Roketsune / Darosne / Christian Crawford / Field Marshal Crappenburg - Pedophile Activist Furry, Kiwi Farms Member, Verbose Cunt, Furry Drama Investigator

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I don't think he's coming back, guys. This thread went the exact opposite of how he hoped it would go, and even if he does come back it's probably just going to be a massive textwall of him trying to rationalize his pedophilia.

Then again, cows aren't very smart, so you never know.
Oh I'm sure he'll be back. Considering his ego he'll come sauntering back with a textwall explaining how 'something came up' and that reading all our comments 'gave him a huge laugh'. This is one of those scenarios where he'll do the kind of mental gymnastics so that no matter how fucked he looks or incompetent he comes off it's all part of some ruse he supposedly planned out. Remember he sees himself as a 'brilliant tactician' so he'll vomit up something that'll turn shit to his favor no matter what.
 
Oh I'm sure he'll be back. Considering his ego he'll come sauntering back with a textwall explaining how 'something came up' and that reading all our comments 'gave him a huge laugh'. This is one of those scenarios where he'll do the kind of mental gymnastics so that no matter how fucked he looks or incompetent he comes off it's all part of some ruse he supposedly planned out. Remember he sees himself as a 'brilliant tactician' so he'll vomit up something that'll turn shit to his favor no matter what.

If his actions over this thread were a military tactic, it would be suicide bombing
 
Well this is upsetting.

Powerlevel but I think you guys ought to hear it. I kinda fucked up

@Field Marshal Crappenberg PMed me a few months ago due to my posts in the addiction thread and we talked at length about issues related to addiction. He actually gave me some really good advice that I took to some extent and encouraged me to go get help. I never looked at his post history, and I NEVER would have guessed he was so deviant. He didn't mention anything that was remotely a red flag. He just seemed like a normal dude with a kind of hard life and good advice. No furry shit or anything. So this is a bit of a shock. I don't know what to make of it.

I can only blame myself for tl;dring about personal issues with strangers on kiwi farms but its not really a secret I'm an alcoholic and it was nice talking to somebody because I don't currently go to a group or anything.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯
 
Well this is upsetting.

Powerlevel but I think you guys ought to hear it. I kinda fucked up

@Field Marshal Crappenberg PMed me a few months ago due to my posts in the addiction thread and we talked at length about issues related to addiction. He actually gave me some really good advice that I took to some extent and encouraged me to go get help. I never looked at his post history, and I NEVER would have guessed he was so deviant. He didn't mention anything that was remotely a red flag. He just seemed like a normal dude with a kind of hard life and good advice. No furry shit or anything. So this is a bit of a shock. I don't know what to make of it.

I can only blame myself for tl;dring about personal issues with strangers on kiwi farms but its not really a secret I'm an alcoholic and it was nice talking to somebody because I don't currently go to a group or anything.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Even the most fucked up people can have lucid or somewhat good advice. If he'd played this thread off better he might very well have continued to be a pretty cool guy.
 
Well this is upsetting.

Powerlevel but I think you guys ought to hear it. I kinda fucked up

@Field Marshal Crappenberg PMed me a few months ago due to my posts in the addiction thread and we talked at length about issues related to addiction. He actually gave me some really good advice that I took to some extent and encouraged me to go get help. I never looked at his post history, and I NEVER would have guessed he was so deviant. He didn't mention anything that was remotely a red flag. He just seemed like a normal dude with a kind of hard life and good advice. No furry shit or anything. So this is a bit of a shock. I don't know what to make of it.

I can only blame myself for tl;dring about personal issues with strangers on kiwi farms but its not really a secret I'm an alcoholic and it was nice talking to somebody because I don't currently go to a group or anything.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Babe, he seems to have maintained sobriety. That's difficult and that deserves respect as an achievement. Not everyone you meet in groups is an OMG AWESOME DUDE (main reason we are discouraged from forming relationships with people in group).

We go to get and stay sober/clean/whatevs, not to meet living saints.

You needed help and if the help he gave you was good advice, well, the source of it doesn't matter. If is helped, it helped, and you can acknowledge that and be grateful for it. And thank him.

Hope you're doing okay on your journey, and solidarity with that.
 
Yeah, I'm still going to take his advice on its own merits, that's fine. And it doesn't seem like he would out stuff I said (not that it would matter that much really)
But wow, the difference between his PMs and the posts he made here under his fursona is wild. Never would have guessed they were the same.
 
I have returned! And I see the activity level here exploded upon my arrival here. It almost tripled in size since I left Saturday, and sextupled since my arrival. And I see it was featured, too! I consider that a success. I'm glad Yawning's thread took off finally. I'm sure we can get this to 100k views by spring!

I wish to convey my gratitude to those who gave Informative ratings. That was mainly what I was trying to achieve by venturing here. And despite the protestations and vituperations from many people, having the lolcow come here and respectfully and candidly explain is a preferred outcome that rarely happens. I'm also grateful for the other positive ratings (though I suspect all were sarcastically intended), and also the Autistic and Deviant ratings. I aspire to have the highest ratio and absolute numbers of Autistic and Deviant in the history of KF, especially Deviant. If anyone here deserves them, it's me.

Speaking of ratings, I feel one component of the trophy system is flawed:

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Oh, I visited my therapist today, and spent the entire session regaling him with this particular saga and explaining to him what exactly Kiwi Farms is and is not, and why I am drawn to such a place. He has never heard of this place or such concepts as "lolcows" before, and I found it somewhat challenging to accurately and properly describe this community and my personality regarding being a member to a therapist who specializes in LGBT matters. I was afraid he would misinterpret or not pick up on some of my explanations and would be confused or affronted, or think I was generally a sadistic prick. However, I seemed to do a pretty good job at expounding, and he did a similarly good job on receiving and listening. It was a very productive session overall, and he understands my darker or more aggressive side better while also understanding this place and its relatively benign true nature.

I will be going through the thread now and crafting responses to things which merit it. After I make responses, I'll probably be back here late tomorrow or on Wednesday. If I don't make it to your post tonight and it merits my response, I haven't forgotten it and will pick up where I left off.
 
Oh I'm sure he'll be back. Considering his ego he'll come sauntering back with a textwall explaining how 'something came up' and that reading all our comments 'gave him a huge laugh'. This is one of those scenarios where he'll do the kind of mental gymnastics so that no matter how fucked he looks or incompetent he comes off it's all part of some ruse he supposedly planned out. Remember he sees himself as a 'brilliant tactician' so he'll vomit up something that'll turn shit to his favor no matter what.

You have quite the power of foresight it would seem.
 
Why does this guy remind me of Autphag, if Aut used all his caffeinated energy to turn from racism to another justly unpopular position, wanting to fuck minors, and let a neon rainbow throw up on him?

I read a few pages of that thread. Autphag is legitimately insane, meaning he seems to be the sort who belongs in an asylum against his will. A fair number of others are in that same category. I think if our society wasn't as obsessed with the concept of personal freedom and threw these deranged lolcows into mental hospitals and other forms of treatment, the content we'd have might fall by 50%.

This seems to be a recurring motif with you-why are you so hell bent on broadcasting yourself like this? Surely going to buy groceries is just a 'pants-and-shirt' event.

Because wearing normal clothes is incongruent with my personality. I prefer to wear colorful, feminine, and furry articles. Believe it or not, I almost never receive negative or derisive responses to my manner of dress. People who approach me are benignly curious or outright appreciative and enthusiastic. I've had multiple people tell me that seeing me has brightened their day, and many have wanted a picture of me. So, my fashion preferences are having a positive effect on the populace overall, and it's harming neither me nor anyone else. There's no reason NOT to dress as a raccoon femboy.

Dumb. Just call yourself a crossdresser or whatever.

You're wrong, because I'm not merely a crossdresser. There are indeed femboys who perceive themselves and identify fully as male. I am not one of them. My perception of my psychological gender matches the definition of genderqueer/non-binary. I don't see myself as fully male or female, but as a combination of both. I have very feminine preferences and wish I was far more feminine in certain aspects (mainly facial and voice), but I also have masculine preferences and traits. After some reflection, I decided I was genderqueer, and that has not changed in the 3.5 years following that decision.



@[Insert Meme Here] made a very long post which mainly focused on my orientation, the psychological industry's attitudes towards it, our risk of offending, my beliefs on a few matters, etc. It covered most of the concerns and salient points people might have. Everyone else with such concerns or questions likely will have them answered there and should read that first.

Do you believe that this is a symptom of your autism? It has been shown that autistic individuals lack 'appropriate' sex drives in varying ways (like being asexual in some cases or by being highly deviant). Having interest in 2D but not real people strikes me as a malformed sex drive.

If I had to give a hypothesis, I would say it is a product of or related to autism, yes. I wouldn't characterize a preference for drawn aesthetics and fictional characters over RL is aberrant or malformed, only different. Of course, it does reduce my likelihood of finding a mate, and the hebephilic bent to my preferences reduces the chance further (though I'm also non-exclusive), so I would say this is disadvantageous if one wants to find a soulmate.

That's like being upset that someone who admits to being a rapist waltzing into a women's shelter.

Not only is the setting very unlike the one I was complaining about, but "rapist" is a label based on one's actions. "Hebe/pedophile" is a label based on desires/orientation.

Even if you, personally, will never molest any child, the fact remains that many of them can and will, and that will ruin at least one life. Their suspicion has nothing to do with YOU, personally.

I suspect you don't understand pertinent details about this. The second psychologist made a rather panicked outburst upon me telling her I'm hebephilic, "There are children here!". Very few of us are unhinged enough to flirt with children in fucking waiting rooms. Unfortunately, that is the stereotype of us that has taken hold even within her profession, that even being near children for a few seconds is dangerous.

The first one was genuinely very fearful of negative repercussions if she took me on as a client and I got into legal trouble. It wasn't rooted so much in acrimony and disdain, as she really seemed to want to help, but she was fearful the system would come down on her if I was to violate any laws. Honestly, if I had told her I had a lengthy history of homicidal ideations and violence, I probably wouldn't have gotten that sort of reaction at all.

People in our situation have this level of suspicion and mistrust that is very disproportionate to demographics with non-sexual but abhorrent impulses. My point is, if pedo/hebephiles deserve to be treated with such uneasiness, people with histories of assaults and violent impulses should also be similarly stigmatized. (Of course, I don't think either deserve that much default distrust.)

Also, there's something else people tend to forget. There are plenty of us who are "non-exclusive", meaning they harbor the capability of attraction to adults. I am within that category. A lot of us are already happily mated to adults. Not all that many people are totally or nearly totally exclusive.

Agreed. However, you also mention that things like aversion therapy won't work: what do you WANT people to do about people like you? Therapy cannot work if the individual in question doesn't want to get better

There are one or two articles I could find and point you to which contain commentary from professionals in the sexual field of psychology. They have asserted that there is no cure for pedo/hebephilia, that sexuality in general is unmalleable and immune to such things as you stated. There literally is nothing they could do for someone who has no compulsions or severe emotional dysfunctions stemming from it. What they can treat is things such as self-loathing and self-esteem stemming from being that, and compulsions through a methodology similar to that used to treat addictions.

What I want from the psych industry is for them to receive and treat people in my and every other demographic without bigotry or unwarranted hysteria. I want them to dispense therapy to those with the issues I just mentioned, while accepting those of us who are stable and don't need such care. This is what my current therapist does. He understands I am non-offending and pro-reform, that I express/indulge my orientation through legal means such as artwork and creating pederastic stories. He doesn't treat me with distrust or wariness just because I'm a hebephile, and he will discuss tertiary matters with me which relate to it.

It is expected that people who have self-control not to commit the crime; if you're not going to commit the crime, why would you discuss the desire to commit a crime by announcing it to the world?

It is a critical component of my Social Front grand strategy. Openly broadcasting this will repulse those who would be very incompatible, and attract those who would be more worthy candidates. It helps separate the wheat from the chaff.

Also, let's be rational for a bit here. Who do you think is theoretically a greater risk of committing sexual offenses? Someone who does stuff like that is not likely to broadcast their predilections to the world. They usually wish to remain hidden and covert. By announcing this to the world, I've drawn a lot more attention to myself. People will scrutinize me much more. I don't mind this since I am not doing anything I need to hide. People should be more wary of those who are keeping hidden their power level, so to speak.

You were discussing what services to use, and seeing as you admit to stating your hebephilia to your therapist, I can only assume that it is pertinent to your life.

It is pertinent on a secondary or tertiary level in a couple of ways. It reinforces my estrangement from and disdain for humanity as a whole, which is at times relevant to some problem or dysfunction. I also used this as a vetting tool, as those who would recoil just for my attractions wouldn't be worthy of being my therapist. Also, if I had to conceal this, it would periodically disrupt my attempts to communicate during sessions and just would cause frustration and agitation. So, no, it's not an ailment or causing an ailment I'm seeking help for, but it's still rather imperative to have raised the matter and occasionally discuss it.

There is also less issue between a 15 and 16yo having sex (which is rarely, if ever, prosecuted, and if it is there are usually some other circumstances) and a 30yo having sex with a 14yo. They are not the same thing, do not compare them as equal events.

The difference between the two scenarios is, in the latter there is a higher risk of exploitation and manipulation. Unfortunately, people have decided that this higher risk equals abuse and predation in 100% of cases, and ignore the fact our inferior education system sets our children up for exploitation and other sexual mishaps. There's a legitimate and real issue regarding predatory behavior, but society's views on its causes and nature are completely warped.

Child prostitution was recently decriminalized in California so that the children could be sent to treatment as victims rather than arrested for prostitution.

Okay, I need to clarify this for everyone. What he is alluding to is California deciding to decriminalize the children who are engaged in prostitution. Childhood prostitution is still very much illegal there, only now just the adults are being charged and are criminals.

1. Religious schools are private and not regulated by the same bodies as public schools. People have the right to decide where and how their children are educated, even when they are wrong. Also, many colleges are religious. They banned too?

I don't feel parents should have nearly as much freedom as they do. I tend to be rather authoritarian on some matters relating to parental choice. Children should not be subjected to religious education. If adults want to enroll in religious colleges I don't care, but I see religious schooling as a form of child abuse (as well as host of other things, like allowing obesity or shaming and trying to fix LGBT children). I'm an arrogant and fascistic secular atheist on this. This I make no apologies for.

+1 point for honesty. However, I will say that you are largely looking at things from a very limited perspective, and assuming that most hebephiles would be like you, assuming you are telling the truth and would never harm someone. This is demonstrably not the case.

I never said most are in my camp. I actually find a lot of pederasts and -philes to be revolting people overall. I don't have real numbers to offer on the matter of offending versus non-offending MAPs. All I can rightfully say is a decent fraction of us for moral, practical, legal, and other reasons choose not to go looking for RL child porn or children. However, so many refuse to accept this subset exists.

You have already admitted that you are willing to take your furry fetish to public spaces

Are you referring to the furry femboy fashion? That's not sexualized at all, beyond maybe the somewhat suggestive image of my fursona on my shirt. I don't shove my fetishes or sexuality in anyone's faces, and I don't believe subjecting random innocent people to that is right anyway.
 
If he uses this website to shit on people he deems inferior to him, it really begs the question... which threads does he follow exactly, because I'm struggling to find anyone inferior to a spastic pedophile furry.

Anybody that's not "self-aware." :story:

Oh, I visited my therapist today, and spent the entire session regaling him with this particular saga and explaining to him what exactly Kiwi Farms is and is not, and why I am drawn to such a place. He has never heard of this place or such concepts as "lolcows" before, and I found it somewhat challenging to accurately and properly describe this community and my personality regarding being a member to a therapist who specializes in LGBT matters. I was afraid he would misinterpret or not pick up on some of my explanations and would be confused or affronted, or think I was generally a sadistic prick. However, I seemed to do a pretty good job at expounding, and he did a similarly good job on receiving and listening. It was a very productive session overall, and he understands my darker or more aggressive side better while also understanding this place and its relatively benign true nature.

This is the most blatant powerlevel I have seen in my short time here so far, holy shit.
 
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