Yes. I didn't want this drama to get far until people pushed me over the edge. I was done. I had had enough being picked on, humiliated and scorned for having the ability to draw poses. I am NOT the best artist, I have a lot to go I only started to draw people in 2009 ( prior to that I doodled, not as big as I am now.) when my Grandma passed away as a coping mechanism to heal myself. drawing brings me joy and I just want people to recognize the potential in me. I don't wanna get famous, I just want to be seen as an artist.
I'm gonna drop the bit and be as nice as I can here, okay?
Nobody is really going to consider you a "real" artist. And that's because a "real" artist is subjective. But usually, most people think a real artist draws really well and makes money. What should matter is if you think you're an artist, not what other people think.
Again, not saying it in a mean way. It might sound like it, but it isn't.
I'll chalk up the more childish tantrums and arguing you've been doing to your disability, but that isn't an excuse. You want to be treated like an adult, right? You want respect normal people have?
that means you have to accept when you HAVE done things wrong. I know I said before that nobody owes apologies, they're nice to give though, right? At least on the internet. Well, just saying sorry to those people and then never interacting with those blogs would be a really good start, wouldn't it?
Just don't start explaining away or arguing that "NO I DIDN'T DO THIS". Just say only "I'm sorry." And stop.
I'll also explain another thing: 1, I'm very sorry you lost your grandma.
2- a lot of us have lost people or have difficulties in life. Half the people on the farms have some disability weather it's depression, anxiety, bipolar, schizophrenia, or physical problems like cancer. We all have a story, but we just don't let it define us. The way you try to drown out pain is also just hurting yourself. Do things you like because you like them, not to escape. Let yourself feel the bad feelings, just keep pushing to do other things while it happens.
Unless, of course, it involves Null losing his shit over our antics.
Ok but that's just hilarious. Or scary, depends on why dad gets mad.
I'm also going to add that being nice doesn't mean I am or want to be your friend. It also doesn't mean I'm an enemy, it means I'm a stranger that's being nice to you.
People can be nice or mean without wanting to be friends or enemies. If you want to be friends with someone, you can just ask "hey, want to be friends?" And you'll know for sure that way. Some people will say yes, and some will say no. Either way, that's okay. You can be nice to strangers, just like you can be mean. It's better to be nice, but if someone is being really annoying, rude or a pain in the ass, you're more likely to be mean, don't you think? And I think you were acting like a big pain in the ass to all those other people.