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Yaba opens by directly addresses ALR and claims, “I'm not bullying you. I'm not making fun of you.”
While this is not the first video in which Yaba makes a point of saying she’s no bully, it
is the first surviving video to also make the claim in the description:
Yaba later in the video provides 2 definitions of bullying, one which involves targeted harassment and the other which involves ALR uploading content (which is somehow bullying).
Rather, Yaba is simply “stating some facts that [ALR] will not state.”
The video concerns 2 recent incidents: (1) ALR’s rape allegations against former partner Casey and Casey’s response to ALR’s allegations; (2) a video in which ALR and then-girlfriend Destiny allegedly abuse an animal.
This discussion focuses on the rape allegation, as Yaba has little to say about the animal abuse allegations.
For Yaba’s expanded thoughts on animal abuse, one once
had options:
In making this video, Yaba is motivated by ALR’s refusal to respond to community discussion of the above incidents and because ALR has “turned off [her] comments,” meaning others are unable to respond to ALR directly.
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Yaba claims to have begun watching ALR “a while back,” when ALR and Destiny “had just moved to Kentucky.”
She cites a video “with the clickbait title
A Fat Girl Walks Downstairs [see above] or
This is What a 482-lb Girl Looks Like [?].”
I assume by clickbait, Yaba means a title that is provocative, as opposed to a video that promises one thing but deliberately fails to honor the promise.
That is, if you wanted to watch a fat bitch move haltingly down a Mayan-like flight of stairs in ALR's video, you got it.
Taken literally, however, Yaba began watching ALR in June 2016.
Yaba believes she “was even leaving nice comments and things,” though “it didn’t take long for [Yaba] to realize” ALR’s true character.
(I scrubbed around briefly from vlogs during this period, so nothing from Yaba. This is not to say Yaba did not leave comments, particularly given that she acknowledges in other vlogs to using "sock accounts.")
Yaba attributes her revelation of ALR’s character to “maybe… the whole Casey situation.”
She corrects herself, as it was actually while ALR was “living with Destiny’s mom,” and it seemed Destiny “did all the work while [ALR]… laid around and didn’t do anything but complain.”
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Following the rape allegation video, where ALR “talked about rape like it was a fucking joke,” Yaba realized “what a fake phony” ALR was.
Unless, as discussed above, she had already soured on ALR, 2-3 months prior to the rape allegation.
ALR used her YouTube platform and her “probably… 23,000 subscribers” to “try to bring another person down.”
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NB: 12 minutes later, ALR’s subscriber count, per Yaba, will have grown to 24,000 (18:43-18:51).)
Yaba is aghast that ALR was “expecting people to just jump on [her] bandwagon and believe everything that came out of [her] mouth,” which would presumably result in people going off to “bash on Casey.”
As Yaba however notes, “That’s not what happened.”
Interestingly, subscriber count has been a consistent talking point with Yaba — she has complained about Amy Slaton, Mukbang King, and Mukbang Mama’s subscriber counts.
Either they’re taking advantage of their subscribers in some way (i.e., “grifting”) or weaponizing their audience against smaller channels like Yaba’s.
Wrt. the latter, while 2016 Yaba bemoans targeting smaller creators, by 2018 Yaba herself targets a
much smaller channel:
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2:57-3:45
Casey made a response video, rejecting ALR’s allegations and asserting
ALR was the abuser.
While Yaba acknowledges that no outside party can “really know what happened,” Yaba insists ALR’s story “just seemed fake… didn’t even seem believable… didn’t even seem real.”
Now, one doesn’t “want to just go out and tell a person that they’re lying about being raped.”
Nonetheless, the fact that Casey made a response video and ALR did
not make a response video in turn and “waited a while to even put another video up,” strongly suggests ALR is a phony.
Alternatively, Yaba already knew ALR was a phony, because (1) the word
retard/retarded is not printed on Yaba's forehead (discussed in previous vlog)7; (2) she knew ALR was a phony due to previous, non-rape-themed videos.
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Again, had the rape occurred, ALR “would have kept defending [herself].”
Since ALR did not continue to defend herself, she was not raped, which means she lied and was therefore “caught in [her] lie” when Casey “called [her] out on [her] shit.”
3:45-4:07
Yaba believes that if ALR really “got raped,” she would make a response video to Casey, to “make sure that” there would be no further victims: “that would be the right thing to do.”
I’ll be honest — I struggled with Yaba’s logic on this point.
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ALR instead “went on with [her] little life,” which resulted in damage to Casey’s life, as there are now “people out there who don’t believe what he says.”
Likewise, there are “people out there who don’t believe what [ALR] said.”
Yaba is one of them. She does, however, concede “there was trouble in that relationship… [which] probably came from both sides… a lot of hard feelings in that relationship [as]… things went downhill.”
Yaba believes that ALR “held a grudge” about the end of the relationship and that “once [she] gained all this popularity on YouTube,” ALR plotted revenge: “You were like, ‘Hmm, how can I use this to my advantage to hurt him?’”
Another fantastic example of Yaba (1) speculating on a topic, (2) developing a hypothesis RE: the topic, (3) proceeding as the hypothesis is fact. Barely a minute later in the video, Yaba repeats the above speculation as if it is the truth:
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Again, ALR was “still upset… still mad” at Casey for “whatever happened between” the two of them.
Rather than tell “the real story, [ALR] made up this rape story,” which she determined to share “when [her] channel took off.”
Why?
Revenge, of course. Also, ALR “wanted to be the victim, which is fucked up, dude….
poor, pitiful Amber.”
Still, when people “didn’t believe that shit, that video got taken down real fucking quick.”
5:20-5:39
ALR “probably” has her reasons for lying about having been raped, which in the space of 2 minutes is now established fact.
To be fair, “There’s people every day that lie about getting raped, for lots of different reasons.”
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Still, ALR refused to “come clean” about her lie, hoping instead “all that shit would go away.”
Worse, she’d “rather continue to tell lie after lie after lie” and “call everybody who doesn’t believe [her] a hater and a bully,” which is “fucking bullshit, dude.”
8:29-9:02
While Yaba is deeply invested about ALR’s rape allegation, Yaba is
not interested in whether ALR has “lied about going on a diet…. Who fucking cares?”
She reminds the audience she herself “just made a video talking about how [she’s] been trying to lose weight,” and that she’s been “talking about losing weight since [she] was fucking, like, 10-years-old.”
I’m not sure what video Yaba is referring to here and assume it’s since been privated/deleted.
Yaba did
not, however, lie, as her “intentions were to lose weight, but it just never fucking happened.”
NB: Chantal later becomes infamous for debating the semantics of lying.
9:05-10:10
Yaba demands ALR “take responsibility for the shit that [she’s] done,” if she intends 2017 to be “a fresh, clean start.”
Calling people haters and bullies will not help her, as Yaba understands “what a bully is” and provides the first of 2 illustrations:
A bully might be, say, someone constantly calling ALR “like, fat, fat, fat, you’re fat, fat, fat, whatever.”
Yaba then qualifies this, “I guess you would call that a bully, okay?”
Per Yaba's comments section for this video:
Someone asking whether ALR intends to “fucking address that [she’s] a lying piece of shit, that’s not a fucking bully.”
Because ALR has placed herself “in the public eye,” she therefore has “a responsibility to tell people shit.”
Again, if ALR makes a claim, and someone reacts to that claim, ALR is obligated to respond.
As before, I’m struggling with Yaba’s logic here.
Perhaps 2016 YouTube was just a very different place, but I’m not sure why an uploader is beholden to a viewer.
10:10-11:03
Another bone Yaba would like to pick with ALR concerns ALR’s arrogance.
Due to the success of her YouTube channel, ALR believes herself to be “above other people,” when in fact one’s subscriber count “doesn’t mean anything.”
ALR should understand people watch her for “the same reason they watch Amy Slaton, a fucking train wreck.”
Per Yaba, ALR’s clickbait got her exactly what she wanted, which was apparently “people that want to see a fucking train wreck.”
Please understand, though, that Yaba — again — is no bully, nor is she “trying to be fucking mean — she’s fucking fat, too!”
She is simply a dispenser of hard, frequently unpleasant truth: “You know what they’re waiting on. They’re waiting on you to fucking fall over and have a heart attack fucking live on camera —
that’s what they’re waiting on.”
This does raise interesting questions about Yaba’s claims of having been initially an ALR fan.
I would wager Yaba watched ALR for the “train wreck” factor from the beginning, same as she did with Amy Slaton and later Chantal.
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There are, of course, “other, bigger people on YouTube… that don’t get hate like that.”
Consider Gloria Shecklefield (?), a “bigger girl,” who doesn’t use clickbait titles and therefore doesn’t get hate.
I was unable to find who Yaba is referring to.
11:56-12:01
Yaba pauses to “let [her] fucking cat out.”
I’ve been wondering when Yaba and Jessie became estranged. Thus far, it’s unclear.
In the vlog with Lisa, Lisa speaks of the two as being together.
In other vlogs, however, Yaba presents herself as a single woman, watching YouTube in bed or having a holiday meal with her kids and her “kids’ dad.”
Just to add to the speculation, a tweet in which Yaba claims she was not allowed to have a cat while with (I assume) Jessie:

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14:12-14:33
Yaba concedes that she doesn’t understand why she is so “fucking” invested in ALR. She admits to initially “being a fan and watching daily,” as her positive feelings evaporated.
I’ve seen comments like this in the early days of the ALR thread, with posters describing Yaba as the “nicer” alternative to Amy Slaton. In turn, Chantal will be initially viewed as the “nicer” alternative to ALR.
I’m still not convinced Yaba watched ALR for anything other than a train wreck. Personally, I believe the “betrayed fan” is a narrative trope to justify reaction videos and trolling.
For comparison, FFG similarly justified her “coming for” Gaining Ground in late 2020, early 2021.
2016 Yaba, however, seems conspicuously silent:
It's also interesting, to me, if I accept Yaba's timeline, she's been watching ALR for months, then happened to stumble onto (the more successful YouTuber) Amy Slaton days before starting her channel, while also watching Ron cover the same figures?
14:36-14:55
During a live chat, someone apparently asked whether ALR knew StayNegative (i.e., Ron). ALR apparently claimed to not know him, though Yaba asserts ALR not only knows who StayNegative is but that ALR “reached out to him recently over the video he made about [her].”
Another ALR lie, then.
Throughout these early vlogs, Yaba routinely mentions Ron (see also the tweets in Context tab).
While Yaba claims to have come independently to ALR, Amy Slaton, Mukbang King, etc., Ron’s content and personality clearly shape the 2016 Yaba.
Ron later describes Yaba as having lifted his “style” — fair enough in an apprentice, while developing his/her “voice.
Whether Yaba’s “flirty” behavior towards Ron is simply that of a fan girl or more deliberate “clout-chasing,” I don’t know.
One wonders how Jessie felt about these messages, assuming the two were still together and further assuming he was aware of them.
It is however interesting that Yaba repeatedly shouts out Ron, defends Ron from criticism, makes herself available for Ron — that is, explicitly presents herself as the supplicant — yet when she becomes an established presence presents herself as Ron’s equal in the Drama Community (to be discussed in a future post).
15:30-16:11
Yaba implores ALR, “Remember where you come from,” as ALR has “just quit [her] real fucking job.”
Yaba admits she herself does not “have a real job.”
Rather, she works from home (“do my own thing”) and that she makes “a lot of money doing it, so [she’s] good.”
She stumbles a bit during this statement, nearly saying she’s never had a real (fucking) job.
If Yaba could “just do videos and shit,” however, she would do so, as would anybody else — those who deny they would leave the labor force “to do fucking YouTube if they could… [are] lying.”
One interpretation then is that Yaba is encouraging ALR to remember she is successful
now on fucking YouTube, though this has not always been the case (nor was it fairly recently).
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An alternative interpretation — certainly a darker one — is Yaba referencing ALR’s childhood, which she then discusses.
ALR’s traumatic upbringing is apparently what “keeps [Yaba] not going, fucking, making a whole lot of videos about [ALR].”
She concedes that ALR’s background
was abusive — not apparently because ALR says so — but because of ALR’s behavior “emotionally and… mentally,” which “shows that there was abuse back then.”
One wonders how grateful ALR was for Yaba not spamming ALR videos simply
because ALR had a horrific childhood, a narrative which Yaba elects to believe.
Still, childhood
cannot be an excuse for ALR failing to take responsibility for her actions, as Yaba too “came from a rough background.”
Yaba does not qualify how her background compares with ALR’s.
Yaba, however, took those “negative situations” and “tried to make… a positive impact on other people,” and ALR “should do the same.”
17:38-18:43
Yaba critiques ALR for excessive spending on Christmas presents for then-girlfriend Destiny, as she had their “fucking living room stocked up with this… material shit.”
While you are permitted to “do what you want with your money,” ALR is clearly “just bragging” and flaunting, which one ought not to do “when you don’t have it like that.”
Yaba cites a “fucking website” (presumably, Social Blade, known for its accurate estimates) where one may look up what a YouTuber is earning monthly, which returned a figure of “$3,000 a month,” which “ain’t shit.”
As with Amy Slaton, Yaba assumes ALR is not paying taxes on her YouTube income, instead “spending thousands of dollars at Wal-Mart.”
(Yaba may speak from personal experience. By 2016, she has 2 businesses — Kentuckiana Earth, Inc., and Vinyl Designz, LLC — which she is not reporting to Indiana. Perhaps related, the following May, Indiana issues a $4,000 tax judgement against Yaba.)
Worse, ALR is “not saving for a house,” electing instead to live “in a fucking apartment.”
While Yaba criticizes the renter in this video, after leaving her home in late 2020/early 2021, she moves into an apartment and has been a consistent renter of properties ever since.
She subsequently acknowledges to having no entitlement to the property she shared with Jessie:

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Assuming she was contributing to the mortgage, she was essentially renting even then.
By “trying to put in everybody’s face that [she] got all this money,” ALR is again “drawing fucking hate to [her] channel.” Yaba concludes, “You want that hate.”
19:49-20:22
Yaba complains that ALR did not appreciate the “fucking Amberlynn… funny parody” video, which Yaba didn’t intend “to be fucking hurtful… just… a fucking parody.”
She assumed ALR would “get that.”
After all, were someone to make “a parody like that about [Yaba], that was fucking hilarious,” Yaba would have replied, “All right, yeah, you’re funny, whatever.”
ALR instead “blocked [Yaba] on Twitter” and called her “a bully.”
Yaba asserts it is
ALR who is the bully, that she’s “bullying the whole YouTube community with her “fucking lies, okay?”
I’m unclear how this definition of bullying relates to Yaba’s earlier definition, wherein bullying resembles something like targeted harassment based on some feature (e.g., weight).
This does, however, feel like the
real source of Yaba’s ire towards ALR: ALR has refused to give Yaba attention to which Yaba feels entitled.
ALR will not engage with Yaba in YouTube comments. ALR will not recognize Yaba’s videos. ALR will not engage with Yaba on Twitter.
The 2016 Drama Community Yaba contrasts remarkably with the 2021 Haydur Nation Yaba, who criticizes FFG for engaging with Chantal in way which Yaba engaged (or tried to engage) with various targets.
20:30-20:55
People only hang out with ALR “for the YouTube shit,” so Yaba does not “want to fucking hear that” certain people in ALR’s life are her “best friends and all that shit.”
Once ALR’s channel “comes down, like it’s coming down now, they’re going to be long gone, girl.”
20:58-21:06
To wrap up, Yaba informs ALR she is more than welcome to take her “29,000…. subs…. [and] shove them right up [her] fucking ass, okay?”
For those keeping track, in roughly 20 minutes, ALR has gained 6,000 subscribers, which does not bother Yaba one little bit.