Hello,
It's Rose. I messed up and wanted to first apologize for a few things.
Hi, I've been been watching a whole generation of broken people go through the motions of living life without actually
living for one reason or another for 20 years now. 99% of the time, that reason is some variation on the theme of Trauma.
You. Need. Help.
Have you seriously considered getting off social media, including fetlife and adjacent, getting out of purely sex and kink based relationships and seeing a psychologist? You think you're happy, rolling around like a pig in shit in your escapism, but you aren't living a real, whole, complete life, and the biological clock is ticking - not just your fertile years, but your life overall.
Do you want to be 40, 50, 60 - however long you live - and look back, and this was it? This was the lot of it? Whatever dreams you had as a child, whatever your family wanted for you, granted they didn't abuse you into being such a mess, to all amount to making weird fetish porn because your notion of sexuality and intimacy is wrapped up in this freak shit?
Honestly, I'd give you similar advice if you were a "mere" normal, conventional e-thot who somehow came here to talk: chasing hedonism and living your life in an escapist fantasy is not a real life, is going to deny you connections, opportunities and experiences, and when the fun stops sometime in your 30s, if it lasts that long, you'll look back, wonder where the years went, and try to scramble to build a life unless you give up, without the chances to make mistakes one gets in their teens and 20s.
That said, the fact that this degenerate, disgusting shit is going to make most people's lips curl in revulsion is a favor to you, you're getting more feedback that you should not do this. Please, try to think without getting defensive, understand why you get this feedback, understand Kate Farms was driven to drink, and why people who ordinarily just laugh at retards are hoping beyond hope that you'll get some fucking help.
What frustrates me the most is that you've been treated as a sex object by predators, and you went right back for it - despite having some hooks for a real life. You work at a zoo. Go out with your coworkers! Make friends! You volunteer at a church nursery -
FOR GOD'S SAKE DON'T HAVE A FUCKING DIAPER FETISH WORKING WITH ACTUAL KIDS YOU UTTER PILLOCK. I am literally about to pray for you.
I can't believe I was finally driven to prayer by this shit. This is my limit, apparently. Anyway.
You read to kids. You volunteer in a nursery. You work at a Zoo. DO THAT!!! NOT THIS DEGENERATE SHIT!!!
You live in Colorado. Guess who else does? Someone who goes outside as much as possible, begging a traumatized person to stop living online. This is the one state left in the union that isn't fucking fat because there's so much amazing outdoors shit to do and the rocky fucking mountains are right there. You know Denver is a shit hole, same as me. I don't know or want to know where you live in this state, but it's probably the front range if you work for a zoo. What I do know, however, is your fat ass can go outside for fucking free (with sunscreen, you're as pale as a fucking sheet, get a hat and some sleeves too) and you really, really, really should! Please, go fucking hike. Or just walk. Find a fucking open space and fucking walk. Go touch grass.
Get a fucking therapist, throw the diapers and ageplay shit away, get physically active, get some fucking sunshine, and stop presenting yourself as a fucking sex object to freaks who are only ever going to keep using you as a cocksleeve. Get a real life, put this shit behind you, and for god's sake go up in the fucking mountains, see the real world in its stupefying majesty, and reflect on the fact that you're still young enough to make this just some stupid phase you grew out of.
I don't think this is true. Assuming that it is, on one hand, you have not been totally honest with them about what you're doing. On the other hand, if they are actually okay with what you're doing, they should be lined up against a wall. No fucking proper therapist or psychiatrist would be encouraging their patient to indulge in their fetishes to the extent that you are, no matter what childhood trauma they have.
Seconding this. Anyone can doctor shop fucked up shit - just go to stinkditch and look at the AGP/AAP/ETII bullshit and the lies about SRS/GRS/crotch butchery, for fuck's sake.
Actually being open about the breadth and depth of this, the exploitativeness, the clear and present prior abuse, and HEALTHY BODY MUTILATION for uwu dopamine dumps (in a fucking diaper in public
) would make braver, established therapists who can navigate woke bullshit try to pull the plug on this. That said, of course they can't just say "Hey, weirdo, stop or else!" because she'll just stop seeing that therapist and go elsewhere, and it's not like a psych hospital could fix this short of doping her up into being a drooling fatty instead of an ABDL fatty with fucking ostomies.
Look, I've seen plenty of people like Rose, even face to face, and seen how they turned out. Rose, don't go down this route.
