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While on the Farms BigIcky is best known as the sideshow boyfriend of cross-dressing Twitch streamer F1nn5ter, he has a sizable following in his own right, which spans across TikTok with 325K followers (A), YouTube with 130K subscribers (A), a paid Instagram (A), a top 0.04% OnlyFans (A), and a range of other social media & pornography distribution platforms. His TikTok focuses on a mixture of his attempts at fashion, horny-bait, and advice to “eggs”, or people questioning their gender. His YouTube primarily focuses on longer form trans advice, much of which is again targeted towards those who have only recently began to identify as trans or are questioning taking on that identity. While BigIcky does not come across as especially intelligent, his videos are quite good at dismissing any thoughts that may be holding a potential viewer back from transition through a combination of dismissive jokes, “egg_irl” style memes, an emphasis of supposed upsides, and a downplaying of downsides.
During the 2020 COVID-19 lockdowns, before identifying as trans, BigIcky made cross-dressing pornography on Patreon (A) & OnlyFans while in university housing. There, he initially used the name “Peach” or “ppeachtrap” (L | A), and made very explicit videos of himself masturbating in women’s clothing. He would initially promote these videos on his Tumblr (A), using tags including “#sissy”, “#sissy boy”, and “#anime trap”.
At the same time, he was browsing LGBT subs like r/egg_irl, which promotes the idea that those who relate to the memes posted are actually experiencing dysphoria and are in truth transgender. These memes can be as widely applicable as someone feeling discomfort staring at themselves in the mirror for a long period of time, or at hearing a recording of their own voice. BigIcky himself claims that r/egg_irl influenced him to transition, as he found the memes too relatable.
Later in 2020, once BigIcky had to return home from university to live with his parents, he could no longer participate in his masturbatory cross-dressing, and at that point decided he needed to transition so he could “express” himself at home as well.
(YouTube | PreserveTube)
Like many LGBT influencers, BigIcky is astroturfed across social media by a talent manager agency. Currently, BigIcky uses the Gallos agency (A), featuring the email “Teamashley@wearegallos.com” on his TikTok (A). Gallos explicitly manages “LGBTQ+ and Drag talent”. Many of their talents include competitors from RuPaul’s Drag Race, with their website conveniently showcasing their very own line-up of freaks talent. (L | A)
Before working with Gallos, BigIcky used the talent manager Grail Talent (A), which specialises in boosting TikTok content. Grail Talent seems to be a much larger company, having over 650 creators with 742 million TikTok followers in total. While Grail Talent is not as explicitly supportive of LGBT ideology, they do feature videos of LGBT & cross-dressing creators on their website.
This initial comic was hardly viewed by anyone, gathering only 63 views and 3 likes by June 2024. Despite this, in July 2022 the Space-Lady series was picked up by Behemoth Comics (now Sumerian Comics). Four issues were released each a month apart by BigIcky, before he brought in a guest artist named Emma Murphy to draw the fifth issue. It seems a 6th issue was planned by the numbering scheme on Amazon, however I doubt one was released as I can find no cover or other information about it.
Though I could not find a full copy of any of the issues, a YouTuber called Bad Comic Reviews made a quite negative review of the first issue. This review includes picture of the art of the issue, which is notably worse than the art on the cover. In response to a far more positive review, BigIcky went on a podcast, New in Nerdom, for the two hosts to adulate over him during a 20 minute interview. During the interview he reveals that he intentionally shaped the space station in the comic like an anal sex toy and that he grew up collecting comic books. Dylan, one of the interviewers, suggests that space lady has many bandages on her legs as commentary on women being put in skimpy clothes rather than fully covering armor in sci-fi, which BigIcky partially affirms.




#1: Space-Lady does her job exactly as the manual advises her. At least this is what her advisers think. She uses her incredible armour, technology, qualified immunity, and paycheck to get super, super high. She deals with crime in her sector anything but fairly, using any excuse to fight someone or break something. But today, after a heavy night of drinking, Space-Lady decides to sleep in and let her homemade AI police force handle crime.

#2: Space-Lady is tasked with the yearly review of her sector's local Casino and is committed to getting the job done.... no matter how much she has to smoke, drink or gamble.


#3: Space Lady continues the journey of using her incredible armor, technology, qualified immunity, and paycheck to get super, super high! Due to recent civilian complaints an attitude enhancement officer is assigned to Space Lady.

#4: Halloween Special! Space Lady continues the journey of using her incredible armour, technology, qualified immunity, and paycheck to get super, super high! Now she's got her hands full with all the evils of Halloween... Even space has a spooky season!
The very first rule of the Discord server is entitled Be eggsellent to each other, which states that you must treat others with respect in regard to their “eggness”. Here, eggness is referring to a supposed state in which an individual identifying as their birth sex is actually transgender deep inside but has yet to realise it. This terminology promotes the idea that by “cracking someones egg”, or convincing them that they are trans, you are doing a service to them by helping them become their “true self” sooner. (L | A) The Discord suggests users adhere to an "Egg Prime Directive", which is summarised on Ickypedia as follows:
The server has a community ritual in which members take hormone pills at 2230 (10:30 PM) British time every day. A bot named Bolognese sends out reminders for server members to join and take their hormone pills. This bot is named after BigIcky’s large stuffed animal rabbit. (L | A)
After BigIcky and his boyfriend got a dog named Tank in January 2024, the Discord was renamed to TankCord. Possibly at the same time, or possibly slightly later in the year, the public IckyCord invite link (https://discord.com/invite/Ickyy) was revoked, closing off the Discord server from prying eyes. New members must request an invite from existing members, be invited by existing members, or subscribe to BigIcky’s OnlyFans which seems to come with access to an exclusive section of IckyCord. (L | A)

BigIcky targets much of his content towards individuals questioning if they are transgender and if they should take puberty blockers or hormone replacement therapy. At the top of his Linktree (A) is a link to a PDF entitled MTF HRT INFO, which is attached at the bottom of this post. In this document, BigIcky claims that HRT commonly reverses male pattern baldness, changes eye shape, causes more pleasurable full body “female” orgasms, reduces height, reduces shoe size, causes hip bone growth, and lightens eye colour. Most of these effects could only reasonably occur if a man began taking HRT before going through puberty, which BigIcky completely fails to mention. These include reducing height, shoe size, and causing hip bone growth. Many other effects seem incredibly dubious, such as a change in eye shape, a lightening of eye colour, and “female” orgasms.
Of all BigIcky’s absurd claims on the effects of HRT, he repeatedly claims that it can give men a female orgasm, going as far as to put this in his OnlyFans bio. Perhaps this is his attempt at pushing the idea of transitioning being more sexually pleasurable to his male coomer audience.
BigIcky has made many YouTube videos on HRT, from how to take it, to elaborating on the obscure things he purports it does in his PDF, to zooming in on his dark brown eyes claiming that they are no longer dark brown because of HRT. He also re-posts clips of videos to TikTok where he advertises his MRT HRT INFO PDF (L | A).
Despite seeming to minimise the problems of HRT when talking to an audience considering starting it, BigIcky has had issues with every method of HRT he has tried. After a series of frustrations due to inconvenience and failure to maintain high estrogen levels, as his body seems to adapt to whatever new external hormones he puts in it, he is now promoting implants above injections above patches above gel above pills. He imports the implants from Australia, and will have to get them removed surgically from his butt when they begins to cause problems or expires.
(YouTube | PreserveTube)
Upbringing & Transition
BigIcky was born on December 12, 1997. A wiki site dedicated to him, called Ickypedia, claims that at birth he was named Ashley, which seems unlikely to me, however it is possible (L| A). A 2018 WebToon account (A) has the username “AWARWICK”. As this account was only used before his transition, it is likely BigIcky’s birth name begins with A, unless he was able to change the username on the account.
At the same time, he was browsing LGBT subs like r/egg_irl, which promotes the idea that those who relate to the memes posted are actually experiencing dysphoria and are in truth transgender. These memes can be as widely applicable as someone feeling discomfort staring at themselves in the mirror for a long period of time, or at hearing a recording of their own voice. BigIcky himself claims that r/egg_irl influenced him to transition, as he found the memes too relatable.
Later in 2020, once BigIcky had to return home from university to live with his parents, he could no longer participate in his masturbatory cross-dressing, and at that point decided he needed to transition so he could “express” himself at home as well.
(YouTube | PreserveTube)
Talent Manager

Before working with Gallos, BigIcky used the talent manager Grail Talent (A), which specialises in boosting TikTok content. Grail Talent seems to be a much larger company, having over 650 creators with 742 million TikTok followers in total. While Grail Talent is not as explicitly supportive of LGBT ideology, they do feature videos of LGBT & cross-dressing creators on their website.
Space-Lady Comic
In 2018, BigIcky published a webcomic on his WebToon (A) entitled “Space Lady: Trouble at Annie’s Bar” (A). This comic involves the titular Space-Lady getting into a fight with two anthropomorphic rats who take “X-pills” to transform into giant rats. Space-Lady defeats the giant rats by blowing up the “atmosphere generator”, killing all inhabitants of the planet, after being enraged at being called “the N-word”, nark.This initial comic was hardly viewed by anyone, gathering only 63 views and 3 likes by June 2024. Despite this, in July 2022 the Space-Lady series was picked up by Behemoth Comics (now Sumerian Comics). Four issues were released each a month apart by BigIcky, before he brought in a guest artist named Emma Murphy to draw the fifth issue. It seems a 6th issue was planned by the numbering scheme on Amazon, however I doubt one was released as I can find no cover or other information about it.
Though I could not find a full copy of any of the issues, a YouTuber called Bad Comic Reviews made a quite negative review of the first issue. This review includes picture of the art of the issue, which is notably worse than the art on the cover. In response to a far more positive review, BigIcky went on a podcast, New in Nerdom, for the two hosts to adulate over him during a 20 minute interview. During the interview he reveals that he intentionally shaped the space station in the comic like an anal sex toy and that he grew up collecting comic books. Dylan, one of the interviewers, suggests that space lady has many bandages on her legs as commentary on women being put in skimpy clothes rather than fully covering armor in sci-fi, which BigIcky partially affirms.




#1: Space-Lady does her job exactly as the manual advises her. At least this is what her advisers think. She uses her incredible armour, technology, qualified immunity, and paycheck to get super, super high. She deals with crime in her sector anything but fairly, using any excuse to fight someone or break something. But today, after a heavy night of drinking, Space-Lady decides to sleep in and let her homemade AI police force handle crime.

#2: Space-Lady is tasked with the yearly review of her sector's local Casino and is committed to getting the job done.... no matter how much she has to smoke, drink or gamble.


#3: Space Lady continues the journey of using her incredible armor, technology, qualified immunity, and paycheck to get super, super high! Due to recent civilian complaints an attitude enhancement officer is assigned to Space Lady.

#4: Halloween Special! Space Lady continues the journey of using her incredible armour, technology, qualified immunity, and paycheck to get super, super high! Now she's got her hands full with all the evils of Halloween... Even space has a spooky season!

Ickypedia / BigIcky.wiki
BigIcky’s community runs a MediaWiki site called Ickypedia, which conveniently documents the culture of his inner circle. The site has been archived on archive.is.IckyCord / TankCord
In August 2023, after outgrowing the 250 member limit for his Instagram subscribers only chat, BigIcky established a Discord server for subscribers, named IckyCord, under the reign of LittleChaSiu. (L | A)LittleChaSiu / Sammi De Guzman / Jennifer Chan / 陳慧珊
LittleChaSiu, or Sammi De Guzman, is, surprisingly, a true and honest woman and long time Twitch moderator for BigIcky’s boyfriend, F1nn5ter. She works as a court stenographer, previously worked at Twitter as a software engineer, and has an autistic obsession with subway trains & Animal Crossing.Online Presence
The very first rule of the Discord server is entitled Be eggsellent to each other, which states that you must treat others with respect in regard to their “eggness”. Here, eggness is referring to a supposed state in which an individual identifying as their birth sex is actually transgender deep inside but has yet to realise it. This terminology promotes the idea that by “cracking someones egg”, or convincing them that they are trans, you are doing a service to them by helping them become their “true self” sooner. (L | A) The Discord suggests users adhere to an "Egg Prime Directive", which is summarised on Ickypedia as follows:
While at first glance this seems like a rule to not groom individuals into transitioning, upon closer reading it actually instructs users on how to best groom someone into transition. Rather than bluntly suggest that they should transition, it suggests to expose them to resources about transition and expressing how supportive you will be if they do come out. It even mentions to avoid "introducing advanced knowledge" to someone you believe is an egg, which I’m sure would include the common outcomes of sexual reassignment surgery, as things like that may scare someone away. For those who believe that the purpose of this “Egg Prime Directive” is not to help members more effectively groom new members, let the results speak for themselves. Within the server, new members having existential crises about their gender, or an “eggistential crisis” in the parlance of server members, in the chat and requiring other members to console and guide them is very common.Egg Prime Directive
The Egg Prime Directive is a guiding principle of the trans community that prohibits its members from interfering with the natural development of cis -> trans. Its stated aim is to protect unprepared eggs from the danger of introducing advanced knowledge, and values before they are ready.
"No matter how convinced you are of someone's eggness, you may not tell them you believe they are trans."
You can answer questions, offer resources, and support them - but no direct eggusations are allowed.
The Egg Prime Directive defines the following stages of a developing egg.
Stages
- #Egg
- Egg Crack
- Hatchling
- #Chick
The server has a community ritual in which members take hormone pills at 2230 (10:30 PM) British time every day. A bot named Bolognese sends out reminders for server members to join and take their hormone pills. This bot is named after BigIcky’s large stuffed animal rabbit. (L | A)
After BigIcky and his boyfriend got a dog named Tank in January 2024, the Discord was renamed to TankCord. Possibly at the same time, or possibly slightly later in the year, the public IckyCord invite link (https://discord.com/invite/Ickyy) was revoked, closing off the Discord server from prying eyes. New members must request an invite from existing members, be invited by existing members, or subscribe to BigIcky’s OnlyFans which seems to come with access to an exclusive section of IckyCord. (L | A)
Gender Transition & HRT Encouragement

BigIcky targets much of his content towards individuals questioning if they are transgender and if they should take puberty blockers or hormone replacement therapy. At the top of his Linktree (A) is a link to a PDF entitled MTF HRT INFO, which is attached at the bottom of this post. In this document, BigIcky claims that HRT commonly reverses male pattern baldness, changes eye shape, causes more pleasurable full body “female” orgasms, reduces height, reduces shoe size, causes hip bone growth, and lightens eye colour. Most of these effects could only reasonably occur if a man began taking HRT before going through puberty, which BigIcky completely fails to mention. These include reducing height, shoe size, and causing hip bone growth. Many other effects seem incredibly dubious, such as a change in eye shape, a lightening of eye colour, and “female” orgasms.
Of all BigIcky’s absurd claims on the effects of HRT, he repeatedly claims that it can give men a female orgasm, going as far as to put this in his OnlyFans bio. Perhaps this is his attempt at pushing the idea of transitioning being more sexually pleasurable to his male coomer audience.
BigIcky has made many YouTube videos on HRT, from how to take it, to elaborating on the obscure things he purports it does in his PDF, to zooming in on his dark brown eyes claiming that they are no longer dark brown because of HRT. He also re-posts clips of videos to TikTok where he advertises his MRT HRT INFO PDF (L | A).
Despite seeming to minimise the problems of HRT when talking to an audience considering starting it, BigIcky has had issues with every method of HRT he has tried. After a series of frustrations due to inconvenience and failure to maintain high estrogen levels, as his body seems to adapt to whatever new external hormones he puts in it, he is now promoting implants above injections above patches above gel above pills. He imports the implants from Australia, and will have to get them removed surgically from his butt when they begins to cause problems or expires.
(YouTube | PreserveTube)
Online Presence
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