"Mad at the Internet" - a/k/a My Psychotherapy Sessions

I watched this stream again and it's so weird to go back and watch certain episodes. Null annoyed people want him to talk about rekeita, his pure joy at getting to meme on the horse. I bet Null actually misses Meigh occasionally. microdosing hitler particles.
I think Null is a bit of a schadenfreude enjoyer, especially when suffering is being experienced by those who deserve some and have somehow avoided it all.
 
Retvrn to Evropa Null.
Your country is waiting.
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There's so many annoying retards in the chat. I do not understand how it's possible to hate a fat retard this much.

LOL CALM DOWN
For this amount of bullshit I’d be getting a job at Best Buy or something. Truly wish Phil a million dollars - hope this is all worth it. This is why actual celebrities have teams of people to manage their image. People always want to talk about public figures especially if putting yourself out there is how you make your money.
 
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Phil has come to the complete wrong conclusions here and illustrated why so many people have a hate boner for him. They researched him because he talks a lot in chat! The information was public and found and now you know!

Keeping a pedophile in his chat to own the detractors.
 
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For the regular stream:
Ultima Online is a decades old MMO that has a private server scene still going strong. One of these is called Outlands. Outlands has a problem however, Player-KIlling has gotten OUT OF CONTROL according to the autistic greybeards still playing Ultima. Now one big thing in UO is PK'ing, especially in Outlands.

You are able to freely kill people a couple times, iirc you can commit five crimes (killing, stealing loot, general peepeeery) before you become a redname, ie an outlaw.
They're basically branded as criminals meaning anybody can kill them with no consequence and they can't go to most towns. The thing is they can go to other places that don't attack them and since the economy is player driven they can trade with eachother.

Infact they often work in large groups, going around and clearing out entire dungeons of all players in large mobs. Rednames face literally no consequence from killing other players in these hordes but get loot. Sure, you can kill them but if they're in a group of 10 players at the starting dungeon areas really it's a bad option.

Most players can't actually fight back though, since most skilltrees focus on things other than combat. You can only master like three skills and it can takes dozens of hours for each skill, often requiring the need to buy supplies from other players for anything crafting related.
From the Outlands forums:
PK's are seriously out of hand...

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PK's are ruining this game. It is getting so that you can't have anything nice, and you can't enjoy the game if you are not a player versus player/playerkiller PK person. When you complain about it you are told to learn how to track. You are told to join a guild. You are told to not farm so much that you lose a lot. You are told thing after thing after thing and you try these things, and you still get killed and robbed. Being in a dungeon with GM tracking/stealthing and seeing red's coming and trying to ranger your way out of there does nothing because they're tracking you just as well. You try to let them pass by, they reveal you and there's 10 of them or more and there's nothing you can do. You get the option to report them as a murderer, and it does nothing whatsoever. There is absolutely no check system to keep these players in place. They are ruining the game for other players. I hate to say that, because this shard has traditionally a good shard even though it is PVP, but it is getting to the point where there's no use to try and have nice things. I've got weapons that are awesome, but I can't even take them out for fear of having them stolen once I am whacked by a group of reds. You can't go to places where there are spawns that you enjoy hunting, because reds hit them over and over. You try to have a satchel for items and explosive containers but it doesn't matter. You try to farm less than you normally would, it doesn't matter. And when you die the time between getting rest and getting back to your corpse doesn't even matter because people are hiding just waiting to loot you. There is no check for that either. You get killed, run and get rest, run back to your corpse and it's already been loaded. You have to leave and restock if you want to continue playing or you just log out and discussed.

It doesn't matter how good your stealthing is, it doesn't matter how good your tracking is, it doesn't matter if you are in a guild. It doesn't matter because there are no penalties that truly deter lawlessness. It happens over and over and over and over.

And the equally sad part is that there will be people that come in and read this and still defend the lawlessness. They will still make excuses that you knew what you were getting into with this shard or this yard has always been PVP or you need to do this and do that. They will make it out to be somehow the pvm players fault. And that is the mindset, that I think has been taken by everyone who can make changes. Maybe I'm out of line, because I'm not behind the scenes. There must be things that can be done to keep these lawless reds in check. I just want to enjoy the game like anyone else. I'm not trying to force anyone to change their style of play to suit mine. I just don't want to continue to work hard for nothing. It is so frustrating. These people put thieves down, yet celebrate reds who go out and kill you and steal everything from you. There is absolutely no difference between a cowardly stealing thief, and a group of reds who swarm a player and take everything.

You can't even talk with these people and reason with them. And they think it's funny. so yes, I'm frustrated right now and I have waited quite a while to make this post. Something has to give, and it shouldn't be players like me just throwing it down and walking away. That is ridiculous. I have a nice house, I have nice things, I have fully developed characters, but none of it matters because there are mobs of lawless PK running unchecked. I don't know how many times I can say it, I don't know how circular I can be, because I really don't even know if it's going to make any difference or if anyone who can make a change even cares.
Pardon the frustration, but it just doesn't seem like it's going to change. And I think that that's very unfortunate, because this game has been a major part of my life, like so many other people who play it. We truly love it. And even you people who support pk, you understand that love.
Perhaps for you, but your statement is borderline trying to speak for everyone.
There are a ton of players here that are not PKers that enjoy it just fine.
The community tried to help you with suggestions that seemed to help everyone else on the server, but you.
Yes, tracking is a useful skill all around. Kudos for the shard's innovation in revitalizing useless skills.
Again, you were provided suggestions but failed to implement them.
It actually increased their murder count by "1".
Again, how do all of the other non PKer players seem to enjoy themselves and have nice things but you?
Discussed what?
Not sure about stealthing because I don't, but tracking warns you that reds are incoming. If you were in a proper guild, you would be with your guildmates playing together.
There are penalties, you just don't like them.
We defend the design and atmosphere of this server. We come here to play BECAUSE of this design and atmosphere.
At least you are reading some of the replies. These are not excuses. These are what we call "facts". The FACT is that you knew what you were getting into because the alternative is that you are just didn't read anything about the server before joining.
It is your fault. You either haven't changed your playstyle to fit into the design of this server, or you logged into the game on your own FREE WILL. Nobody forced you to double the EXE file and play. That is all you.
You are getting out of line because you won't stop with your relentless ranting on a server that doesn't force you to play it at all.
There already is, and at least 3,000 players think they work just fine. You don't realize the time to live on this server is MUCH higher than other PVP servers.
Then try to play like the other PVMers do.
This is EXACTLY what you have been trying to do. Again, avoid frustrations in your life by doing non-frustrating things.
That is highly subjective and is really only your point of view. The most common issue with thieves we complain about is script-stealing.
Everyone is different.
In this case, for your own sake, you should walk away right now. Save yourself. Save your sanity.
Ugh. How many times do I need to write this? How do 3,000 other players have these things and you don't?
I vote ZERO. I think you should say it ZERO more times. Those that can make a change don't care. Their population numbers are the best gauge to help determine their correct path. If you really want to teach them a lesson, quit this game so they only have about 2,999 players. That will show them.
Correct.
WHY DON'T YOU GO PLAY ONE OF THE OTHER MANY ULTIMA ONLINE FREE SHARDS THAT ARE SPECIFICALLY DESIGNED FOR PEOPLE LIKE YOU TO PLAY IN THIS PEACE YOU SEEK???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In other news Based /r/chess feminist ally does his part to fight the gender disparity by "avoiding" sending abusive messages to women (still sends them, just not a lot)
https://old.reddit.com/r/chess/comm...nts_pretending_to_be_women/ljwxw7c/?context=8
I'm not sure about others but I tend to not send abusive messages to female players. Just doing my small part to help the gender disparity.
"Tend to," as in "rarely?" And if you assume someone is male, you send abusive messages? lol
Some players have no indication of their s*x so I cannot guarantee 100% that I haven't sent abusive messages to individuals identifying as female but I will avoid it if I can.
Certainly in the heat of the moment I may send an abusive message or two. However I am currently muted for the next several months so it's no longer an issue. I presume chess.c*m cannot see the messages I am currently sending as the other person does not receive them.
Why tho lol
Why? I never really thought about why before.
I guess... at first, it was just frustration. Losing always stings, especially when I felt like I should've won. You know how it is - you see a move too late, or you make a stupid mistake, and suddenly it's over. That instant hit of failure, it just builds up this... anger. And the easiest thing to do is to lash out. The person on the other end, they become a target for all the frustration I don't know what to do with.
It's not even about them, really. Half the time, I don't even think about who they are - they're just a faceless opponent, someone who beat me. And I guess deep down, I feel embarrassed. Like, why did I lose? Why wasn't I good enough? So I project that shame onto them. I can't stand the idea that they might think they're better than me. Maybe it's a way to level the playing field in my mind - if I can cut them down with words, it feels like I'm getting back some control.
Now that I think about it, it's like this... release. It's a quick fix. I feel powerless when I lose, and sending those messages gives me a fleeting sense of power, like I'm reclaiming something. But it's all so temporary. It's hollow. Once the anger fades, I don't even feel better. If anything, I feel worse. Like, I know it's wrong, and yet, I still do it. Maybe it's this cycle - I lose, I get angry, I lash out, I feel guilty, and it just repeats.
I don't know, maybe it's more than just the game. Maybe it's other stuff in my life - feeling like I don't measure up, or that I don't have control over certain things. Chess is supposed to be an escape, but when I lose, it just reminds me of all the other times I've felt like I failed at something. So it's not just the game - it's everything else that gets wrapped up in it. And instead of dealing with that, I unload on someone else. It's not fair to them. But in the moment, I'm not thinking about fairness. I'm just reacting.
I guess that's what it is - a reaction, not a thought-out response. Maybe I don't handle losing well because it hits something deeper in me, and instead of processing it, I just... explode. Now that I'm saying it out loud, it sounds pretty messed up. It's like I'm using the game to validate myself, and when I don't get that validation, I attack. It's not even about winning or losing anymore. It's about how losing makes me feel about myself.
I think... I need to figure out how to separate those feelings. How to accept losing as just part of the game, not some personal failure. And maybe how to deal with my frustration in a way that doesn't involve taking it out on someone else. Because now that I'm reflecting on it, it's clear that this isn't really about chess. It's about me.

Lastly Tamriel Rebuilt are adapting the North West of Skyrim of Hfaafingar and Solitude to a more Slavic aesthetic with the concept of the Hfaafinmanmar, the Secret Police of Solitude inspired by the Oprichniki Bodyguards of Ivan The Terrible. https://www.tamriel-rebuilt.org/asset/shotn-haafingar-secret-police-armor
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