Trainwreck Pixyteri / Sarah Guilbeaux / Ashton Winters - Glorious Nippon Cosplayer and Stomach Penis Pooner, she's peein' and poopin' the bed, mother is equally crazy

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Also, new painting. She just finished it. It's about how she was forced into being a girl. Even though that never really was an issue before and she's obviously biologically female. We've even seen her nudes. As as gross as it is nothing looked anomalous. She just up and decided one day her whole past as a female was a lie she was forced to live.

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listen i know art is subjective, everyone interprets it differently, the artist is trying to send a message through their work, whatever, but for the life of me i can't figure out how a disembodied yawning face on a chair represents being forced to be a girl. maybe the chair is there because she was made to sit down and be a good little girl? she's yawning because she's bored and tired of being a girl?
it does look vaguely like debbie. if she didn't say she used google images for references i'd think it was a baby picture of sarah. it'd make sense to use a picture of her as a kid if this piece represents her childhood of being forced to be a girl or whatever.

i'm really reaching here and tbh there's no point in trying to interpret her paintings. it probably makes perfect sense in her schizo mind. it's the viewers fault for not getting it when all you have to do is see her rub the stomach penis to understand it, or something

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If you don't look insane enough with one set of ugly contacts... Mix and match em!
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NYC is her new Japan. She's going to keep pining over it and how she's so poor and has no friends or lovers to go with. She's probably already fantasizing about waddling around the city in cosplay taking pics.
NYC would chew her up and spit her out. She'd get rolled the moment she stepped of the Greyhound. People would size her up, see a mark and she'd be left high and dry with no way to get home.
 
That painting pisses me off. She's still trying to push her "parents gave me too much Benadryl as a kid and raped me in my sleep because that's a normal thing to happen to girls and they wanted me to be a girl" story. (Or maybe not, but the yawning imagery implies that's what she's trying to bring up again.) She looked up and copied a photo of a random little girl yawning to illustrate her delusion and peddle it off as fine art. No one's going to buy your CSA-inspired garbage, Sarah. You aren't a poor little oppressed LGBTQIAwhatever person, and if you were raped, it's very unlikely to have been your dad and it was one of your FWBs while you were in your twenties. I don't understand why she'd rather pretend to have extreme childhood trauma rather than confront her possibly real trauma from young adulthood (or just regret/shame over her antics as Pixyteri), other than the former is in line with her shota/loli fetish. And that makes me more MATI.

But anyway lol at her thinking public transit in the largest city in the US is fun. I guess if you've lived in the suburbs of the deep south your whole life, major east coast cities and modes of transport other than gas guzzling SUVs seem "magical" in a way. There's nothing wrong with her wanting to visit NYC one day, but she's going to be insufferable about it because it's another unobtainable thing for her. And yeah, if she managed to go there all by herself she'd be in huge danger of getting mugged, scammed, assaulted, or just mocked because she's so clueless. I don't think she's ever traveled to another city on her own even within Texas.
 
I don't think her paintings have any meaning. I think she paints random shit and then projects ~deep thoughts~ onto it after the fact. It's always LOL SO RANDOM crap that lines up with the humour of her age and social group back when they were teens/young adults.
It's the painting equivalent of Iam14andthisisdeep.
 
NYC would chew her up and spit her out. She'd get rolled the moment she stepped of the Greyhound. People would size her up, see a mark and she'd be left high and dry with no way to get home.

She saw Japan as the land of anime and idols. She probably sees NYC as the land of art and pronouns. Just because it's a big city doesn't mean people will adore you for acting like a weirdo.

I'm surprised she isn't whining about not being able to watch the ball drop at Times Square.
That painting pisses me off. She's still trying to push her "parents gave me too much Benadryl as a kid and raped me in my sleep because that's a normal thing to happen to girls and they wanted me to be a girl" story. (Or maybe not, but the yawning imagery implies that's what she's trying to bring up again.) She looked up and copied a photo of a random little girl yawning to illustrate her delusion and peddle it off as fine art. No one's going to buy your CSA-inspired garbage, Sarah. You aren't a poor little oppressed LGBTQIAwhatever person, and if you were raped, it's very unlikely to have been your dad and it was one of your FWBs while you were in your twenties. I don't understand why she'd rather pretend to have extreme childhood trauma rather than confront her possibly real trauma from young adulthood (or just regret/shame over her antics as Pixyteri), other than the former is in line with her shota/loli fetish. And that makes me more MATI.

But anyway lol at her thinking public transit in the largest city in the US is fun. I guess if you've lived in the suburbs of the deep south your whole life, major east coast cities and modes of transport other than gas guzzling SUVs seem "magical" in a way. There's nothing wrong with her wanting to visit NYC one day, but she's going to be insufferable about it because it's another unobtainable thing for her. And yeah, if she managed to go there all by herself she'd be in huge danger of getting mugged, scammed, assaulted, or just mocked because she's so clueless. I don't think she's ever traveled to another city on her own even within Texas.

I don't think women should travel to unfamiliar major metro areas alone. Let's see how manly she is when she gets mugged or something. Pixy has no street sense. I don't know what Victoria is like, but it looks pretty safe in her neck of the woods from what I've seen her film. I actually kinda envy it in a way because from where I am it looks like another planet.

I used to take the subway to school. I had to interchange from another train and go down this long scary tunnel to get from one train to the other. All of this underground. I remember one time I witnessed the aftermath of a murder. No one rides the subway for fun. They begrudgingly ride it because they have to.

I'm wondering if this NYC stuff is coming from artists at the art walk talking about their trips. Pixy might be jelly. Just like she was jelly of Japanese idols and people getting to visit Japan. She doesn't even realise how much her antics have isolated her from having any fun.


I don't think her paintings have any meaning. I think she paints random shit and then projects ~deep thoughts~ onto it after the fact. It's always LOL SO RANDOM crap that lines up with the humour of her age and social group back when they were teens/young adults.

If there's meaning it only makes sense to her. And she's also very smug about them. She was astounded that no one raved over how amazing her Chester Bennington portrait was. And there was that awful LARP painting that she got all butthurt over when someone said they couldn't wait to see the finished product. Everything she does is in the mindset of "I did a thing. Why is no one praising me for said thing?". It's like she can't connect the dots completely.
 
No one rides the subway for fun. They begrudgingly ride it because they have to.
This. 100% this.

And add public transportation to the list.

I'm wondering if this NYC stuff is coming from artists at the art walk talking about their trips. Pixy might be jelly. Just like she was jelly of Japanese idols and people getting to visit Japan. She doesn't even realise how much her antics have isolated her from having any fun.
It's probably due to her being a small town kind of girl who longs for the big city as being a place of wonder and opportunity. She imagines renting a loft in the Village where she can paint and there's cute cafes and small hole in the wall restaurants and everybody there is accepting and nobody misgenders her.

It would be funny if it wasn't so sad. But part of me really wants her to go there and give it a try.
 
I don't think women should travel to unfamiliar major metro areas alone. Let's see how manly she is when she gets mugged or something. Pixy has no street sense.
On the one hand: this almost certainly isn't going to happen in the tourist areas of New York that she wants to visit.
On the other hand: if she ever does go, she's probably going to stay in the scariest, blackest ghetto they've got, because it was cheapest.
 
That painting pisses me off. She's still trying to push her "parents gave me too much Benadryl as a kid and raped me in my sleep because that's a normal thing to happen to girls and they wanted me to be a girl" story. (Or maybe not, but the yawning imagery implies that's what she's trying to bring up again.) She looked up and copied a photo of a random little girl yawning to illustrate her delusion and peddle it off as fine art. No one's going to buy your CSA-inspired garbage, Sarah. You aren't a poor little oppressed LGBTQIAwhatever person, and if you were raped, it's very unlikely to have been your dad and it was one of your FWBs while you were in your twenties. I don't understand why she'd rather pretend to have extreme childhood trauma rather than confront her possibly real trauma from young adulthood (or just regret/shame over her antics as Pixyteri), other than the former is in line with her shota/loli fetish. And that makes me more MATI.
In my opinion she would rather pretend to have childhood trauma because:
1: childhood trauma = sympathy and asspats
2. This "childhood trauma" isn't something that was documented online in some way unlike most of her adulthood antics, so no one can disprove it, or really comment on it because "it was MY childhood and you weren't there."

The ability to disprove her claims is the important part as I remember her having a mental break down, throwing away her Japanese stuff and taking pictures of herself crying while throwing all the stuff away when Debbie got the DNA test to prove Sara wasn't Japanese in any way.
 
The ability to disprove her claims is the important part as I remember her having a mental break down, throwing away her Japanese stuff and taking pictures of herself crying while throwing all the stuff away when Debbie got the DNA test to prove Sara wasn't Japanese in any way.
Holy shit. If that ain't a cluster B disorder I don't know what is. She's so histrionic and narcissistic on top of being autistic and possibly bipolar. Does she not understand that people of any race/ethnicity can like Japanese stuff without being Japanese themselves? Does or did she think all those people at US anime conventions and or online making websites about anime, posting their cosplay photos, etc are all haffus or even full-blooded Japanese themselves? Was she applying the same logic to yaoi these last several years, that she can't like it unless she's a gay man herself? Things are more complicated now that she's larping a "straight" man but this is still proof that being special (and adored for it) is more important than anything else in her life. She has to BE the thing she's obsessed with. That may be why she wants to go to or even live in NYC, so she can be a real kweer artist, because those can't exist in her "backwards" town (that has other artists and LGBT people but they aren't Ashton Winters, most LGBT artist of all!!!).

The day she finally snaps out of this gender shit will be quite something, especially if she realizes how much it ruined her life. Pretending to be half-Nihonjin for a decade wasn't nearly as damaging, since she could at least still get a job, some people actually liked her lolita/cosplay, and others tried to help her be less of a trainwreck. No matter how many vague stories she tells about CSA that may or may not be true, no one gives a shit about her (or "him") now. It'll be worse once her remaining orbiters realize she's making it up for attention/pity, since she's running out of suckers to believe her lies about just how terrible her life is.
 
It'll be worse once her remaining orbiters realize she's making it up for attention/pity, since she's running out of suckers to believe her lies about just how terrible her life is.
I know she's going to the spooky Night Market this Saturday, trying to hock her ugly paintings. I'll be passing through to support a couple friends there. I badly want to make a t-shirt that says, "PTs noods ruined my life" for funsies. Could you guys imagine the autistic sperging that could possibly happen? She's burned so many bridges with people in this shitty town that there are few ass patters left. Out of all the "events" she hauls her shit to, I think she maybe sells one piece during every 6 events. So prepare yourselves for crying about being misgendered at the market and nothing selling. The usual...
 
In my opinion she would rather pretend to have childhood trauma because:
1: childhood trauma = sympathy and asspats
2. This "childhood trauma" isn't something that was documented online in some way unlike most of her adulthood antics, so no one can disprove it, or really comment on it because "it was MY childhood and you weren't there."

The ability to disprove her claims is the important part as I remember her having a mental break down, throwing away her Japanese stuff and taking pictures of herself crying while throwing all the stuff away when Debbie got the DNA test to prove Sara wasn't Japanese in any way.

I remember that. There was a photo of her taking a big paper fan off the wall and pouting about it. Her haffu yumes destroyed. But it didn't really make much difference. She just latched onto something else in a similar manner, becoming obsessed with this intersex transman with a stomach penis nonsense and skinwalking male characters instead of female ones. I believe that it's not that she wants to be Asian or male. It's that she just doesn't want to be Sarah Guilbeaux. For some reason she hates that person and wants to erase her. She wants to be overwritten with a fantasy that makes no sense in reality.

Is someone really making troll accounts as Pixy or Sarah or is this all in her head? For all we know she saw a perfectly innocent account with a similar name and became paranoid that they were harming her and now she's dying again. :roll:

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Well hello there handsome. ;)

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