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my vagina is broken and no one can fucking help me. / Archive
Also, he has OCD:
And he has BPD:
But his REAL problem is that a desister posted his thread on Twitter and it went viral!
Twitter / Archive
Please whiteknight for me on Twitter!
Remember: a tranny can constantly talk about being a total trainwreck, and that their fauxginas are horrible wounds...but just pointing out that they ruined their lives is much worse to them.
i’m in my 20s and 2 years post op. i’m still getting pain dilating and it’s just not getting better. i’m literally lying in bed crying while i dilate bc i can barely get the fucking purple, which is the smallest one i have, in more than like 4 fucking inches and it feels like my skin is tearing or something it’s horrible. i’m nowhere near being able to have sex and it’s making me so miserable. i really thought i’d be living my best life as a girl by now lol. i just don’t know where to turn. i’ve been given 2 opinions, 1 of them from my surgeon, and they both said everything looks fine and healthy and just to use more lube and relax. I’M USING TONNES OF FUCKING LUBE AND I AM RELAXING UNTIL IT BECOMES PAINFUL. AAAAA. i want to fucking scream. i’m honestly just so close to giving up on ever being able to have sex and have a relationship. maybe i’m just unfixable lol.
Also, he has OCD:
Also, he has depression and punches himself in the face regularly:i can’t focus on that because my vagina problems are mainly what causes me to self harm, and has been for the past 2 years. mainly probably because i blame myself for most of it by rushing into getting surgery bc i was 19 and just needed my penis gone, rather than thinking about the impact that going to a less good surgeon would have on the rest of my life, and now i’m paying the price for that i guess. i’m starting therapy for my OCD in july but i’ve already had many therapists over the space of about 10 years and not seen any progress so i’m pretty hopeless about that too. the thing is i have ways of coping with my OCD, i don’t have ways of coping with this. i have a high sex drive and i think about sex constantly and not being able to do it is extremely frustrating for me.
yeah i’m in the uk. it’s not really as bad as people make out though idk. doesn’t seem much worse than the us to me. yeah i was definitely banking on my surgery going well and it improving my life tbh. it does feel like there is nothing left. it’s sucked the excitement out of everything in my life. i have no motivation to even get up or drink or eat.
therapy is covered on my insurance but as i said i’ve had tonnes of therapy and none of it has helped. i just don’t think i’m a person who therapy can work on at this point. maybe i self sabotage and really don’t want to help myself idk.
my vagina is ruined though. it’s completely unusable for its main function and the thing that i was most looking forward to. i had dysphoria filled unpleasurable sex for years and i can’t tell you how excited i was for that not to be a thing. well little did i know i’d be feeling even worse about it after surgery. i don’t have lots of time because i can’t spend my life feeling like this. i can’t carry on like this for much longer something needs to be done to help mei also don’t know how long i have left and i don’t want to die having never been able to have sex with my vagina. none of us know how long we have no matter how young we are. that’s why it worries me so much. another big worry of mine is that i’m literally watching my life pass me by. i’ve been miserable for years since i started transitioning really, but i thought by now life would be good when i probably feel the worst mentally that i ever have. it’s horrible. i don’t want to be in my 30s and not even started living yet, that would really suck.
i’ve really tried to reach out for help. my parents just get frustrated with me at this point because they don’t understand. any mental health places just give me the same old bs generic crap. it’s useless i just feel like i have no support irl which is why i end up having these huge mental breakdowns where i drive myself to self harm. i hate it and it’s no way to live my life at 22
for context i’m trans and i had bottom surgery 2 years ago. i’m still having problems with it that basically mean i can’t have sex and no one seems to be able to help me, even my surgeon. it’s driving me fucking insane and my depression/bpd/whatever tf is making me feel like this is off the walls. i can’t stop crying and having suicidal thoughts and just wanting to hurt myself. i don’t cut but i hit myself and pull my hair and scratch myself and stuff. i just want to keep doing it so badly i fucking hate myself. i don’t know how to stop feeling like this.
And he has BPD:
i’m trans and i’ve had some issues with a surgery i got. i made a bunch of posts on here last night and today and had loads of people trying to give me advice. i’m currently (and have been since last night) in the middle of a huge breakdown and i can’t stop self harming and violently crying. i feel so guilty because i just dismiss everyone’s advice because i feel so beyond help. it’s almost as though i enjoy feeling like this (i really don’t, i hate it). i just can’t stand feeling like this for much longer. it’s making me suicidal. i don’t know what to do and i feel so pathetic for being so stubborn and rude towards all these people who are just trying to help me
But his REAL problem is that a desister posted his thread on Twitter and it went viral!
Twitter / Archive
Please whiteknight for me on Twitter!
Remember: a tranny can constantly talk about being a total trainwreck, and that their fauxginas are horrible wounds...but just pointing out that they ruined their lives is much worse to them.
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) And I've been through 4 stages so far, with my 5th coming up in December. I originally went to Cetrulo cuz I wanted UL w/o Vaginectomy and I live close by, but the UL I originally had failed, and Dr. Boysen wasn't confident a fix would stay without reinforcement from vaginal tissue. So yeah, they burnt it shut!
