Alcoholism Support Thread - Down the hatch

[Hey Johnny Bravo]

That's the thing. I used to drink and play games on friday nights, so since I've grown too jaded to get that "second coming of gaymin" where you start obsessing over something new, I instead go "nah if I drink now ill totally randomly boot up tekken and grind that shit for 3 hours half-dozed out of my mind". I relate new people and new things with drinking cause I'd wake up with 3 new 'friends' on steam from being drunk on Skype. It's entirely the culture rooted in my bones that thursday is heating up to friday which is gonna go down, and if I go early to bed I waste the day (despite getting up 6AM next day and being productive all day). Shit if anything I play games the most enthusiastic early weekend mornings.

I tell myself I'm good at being alone; me, kitty, tea and a book etc. Big wholesome cozymaxxing, but I just never really do anything. I stare at the wall til I can finally start making lunch or whatever. That's the points at which I start drinking coffee to pad out the hours, and alcohol is the same for that niche timeslot of early friday evening. I really do need something else to fill that slot, but it'd be great if it filled other slots too. Sadly gaming is the easiest way to try new things and I just can't bring myself to play new shit. I need to literally force myself to try new things and that's another weak-willed moment I've yet to conquer.

Maybe I really should just go "Okay, proper dinner, proper snacks, new game, friday, sit down from 7 to 11pm and don't fucking exit it". Anyway: My issue is mentally. I work every second weekend so it's limited how many fridays I get tempted while yall pound it on way to work

You might benefit from going to an AA meeting in your area. I always recommend male-only meetings for men and female-only meetings for women. Talk to people there, make some friends, and start hanging out with them. It sounds like you need to learn how to relax and do fun stuff without drinking, and doing that with other sober people can help you do that.

I used to always be hammered while playing music and I worried that I would stop playing music altogether when I quit drinking. Well, I kept my gear, kept playing, and now I feel like I could have been a much better (and happier) musician had I been sober the whole time.

A lot of alcoholism is due to loneliness. You don't have to be alone.

 

[Nique la mere de Macron]

My alcoholism is 100% driven by loneliness. I just wanna have a popcorn and movie night, wholesome. But there’s no one to have it with.

 

[Hey Johnny Bravo]

My alcoholism is 100% driven by loneliness. I just wanna have a popcorn and movie night, wholesome. But there’s no one to have it with.

I don't know where you live, but there are plenty of AA groups which function as clubs. They aren't just people meeting, but they also help facilitate sober hangs. The place I go to is a converted church that has a recreation room with pool and card tables, a smoking room in the back, vending machines, and TV.

There are plenty of people who want to do the things they enjoy, but sober.

 

[Your Girlfriend's Dad]

That's the thing. I used to drink and play games on friday nights, so since I've grown too jaded to get that "second coming of gaymin" where you start obsessing over something new, I instead go "nah if I drink now ill totally randomly boot up tekken and grind that shit for 3 hours half-dozed out of my mind". I relate new people and new things with drinking cause I'd wake up with 3 new 'friends' on steam from being drunk on Skype. It's entirely the culture rooted in my bones that thursday is heating up to friday which is gonna go down, and if I go early to bed I waste the day (despite getting up 6AM next day and being productive all day). Shit if anything I play games the most enthusiastic early weekend mornings.

I tell myself I'm good at being alone; me, kitty, tea and a book etc. Big wholesome cozymaxxing, but I just never really do anything. I stare at the wall til I can finally start making lunch or whatever. That's the points at which I start drinking coffee to pad out the hours, and alcohol is the same for that niche timeslot of early friday evening. I really do need something else to fill that slot, but it'd be great if it filled other slots too. Sadly gaming is the easiest way to try new things and I just can't bring myself to play new shit. I need to literally force myself to try new things and that's another weak-willed moment I've yet to conquer.

Maybe I really should just go "Okay, proper dinner, proper snacks, new game, friday, sit down from 7 to 11pm and don't fucking exit it". Anyway: My issue is mentally. I work every second weekend so it's limited how many fridays I get tempted while yall pound it on way to work

Jesus, we have a lot in common.

I'll say this, it's way harder to get invested in a game sober, but if you make the effort you'll actually remember playing it and enjoy yourself.

 

[Manwithamask2]

I happen to drink mostly out of boredom. I wanna play some games, watch a movie etc. i wanna feel a buzz while doing that. Or i am conditioned to feel that i should feel a buzz. Also loneliness. I have been to AA a number of times but the whole "become one of us, member of the community, we are all one" was off putting. Also the fact that most people i hang out with and play games online look at me funny if i am sober.

 

[dick brain]

Alcohol would be endearing with a tard wife gf who gets drunk and I can drive her home

It gets old.

 

[sIntranet]

I started drinking when I was 15. I started to fuck up my life at about the same time. Now i'm 35 and I can't really tell if my fuck ups were due to drinking or if my drinking was due to the fuckups.

 

[dick brain]

I started drinking when I was 15. I started to fuck up my life at about the same time. Now i'm 35 and I can't really tell if my fuck ups were due to drinking or if my drinking was due to the fuckups.

You can test this empirically by not drinking and seeing if the fuckups decrease.

 

[sIntranet]

You can test this empirically by not drinking and seeing if the fuckups decrease.

Hah, I wish. I know very well how drinking or not affects me now. It's simply not something that affects me at the moment. I just wonder how alcohol affected me at the start.

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

I happen to drink mostly out of boredom. I wanna play some games, watch a movie etc. i wanna feel a buzz while doing that. Or i am conditioned to feel that i should feel a buzz. Also loneliness. I have been to AA a number of times but the whole "become one of us, member of the community, we are all one" was off putting. Also the fact that most people i hang out with and play games online look at me funny if i am sober.

They'd laugh me out the room. I literally just have to balls up and I've done it many times, but then the boredom gets extreme and it's hot outside and it's summer and it's bright at 10PM and people are playing music. Wake up hungover 6AM the next day and still manage to be productive. I know alcoholism is a state of mind not a unit of measurement but still.

I happen to drink mostly out of boredom. I wanna play some games, watch a movie etc. i wanna feel a buzz while doing that. Or i am conditioned to feel that i should feel a buzz. Also loneliness. I have been to AA a number of times but the whole "become one of us, member of the community, we are all one" was off putting. Also the fact that most people i hang out with and play games online look at me funny if i am sober.

Literally. And again right now. I've got a 5 day trip next week but the weekend I've got nothing and I can't go shopping for "fun" food cause it can't be in the fridge for 5 days meanwhile. Sit here on my ass, feeling "it's friday" a bit but not enough to go unce-unce and itch for alcohol. Yet.. why not. Boredom. It's one of those instances of "yeah I'd give my body a few days more of life by not drinking but what kind of life is that, laying in the back of a hospital at 72, dying alone? neat".

Now i'm 35 and I can't really tell if my fuck ups were due to drinking or if my drinking was due to the fuckups.

I got drunk with faggots playing TF2, added and removed people, no sweat. Then the 6v6 TF2 I played started including alcohol and I got rowdy and added a bunch of people I had no business adding and saying weird shit. I'm not sure I pushed myself out of the groups but I'd wake up to messages going "dont say that about my friends" (which was autist coded as shit but yknow). It feels like a superpower to never have to deal with shit done outside of my control. I have a great car that I spent 6 months finding and I stil have nightmares about crashing it, likely cause of being used to weird things happening outside of my control.

Alternatively: I drink a glass of water per glass of alcohol, go to bed half sober and wake up 6 hours later a bit groggy. Often I go to bed out of boredom and not being able to hit the 'fun' apex.

 

[Nique la mere de Macron]

I don't know where you live, but there are plenty of AA groups which function as clubs. They aren't just people meeting, but they also help facilitate sober hangs. The place I go to is a converted church that has a recreation room with pool and card tables, a smoking room in the back, vending machines, and TV.

There are plenty of people who want to do the things they enjoy, but sober.

Thanks! Good advice. I live rural but I've found some very good daily meetings on zoom. And gotten a sponsor and even made a few friends. It helps. Thanks for your compassion.

 

[Hey Johnny Bravo]

Thanks! Good advice. I live rural but I've found some very good daily meetings on zoom. And gotten a sponsor and even made a few friends. It helps. Thanks for your compassion.

Those are all great, big steps towards recovery. Keep attending the meetings, keep socializing with people, get some numbers, and say something if you're in a rough spell. No one in a meeting can read your mind, but someone can help you if you ask.

 

[Your Girlfriend's Dad]

Hah, I wish. I know very well how drinking or not affects me now. It's simply not something that affects me at the moment. I just wonder how alcohol affected me at the start.

You can wish, or you can try to make it happen. Either road sucks to walk down, but there's only one where you can hold your head high.

 

[Hey Johnny Bravo]

I hope that everyone takes care of themselves with the upcoming election. No matter what: drinking because things go the way you want can go overboard, and drinking to cope if things go the way you don't want is a dark road to go down.

 

[Neighborhood Janny]

I hope that everyone takes care of themselves with the upcoming election. No matter what: drinking because things go the way you want can go overboard, and drinking to cope if things go the way you don't want is a dark road to go down.

Amen, my dude. Let's all remember that we can only control the things we can control. Some things just aren't in our ability to control and we must accept that.

 

[Nique la mere de Macron]

I'm having a tough time today. It's been two years of severe underemployment and I'm down to eating every other day to save food for the kids. They're off to see family for a few days, I have applied for everything that I can possibly apply for today, done all of the shitty platform work that is available (which is not enough to even pay the electric bill, much less the mortgage), and it's still mid morning. I want nothing else but to forget and numb out and I'm trying so hard to remember that no matter how bad all this is, it would be a lot fucking worse with a two-day pukey hangover and a drunk injury.

 

[BrunoMattei]

My alcoholism is 100% driven by loneliness. I just wanna have a popcorn and movie night, wholesome. But there’s no one to have it with.

I don't know if it would be of interest to you but we have a Movie Night every Friday and weekend: https://cytu.be/r/dienull

https://kiwifarms.st/threads/new-movie-night-thread.30853/

 

[world of shit]

I've had to put in 60-80hr work weeks for almost a year. When I work 9am-midnight straight, it's impossible for me to go to sleep, so I started drinking to help with the insomia. It's turned into an every night thing for about 8 months. Past month I've reeled it back to 2-3 shots a night, and maybe a 6-8 on a weekend night.

If I stopped now, what (if any) withdrawal symptoms would i expect? I'm considering just moving to 1 shot a week, then .5 shot, just to keep me from having a bad week (big deadline coming, I have to be at optimial brainpower).

Anyone been in a similar situation? I was thinking of looking at some local AA places, but a lot are closed groups at night. Any tips on that?

 

[Your Girlfriend's Dad]

I've had to put in 60-80hr work weeks for almost a year. When I work 9am-midnight straight, it's impossible for me to go to sleep, so I started drinking to help with the insomia. It's turned into an every night thing for about 8 months. Past month I've reeled it back to 2-3 shots a night, and maybe a 6-8 on a weekend night.

If I stopped now, what (if any) withdrawal symptoms would i expect? I'm considering just moving to 1 shot a week, then .5 shot, just to keep me from having a bad week (big deadline coming, I have to be at optimial brainpower).

Anyone been in a similar situation? I was thinking of looking at some local AA places, but a lot are closed groups at night. Any tips on that?

You're going to have a very hard time sleeping. You're going to be itchy in bed and have vivid half asleep nightmares.

Alcohol puts you to sleep but sucks at keeping you asleep because of GABA rebound. Get some OTC melatonin and power through the shitty week. Get out while you're ahead.

 

[world of shit]

You're going to have a very hard time sleeping. You're going to be itchy in bed and have vivid half asleep nightmares.

Alcohol puts you to sleep but sucks at keeping you asleep because of GABA rebound. Get some OTC melatonin and power through the shitty week. Get out while you're ahead.

I think i had a taste of this when i went down to only 2 shots a night. I had vivid dreams of people breaking into my house