and trying to keep up with everything, but otherwise…i’ve just been emotionally/socially MIA for a good little while and I felt like folks had the right to know what was going on.
I really really appreciate anyone who takes the time to read this; I know its very long and very wordy. But I hope it really does shed light on the situation happening.
It sorta all started back in 2022. I was doing really good, and had a good direction for me and my family; and it all sorda quickly went down hill. September 2022, I bought a car from a used car dealership. I had to sell my car and everything we owned back in 2020 when we moved from Texas to Georgia. And a couple years later, I finally had a bit in savings and was able to put a down payment on a car.
Welp; for the next 9 months, that car was constantly in the shop. I’m talkin like. Every month it was there the majority of the time. I only got to drive it for a total of like. 3 months. I was constantly shelling out money for repairs, diagnostics, deductibles, etc; because the dealership lied about getting the problems fixed over and over and over.
Around June 2023, I finally had enough because they had replaced the entire transmission with a defective transmission, and then refused to fix it any further. They gave me the option of volunteer repossession, keeping the un-usable car and still making payments, or returning it and transferring my down payment to another vehicle and restart a contract.
I ended up getting a Lawyer, and fighting the issue. SO since June 2023, up till now…i’ve been struggling to meet bills and pay this lawyer. The intention is to get back every bit of it in court, but its still been a struggle. Now the hearing is May 10th, and thats going to decide everything.
Jumping back a bit; around the very end of July; My lawyer advised me to get a new car if I was going to need one. That once Carmart started reporting my account to credit agencies, my credit was going to plummet and who knew when I would be able to resolve those issues. I had tried disputing it down the line, and none of the agencies would dismiss the reports, regardless of being in the middle of a lawsuit.
SO I had to jump in to get a car as quickly as I possibly could; My credit wasnt amazing, and I didn’t have a lot of options, and I had no down payment. So I got the only real option I had; one that would fit my family in it, and be one to last. I had to sign a contract and have had extremely high car payments every since; to the tune of about $800 a month.
Around December of 2022, I had started working with Bluefolf about a company we were trying to start up. I originally had planned to do this on my own, but we had both had the idea and agreed to work together on it. I planned for this venture to start up officially with a 3 year business plan that included the path to getting a physical location.
Unfortunately, Blue started advertising, doing raffles, bringing in team members/a task force to spearhead the project WAY ahead of it’s reasonable projected start date. There was no way to keep up, and due to all of it being extremely public, I had to try and keep up with everything.
For the entire 9 or so months that Blue and I ‘worked’ together, I was stuck doing every single thing regarding the business and PAYING Blue’s portion of the expenses because she wasn’t able to; it’s notable to explain she was going to MANY cons during that time, leaving me to pay her side of things until eventually in September 2023, I told her she was being ousted from the company. Unfortunately it left me with an 8k debt from having to charge her expenses on a business card for almost a year.
Around September 2023 I started to receive a lot of targeted harassment. I was working on Fursodas and was primarily handling all of the business things on my own; and for the most part, she was completely uninvolved with the company.
September 2023, she got into a bunch of trouble. She was the target of a massive anti-trans campaign and because she associated herself with Fursodas, I was thrown into the mix. They targeted me, my family, my job, my clients; everything. I had people creating false police reports against me and making fake emails to make it look like I was going to harm people.
They had my face and my address posted online in multiple locations, my phone number was leaked. Everything was really really bad around that time. My grandmother started having heart complications more concerning than she’d previously been having. Her meds (Xeralto + Entresto) were costing her well over $1200 a month even though she was on Medicaid. We couldn’t afford it, and she asked to be switched to another which started decreasing her heart capacity.
Not even a month later, October 3rd 2023 to be exact. My ESA was stolen out of our yard. She meant the world to us, and we spent weeks ontop of weeks doing everything to find her. Searching high and low, calling and visiting shelters and rescues, leaving posters all over town. You name it.
We live in a very active neighborhood, and right next to a busy interstate. There was no way someone didnt see her if she were wandering the street. She was chipped and had a collar with tags. It wasn’t possible someone could miss her.
We searched for months. Around December, my husband and I’s doctors suggested we look into service dogs. Bianca was already about 8, and soon to Retire before she was stolen, and our other dog, Dodger, was about to be 11. Far past service age. At this time, both of our healths were getting incredibly bad. He was diagnosed with diabetes, both of us were struggling with Autism + ADHD issues with no real way to cope or balance it all, and my own health started to physically go down hill with chronic pain from frequent Muscle issues; the pain was constant from the moment I woke up, to the moment I went to bed.
We got in contact with a trainer who connected us to a couple breeders who had Service line dogs; and we made the decision to go ahead and be paired up with two puppies. Almost immediately after getting them both, the trainer completely vanished and stopped answering us.
Very soon after, around the middle of December, our Food Stamps stopped sending benefits. We were still approved; they just….stopped sending benefits. Most of Georgia was having the same issue. They terminated our case because they said I missed a phone interview , but I had never received a call for the interview despite being available. For the next several months, I continuously tried to make contact, to no avail.
In January of 2024, I had excruciating pain in my feet that had been consistent for almost a year, and as of that time, had gotten so painful I couldn’t walk. I could barely get out of bed it was so painful. I saw several doctors to see what the issue was, and ended up having to get a procedure done on my feet to alleviate the pain. So for over a month afterwards, I still could barely walk.
February 2024 was a horrible month; Our Service Dog Prospect reacted badly to a sound on the interstate, and due to me having had a procedure on my feet done, I really wasnt able to walk very well with her. I was taking her outside to potty, and something startled her enough to dart under my feet and trip me; which resulted in me falling on her.
She ended up breaking a leg that night, and a week later had to have that leg amputated. The trauma ended up making her wash from potential service work. It was a really devastating time for everyone, and we ended up having to rehome her after she recovered. She was originally supposed to go to a friend, but she started having extremely bad fear aggression where she would start biting/attacking if something scared her. Dog biting is an extremely sensitive trauma to me, and it’s not something I felt comfortable trying to train.
She went to a really nice local family, and we’ve been keeping up with her, but it didn’t make it any less heart wrenching.
Very quickly after that ordeal, the end of February….we finally got a notice about our missing ESA who we’d still been searching for even throughout the few months of terrible things. Someone reported a dog that looked just like her on the side of the interstate; and we immediately rushed to see if it was her. It was, 100% without a doubt, Bianca.
Someone had taken her, and dropped her / dumped her on the interstate within that 5 months. Animal Control said she could not have been on the interstate for longer than an hour due to reports they’d received.
We tried everything we possibly could to rescue her, but animal control, rescuers, trappers, no one could or would do anything. A few minutes after finding her, she was killed on the interstate.
After that, I just. Went into trauma mode. I sank myself into cleaning and repairing the house, moving our office, re-arranging the house, fixing up our bathroom. You name it, I was probably trying to do it. I isolated from pretty much everyone, and even now im still trying to get myself out of that mode and back into my mind to be with family and loved ones. I’ve been in therapy since the ordeal happened, but it hasn’t made a whole lot of difference with life. It still feels bleak.
Soon after that, I retained a Knee injury FROM moving everything around, and had to stay out of moving/action for 4-5 weeks until it healed entirely. Not a week after that, I had to go BACK to the Dr for crippling pain in my hip.
It ended up being a strained hip muscle, or they hope thats the case. I had onset arthritis but this crippling pain wasnt caused by that. I had to have injections to try and heal and manage the pain, but it didn’t work. Medication didnt work. At home PT didnt work. So now i’m currently in physical therapy twice a week to hopefully help that muscle and get the pain to ebb away.
I can’t do much physically due to this; standing, sitting, walking, getting in and out of bed, up and down stairs - all of it hurts so incredibly much that the most I can really do is sit and wait for the pain to pass.
Life has been so..unbelievable hard, and I went from being the only one able to help my disabled family members, to being unable to even help myself. I don’t really know how to make life better. I don’t know how to handle everything thats happened.
Ontop of this; ever since 2022, when the car began having issues, I’ve built up a massive queue that no matter how hard I try, I can’t work down. I can’t make sales because of this queue, but also…Twitter’s algorithm is awful and i’ve made 1/4th the sales these past 2 years than I have in the entire 11 years i’ve been doing freelance.
I work day in and day out; and not only do I do freelance with IceFoxWorks, but I also run Fursodas, and I work in procurement for printing + merchandising doing admin work and local delivery work. This takes up every single drop of my time.
I’m genuinely at a loss. I’ve been told by doctors not to do laborious jobs that require me to stand or walk for long durations of time; but nothing else will hire me. My experience doesn’t count for anything. I’ve even looked into disability friendly jobs like walmart, aldi, office jobs, at home jobs, call centers, etc; and either I never get call backs, or they can only pay minimum wage.
If I took a minimum wage job at full time; i’d never be able to work on owed commissions, and i’d never be able to take care of family + pay for their meds. Right now I normally make JUST barely enough to cover medication and household essentials.
At the end of the day; im really not trying to complain. I just want to take take care of my family , and some how survive. And I really, genuinely don’t know how to do that. My husband is disabled physically and mentally, my grandmother is disabled physically, my brother is Autistic + cannot function on his own, and my mother is as well. They're the only family I have, and i’m not sure how to help everyone when I cant even seem to keep myself healthy enough to do anything.
Ontop of that, things keep happening here and there that set me back by so much. I received 2 speeding tickets in March for places that I couldnt possibly be speeding in. Due to the Food Stamps hearing, and the Car-Mart hearing coming up, I just dont have time or energy to fight the tickets before the due date and unfortunately had to pay them.
Our service dog prospect had to see a vet about his skin issues, and then within the same week, our cat we’ve had for half a decade needed to go in for a mammary gland infection that was causing mystery lumps. Off and on our senior dog , Dodger, has been having constant dental + allergy issues that he’s had to see the vets for, and each trip is a few hundred dollars.
Its all just been…a lot. We’ve rehomed animals, we’ve sold our possessions. We just dont have anything left.
I hope this sheds at least a little bit of light on my situation this past year and a half or so. I hope everyone understands, and in general, I appreciate anyone who read this far.
