- Joined
- Dec 11, 2014
I don't have the motivation to change myself completely because it's just too hard and too much work, it is not guaranteed to work, and I don't want to have to be a completely different person just to be loved. My crippling depression makes me lazy and scared. I want to be loved for who I am. But women don't want to love a man for who he is. I don't want to have to work out and get ripped, get a bunch of hobbies I don't really like, make a bunch of friends, make money, get higher status, whatever just to get a girl to like me. I don't want to become alpha, ubermasculine, not sensitive, stoic, manly. Why can't I be loved for who I am? I would like the way I am if people also liked it. All this for just some cuddling, companionship, sex and whatever? A girl doesn't have to be all those things. Just be attractive to me and have some stuff in common. Why can't I be good enough for onegirl the way I am? If I were a girl this would not be the case, but I am a guy, so this is how it is.
Some say that this is among the best parts of being a man, being the best you can be and always improving. Why do I want to participate in a rat race, at the starting line while everyone else is ahead of me by a long distance, to get what others take for granted? Maybe if it was a little issue or two, but I do not want to climb Mt. Everest to get a taste of what normies, Chads, and women take for granted. Don't give me the bootstraps bullshit.
Now look where I am. A lonely, anxious, awkward guy with negative self-esteem who has a deep seated hatred and distrust of women and general distrust in normies due to past trauma and disappointment in life.
Now, I won't call myself a nice guy, because I'm not a nice guy. But goddamn do I know how to be a good person, but it hasn't helped much, and it has made be bitter. I would rather be nice and friendly and beta, but women like tough and strong masculine men. They want a man, not another woman.
Therefore, I need to die.
https://www.reddit.com/r/Incels/comments/5lqa73/i_have_to_kill_myself/
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