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Well, it is a sin only if you act on it, if you act upon homosexual desires God will forgive, people have done far worse things. People struggle with these things, that is called growing up. You mature, find yourself in this world, see what sticks, perhaps it is because of a porn-addition that you have this desire, perhaps it is but a fetish, i have no clue, i don't know enough about you to know. But nevertheless i believe that if you truly want to change yourself, if you want to have a family, find a woman to love it is still possible.
Maybe go to a psychiatrist, talk with your parents about it, maybe go to church even! No clue where you live and if that is accessible to you, but anyhow... As i've said maybe some girl will eventually approach you, and maybe your love to her will outgrow these desires. Of course you don't need to remove your gay friends or sister from your life, you love these people on a basis of these are people you know and trust, but perhaps they do something i don't like, but that's fine, we are all different.
I’m afraid that no matter what I do, I’ll forever be unable to achieve arousal or feel romantic feelings over a woman - it is what it is. My homosexuality, whether it stemmed from my CSA/exposure to porn/exposure to gay media/something going wrong in the womb, will forever stay with me. I’ve spent over half a decade trying to make myself at least bisexual by sleeping with girls and trying to date them but it’s never worked out. I can’t see that ever changing unfortunately.
When it comes to not cutting off my gay friends and family, it honestly feels like the only option. For instance, I would cut off someone if they were knee-deep in an opiate addiction as someone who has recovered from opiate addiction myself. I can’t be close with a homosexual while I’m trying to overcome my own homosexual condition. Of course if an emergency ever arises (like one of them gets ill or suicidal and needs me) I’ll speak with them, but I think for now it’s best if I remove the homosexuals from my life given that their condition and the way they’re not attempting to fix it is going to only further enable me to think it’s okay to be a homosexual.