I think it has to do with my parents not believing in trans stuff or my identity. I mean I havent directly told them but they know im passionate abt trans stuff. And theres this new name I use on a few websites, and my parents have definitely accidentally seen that name a few times... So now theyre using more fem terms for me and my complete first name instead of the nickname ive always been called in my family :/
And with my partner, who they know as an internet friend, my mum misgenders them at first, I remind her that they go by 'they' and then my mum asks 'how many people?' even tho ive explained it a whole bunch of times. I feel as if she doesnt even try to gender them correctly. And then I explain its only one person who goes by they, she says its really weird and wrong and-
Yea that. My unconscious thoughts started to see me and my partner in the lens of how my parents see us...which makes me sick, especially doing it to my partner. They deserve better. How do I fix myself? How do I stop believing that my parents know my reality better than me?