Diseased Sanctioned Suicide - "Kill yourself" but unironically with sodium nitrite. Higher death count than the Farms. Targeted by parents, legislators, and journalists looking to alter Section 230.

[Molesting the Decapitated]

Not that Hotwheels, this one. The one who ran 8chan. And wizardchan before that.

And is now a furfag retard who hates the Farms.

My bad I've never heard of that. I never used any of the -chans really

I know who he is though, I've seen an interview with him or two.

 

[AnOminous]

My bad I've never heard of that. I never used any of the -chans really

I know who he is though, I've seen an interview with him or two.

Wizardchan was an incel chan. I don't mean the way 4chan is, it was officially a chan for incels. He got thrown off his own chan because he got laid and that is heresy there.

 

[x3firehexx]

Watching that made me understand why Hitler wanted to add a PPK into the mix.

Honestly that reminds me of that one time a lawyer just shot himself to prove a point

Break a leg.

UK response: we'll get around to that in six months or so
US response: can you afford to get that fixed?
CA response: lmao kill yourself.

BG response: Yeah we'll take care of it... if you are lucky enough to not die during the procedure due to acute tetanus and/or sepsis

 

[Molesting the Decapitated]

I'm sure most are probably aware by now of this since it's kind of old news, but FuneralCry's ban wasn't permanent after all.

And she writes sob posts on her own profile almost every day that look like the same phrase, just ran through an AI program to reword it differently each time

 

[x3firehexx]

I'm sure most are probably aware by now of this since it's kind of old news, but FuneralCry's ban wasn't permanent after all.

And she writes sob posts on her own profile almost every day that look like the same phrase, just ran through an AI program to reword it differently each time
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How the fuck is she so fucking dedicated to trolling this place for several years non stop. Jesus, i mean, that it's retarded trolling, it is, but i admire the sheer dedication nonetheless.

 

[Molesting the Decapitated]

How the fuck is she so fucking dedicated to trolling this place for several years non stop. Jesus, i mean, that it's retarded trolling, it is, but i admire the sheer dedication nonetheless.

That's just the thing, i don't know if it's trolling for sure. It's very strange.

 

[neger psykolog]

I searched on KF for sanctioned + ketamine and didn't find any results, so thought I would mention this and am honestly surprised that it hasn't been mentioned thus far (I am going by the search results). I read through some of this thread earlier and saw some people mention that they suffered from depression and had been suicidal so just thought I would share some personal wisdom on the subject.

If you suffer from hardcore depression and have tried several medications (antidepressants etc) or even haven't tried those and haven't found any respite you may find that ketamine therapy improves things not only dramatically but very quickly. I have tried 6+ antidepressants over many years and have had a long, extensive history of depression. I have been at points where I have considered ending my life as well as medically assisted suicide.

It can unfortunately be very costly depending on how you take it (the nasal spray called Spravato is particularly expensive, but depending on where you live and health insurance coverage it can be quite affordable). The downside of most antidepressants besides the side effects is that they take 60 days-6 months to become "fully effective" and if you have genetic factors that influence or hinder your production of serotonin then they don't work very well or can have erratic effects.

If you can't source it legally then find out how to get it illegally (obviously do research on how to take it sensibly) because it truly can work wonders (I would say "does" but it isn't guaranteed)--if you're going down the route of trying to source shit to end your life I figure you may as well give this a try.

I don't want to paint it as a guarantee but if you're treated on it and it is effective for you it can give you a dramatic improvement on the symptoms of depression and worked far more effectively than any antidepressant that I ever took, by fucking miles. You don't need to take huge doses that put you in the k-hole (I've still never taken enough for that), but even small periodic doses can work wonders.

I want to emphasize that not only does it cure the lowest of the lows but can (if you are fortunate enough) make you a much happier person overall. Most antidepressants don't really seem to make people happy but just numb their senses so they stop causing problems for other people... ketamine on the other hand actually made me "happy" (without any lingering effects or withdrawal symptoms like antidepressants have). It genuinely made me a much happier person (and this is no matter how shit the world may seem, I at least felt far more positive)


Protip: Elon Musk takes it regularly and that dude from Friends who died a while back died from taking too much of it and drowning in his bathtub. It definitely does work for a decent amount of people and if the richest faggots on earth are taking it then it surely has some promise and is worth your time investigating and trying to source before considering ending your life.

 

[BrunoMattei]

I searched on KF for sanctioned + ketamine and didn't find any results, so thought I would mention this and am honestly surprised that it hasn't been mentioned thus far (I am going by the search results). I read through some of this thread earlier and saw some people mention that they suffered from depression and had been suicidal so just thought I would share some personal wisdom on the subject.

If you suffer from hardcore depression and have tried several medications (antidepressants etc) or even haven't tried those and haven't found any respite you may find that ketamine therapy improves things not only dramatically but very quickly. I have tried 6+ antidepressants and have had a long, extensive history of depression.

It can unfortunately be very costly depending on how you take it (the nasal spray called Spravato is particularly expensive, but depending on where you live and health insurance coverage it can be quite affordable). The downside of most antidepressants besides the side effects is that they take 60 days-6 months to become "fully effective" and if you have genetic factors that influence or hinder your production of serotonin then they don't work very well or can have erratic effects.

If you can't source it legally then find out how to get it illegally (obviously do research on how to take it sensibly) because it truly can work wonders (I would say "does" but it isn't guaranteed)--if you're going down the route of trying to source shit to end your life I figure you may as well give this a try.

I don't want to paint it as a guarantee but if you're treated on it and it is effective for you it can give you a dramatic improvement on the symptoms of depression and worked far more effectively than any antidepressant that I ever took, by fucking miles. You don't need to take huge doses that put you in the k-hole (I've still never taken enough for that), but even small periodic doses can work wonders.

I have a friend who underwent that treatment and at first it worked wonders for them but gradually wore off.

Therapy has been meaningless for me and I always tell people to write. It's good to express those thoughts and reflect on them.

 

[neger psykolog]

I have a friend who underwent that treatment and at first it worked wonders for them but gradually wore off.

Therapy has been meaningless for me and I always tell people to write. It's good to express those thoughts and reflect on them.

Well your mileage may vary. Nothing is ever really a surefire permanent fix, but it works a lot quicker than antidepressants and has less side effects. In any case, it sounds a lot better for people to at least give Ketamine and other weird-ass treatments a try before considering ending their lives (I mean you may as well have some fun--Ketamine can at least give you a trip if nothing else)

In terms of therapy, I have been there and done that. It helped a bit but I think like what you are saying I much more prefer to write as it is the world in which we actually think and "talk therapy" has limitations in that sense (especially when it is only 45-60 minute long sessions). Recently I had a friend tell me that they just use ChatGPT for fucking everything and they stopped giving a shit about personal privacy considerations. So I tried the same thing and to be honest ChatGPT (the paid version) actually gave me sensible and reasonable things to try out and in my mindset because it is written it is a lot more effective for me.

If you have privacy considerations, maybe try a local AI model for it? Otherwise just pay for premium ChatGPT and go fucking nuts--I told it some things that I realized were holding back my life personally that I had come to realize through therapy and other things and it gave me a great list of things to work on, and that's the way I'm heading.

 

[AnOminous]

Therapy has been meaningless for me and I always tell people to write. It's good to express those thoughts and reflect on them.

Reminds me of Cioran's epigram: "Every book is a postponed suicide."

 

[BrunoMattei]

In my experience the therapist didn't seem to care that much or just did not want to actually talk about the things I want to talk about. Instead, they just throw drugs at you to make you into a zombie that only sleeps.

 

[neger psykolog]

In my experience the therapist didn't seem to care that much or just did not want to actually talk about the things I want to talk about. Instead, they just throw drugs at you to make you into a zombie that only sleeps.

Firstly, a therapist shouldn't be the one prescribing medication (they can suggest it though)

Try AI/ChatGPT instead:

(it is funny that that song was written in 1989 but there are lots of prescient songs like it.

I guess the better message is to try and create something yourself and take pride in it whether it is writing, song or dance or computer program. Whatever you may think of yourself your posts on here do count for something, people do read and interact with them and that counts for something.

"Either have children or become a saint, because eventually, you have to find something you love more than you love yourself."

https://x.com/naval/status/1339487097158131713

 

[BrunoMattei]

Firstly, a therapist shouldn't be the one prescribing medication (they can suggest it though)

Yeah, one cocksucker in the BSU prescribed Hydroxzyzine which has the side effect of making you impotent. I never trusted the drugs and spit them out and while I was reviewing the file they kept on me they only noticed me spitting them out once.

 

[neger psykolog]

Yeah, one cocksucker in the BSU prescribed Hydroxzyzine which has the side effect of making you impotent. I never trusted the drugs and spit them out and while I was reviewing the file they kept on me they only noticed me spitting them out once.

(wat does BSU stand for? black student union lol)

The most effective medication I was ever prescribed was only after I refused to take anymore of the class of medications I had been prescribed before (SSRIs and other antidepressants)--as soon as that happened my quality of life increased ten fold. Aside from that it took several years of my life and many, many dollars of my bank account to happen upon a doctor who I had a very good rapport with and was actually passionate about his actual job and treating patients and was more willing to try weirder medications.

I guess the lesson it took me a very long time to learn is that you can sometimes actually just say "no" when doctors try to prescribe you medication. But it very much depends on what your issues are, so I don't want to suggest any of that as a solution for everyone, I had some very particular problems and it just happened to work out for me (not saying things are magically all that much better now, but they are at least significantly improved)

 

[BrunoMattei]

(wat does BSU stand for? black student union lol)

It stands for Behavioral Science Unit. Or, it's the nuthouse. If you call it an asylum the workers are quick to correct you that it's called a BSU as if that makes any difference at all.

And, for the situation I was stuck in, I could not say no to the drugs or that's seen as not dealing with your problem and they will extend your stay.

Edit: it made more sense for me to yes them to death and play their games to get out quicker. They typically hold suicidal people for 2 weeks at a minimum but I was able to get out in a week. I had to because the place I was in was an absolute nightmarish 3rd world shithole.

 

[AnOminous]

Yeah, one cocksucker in the BSU prescribed Hydroxzyzine which has the side effect of making you impotent. I never trusted the drugs and spit them out and while I was reviewing the file they kept on me they only noticed me spitting them out once.

I was kind of pissed off once when I broke into my psychiatrist's file cabinet to read her file on me. Well, I didn't break into it forcibly, I just noticed where she hung her keys on a hook under the desk. Not that what she said wasn't true, actually that pissed me off a bit, but that actually telling me that directly would have been a lot more useful than just putting it in her files and saying the dumb shit she actually did say.

 

[BrunoMattei]

I was kind of pissed off once when I broke into my psychiatrist's file cabinet to read her file on me. Well, I didn't break into it forcibly, I just noticed where she hung her keys on a hook under the desk. Not that what she said wasn't true, actually that pissed me off a bit, but that actually telling me that directly would have been a lot more useful than just putting it in her files and saying the dumb shit she actually did say.

I read what the Indian psych wrote in my file while I was in the ER and the cunt blatantly lied in saying that I was still suicidal and recommended I be held for 30 days even when I pleaded I was no longer suicidal and needed to go home to pick up my cat and get things in order.

I legit hope one day that India is nuked off the face of the Earth.

 

[OrSoHelpMe]

I thought for a while about how much sensitive information I wanted linked to my kiwifarms account, and I’m trying to keep this brief.

I attempted suicide earlier this year, and did read Sanctioned Suicide, but not until I had already firmly decided to do it. It took a few months to set up and I felt very isolated, I had pushed everyone out of my life in preparation. Reading there actually turned me away from trying sodium nitrite. Sounded to me like it might be painful if survived, and too easy to mess up a step. The people discussing their personal attempts helped me not do that one. I used the discussions at sanctioned suicide to figure out how I was going to do it, and really develop a plan instead of just desperately trying something that wouldn’t work, and might damage me or anyone else. Without that resource I still would have attempted, but it would have been in a more awful way, and my time leading up to it would have felt so much more desperate and suffocating.

Decided to end it after falling through the cracks far enough. Like the poster on pg 101 I have an extensive trauma history. Tried to engage with help many times but lots of systems are inadequate for severe trauma. Fought the good fight for a long time, was functional enough to get a degree but eventually in mid-adulthood fell far enough to be homeless. Couch surfed until options ran out, spent a couple of years struggling to connect with help (looked functional, not addicted, but had deep mistrust of mental health services) and figure out a way back into a world I hated and didn’t want to participate in any more. When I realized winter was coming, my PTSD was so bad I could not feed myself or keep my space clean, and I was so fucking exhausted and could see no possible way back up, in that mental state I believed I was giving myself compassion. My feelings around assisted suicide and whether it should be offered to severe mental illness is still complicated.

I attempted by figuring out how to access a drug that would be lethal in overdose, went far away from anywhere I’d ever been, and overdosed. Thought I was dying and the feeling of finality, ok I’m done now, was so peaceful. But the drug wasn’t entirely what it was supposed to be.

Left a note at the scene to make sure only EMTs entered (didn’t want to traumatize a rando wandering on the scene) but drug was mixed with another drug and I was found alive, treated medically, got a week of really awful inpatient psych treatment, then wound up living in a homeless shelter way far away from fucking everything familiar. Ironically, that was where I connected with the people who could really help me, and I started putting pieces back together.

I’m doing really well now, found myself an apartment and am making it work, while actually processing my PTSD in the present and moving on with acceptance. To be honest, if I was suddenly back to that moment in time and given the choice to either succeed with the suicide, or go through everything I’ve gone through since, I would still choose to succeed with suicide. But I’m trying to build a life that doesn’t feel that way any more, and I’m a little proud of what I’ve been able to do so far.

If I hadn’t turned to Sanctioned Suicide to read, I think I would have been much more likely to have wound up in a cycle of failed attempt after failed attempt, or have succeeded desperately in a painful, horrible way that traumatized others. I wouldn’t have wanted that to be how I gave myself compassion. I ignored the despair posts, and the troll posts. A subset of visitors there must get some kind of harm reduction benefit from it like I did.

 

[Mikoyan]

I was kind of pissed off once when I broke into my psychiatrist's file cabinet to read her file on me. Well, I didn't break into it forcibly, I just noticed where she hung her keys on a hook under the desk. Not that what she said wasn't true, actually that pissed me off a bit, but that actually telling me that directly would have been a lot more useful than just putting it in her files and saying the dumb shit she actually did say.

AnOminous: like more subtle Gordon Liddy.

I read what the Indian psych wrote in my file while I was in the ER and the cunt blatantly lied in saying that I was still suicidal and recommended I be held for 30 days even when I pleaded I was no longer suicidal and needed to go home to pick up my cat and get things in order.

I legit hope one day that India is nuked off the face of the Earth.

Oh dude oh fuck you had a fucking Jeet psych? I would've ran. I get it wasn't your choice.

 

[BrunoMattei]

AnOminous: like more subtle Gordon Liddy.


Oh dude oh fuck you had a fucking Jeet psych? I would've ran. I get it wasn't your choice.

Multiple Jeets.