Dealing with white guilt/ suicidal thoughts

[Dr. Meme]

Ok i know this is a bit personal but for the past few weeks I've begun to hate the fact that i was born white. I look at the news and i see innocent POC being brutally mudered, raped, and maimed by white police and neo nazis and it makes me feel utterly disgusted. I'm a Swedish American citizen second generation and it seems like my race is what has caused all the issue and its been giving me anxiety/depression like a MFer. I wasn't asked to be born white and yet i'm associated with all these disgusting creatures?
I talked to my therapist about it and he put me on some antidepressants but I haven't been able to take them as when i take them with my HRT it makes me violently ill. Is there anyway i can overcome these feelings?

 

[ICametoLurk]

 

[Dr. Meme]

Ok i know this is a trolling forum but seriously? this isn't helping me feel any better about myself

 

[Locksnap]

Ok i know this is a bit personal but for the past few weeks I've begun to hate the fact that i was born white. I look at the news and i see innocent POC being brutally mudered, raped, and maimed by white police and neo nazis and it makes me feel utterly disgusted. I'm a Swedish American citizen second generation and it seems like my race is what has caused all the issue and its been giving me anxiety/depression like a MFer. I wasn't asked to be born white and yet i'm associated with all these disgusting creatures?
I talked to my therapist about it and he put me on some antidepressants but I haven't been able to take them as when i take them with my HRT it makes me violently ill. Is there anyway i can overcome these feelings?

Coming from a PoC, the best thing you can do as an ally is watch Quentin Tarantino films and then service my BBC.

 

[Dr. Meme]

Coming from a PoC, the best thing you can do as an ally is watch Quentin Tarantino films and then service my BBC.

I have a black bf and we sometimes have sex. I tried watching tarantinos' pulp fiction but I felt disgusted by the needless violents and the white goblin looking man who calls his garage a "dead n* storage" so i turned it off.

 

[AnotherForumUser]

You can overcome your white guilt by watching and producing interracial cuckolding porn.

 

[Dr. Meme]

You can overcome your white guilt by watching and producing interracial cuckolding porn.

pornography is a sexist industry that profits off of the rape and abuse of women. doing it would be supporting the murder of 1 in 5 women.

 

[Wish a nigga would]

OP, start making new friends and maybe see a therapist. This is not normal. You should not feel guilty for actions that you yourself did not commit. That's illogical.

DBT skills regarding emotion regulation will likely help you. I suggest printing some handouts out and working on them, either alone or with a trained professional.

 

[AnotherForumUser]

pornography is a sexist industry that profits off of the rape and abuse of women. doing it would be supporting the murder of 1 in 5 women.

Interracial cuckolding porn is very progressive.

 

[Dr. Meme]

OP, start making new friends and maybe see a therapist. This is not normal. You should not feel guilty for actions that you yourself did not commit. That's illogical.

DBT skills regarding emotion regulation will likely help you. I suggest printing some handouts out and working on them, either alone or with a trained professional.

I have been in contact with my therapist for over 3 months now and we've made small progress. I'm afraid to tell him that i havent been taking my antidepressants as he's a large white male and I fear he will resort to violence when i tell him.
Most of my friends have abandoned me after i started transitioning, but my bf has been caring towards me. he is my cutie patootie rock <3. I've tried making friends on this site but no one really likes me :/.
about the handouts, where do i get those? i googled it but all i got were pictures of homeless syrian men.

 

[Ti-99/4A]

President Trump will make being white great again, so quit feeling guilty about it. All those races that whine about the horrible things whites did to them would not have hesitated to do them to us if they had the numbers and technology to do so. Or you could check your privilege and donate at least $1000 to Kylie Brooks.

 

[Dr. Meme]

President Trump will make being white great again, so quit feeling guilty about it. All those races that whine about the horrible things whites did to them would not have hesitated to do them to us if they had the numbers and technology to do so. Or you could check your privilege and donate at least $1000 to Kylie Brooks.

FUCK DRUMPF!!!!

 

[Wish a nigga would]

I have been in contact with my therapist for over 3 months now and we've made small progress. I'm afraid to tell him that i havent been taking my antidepressants as he's a large white male and I fear he will resort to violence when i tell him.
Most of my friends have abandoned me after i started transitioning, but my bf has been caring towards me. he is my cutie patootie rock <3. I've tried making friends on this site but no one really likes me :/.
about the handouts, where do i get those? i googled it but all i got were pictures of homeless syrian men.

Maybe you need a new therapist who doesnt intimidate you so much. Also, IRL friends. Sounds like you need a break from the internet until you stop believing trolls who say that big men will beat u up instead of helping you. You are paying him to help you. And if he does hurt you, that's a big fat lawshit and money in your pocket.


https://www.google.com/search?q=dbt...ndroid-att-us&sourceid=chrome-mobile&ie=UTF-8

 

[Dr. Meme]

Maybe you need a new therapist who doesnt intimidate you so much. Also, IRL friends. Sounds like you need a break from the internet until you stop believing trolls who say that big men will beat u up instead of helping you. You are paying him to help you. And if he does hurt you, that's a big fat lawshit and money in your pocket.


https://www.google.com/search?q=dbt...ndroid-att-us&sourceid=chrome-mobile&ie=UTF-8

It's not so much that I'm worried that he'll hurt me in the physical sense, but that he'll psychologically manipulate me into commiting self harm or worse. He's about 6 feet tall and built like a horse, so he could easily manipulate me into doing something i don't want to. I'd find another therapist but he is the only one we can afford on my mother's benefits.

thank you for the DBT information, I'll start working on it with my mom and step dad

 

[Locksnap]

Maybe you need a new therapist who doesnt intimidate you so much. Also, IRL friends. Sounds like you need a break from the internet until you stop believing trolls who say that big men will beat u up instead of helping you.

Uh, victim blaming much?

 

[Null]

Coming from a PoC, the best thing you can do as an ally is watch Quentin Tarantino films and then service my BBC.

Quentin Tarantino is a fucking national treasure, send him feet

 

[Wish a nigga would]

It's not so much that I'm worried that he'll hurt me in the physical sense, but that he'll psychologically manipulate me into commiting self harm or worse. He's about 6 feet tall and built like a horse, so he could easily manipulate me into doing something i don't want to. I'd find another therapist but he is the only one we can afford on my mother's benefits.

thank you for the DBT information, I'll start working on it with my mom and step dad

That's not how therapists work. Maybe look into a new therapist that you aren't as scared by.

 

[Locksnap]

Quentin Tarantino is a fucking national treasure, send him feet

"Its a black male thing"

 

[Dr. Meme]

That's not how therapists work. Maybe look into a new therapist that you aren't as scared by.

I told you i can't afford another one. We've looked all over the Osceola County area but there prices were more than we could budget for. hes a state sponsered one so we can go to him through the goverment partailly paid by my mothers disability benefits.
I'd pay for it myself but i have to save my allowance up for a new laptop cam for twitch streaming after my mom broke it trying to film herself cooking spaghetti for her youtube channel

 

[AnotherForumUser]

If the OP is being serious, which it's starting to look like he might be, then he should seek out a better therapist and realize that the notion of collective ethnic guilt is bullshit.