If you weren't held down by it you would not virtue signal about it every given chance.
Again, you're acting like a stereotypical 'recovery diva' junkie, you can keep being as much of a vainglorious cockmonger about how you are so much better than addicts and people who've never faced an addiction both, about how much of a strong special little bee you are for 'rebuilding', but most everyone will see through it.
As for making you leave? perish the thought, home grown cows are the best, it's just a matter of time.
Speaking of things you don't know? the minds of everyone on the forum, as you keep repeatedly assuming you do, take your own advice.