Tw// masturbation and general sex talk
I just got back from my in person consultation with Dr Assi at Vanderbilt. I am completely exhausted. Physically and mentally.
The drive wasn't bad, my boyfriend was with me. It was my first time being in Tennessee, got to go to the aquarium, it was fun don't get me wrong, blah blah.
I heard some good and bad things at my consultation. Since I'd only have penis creation, I'd only have to spend two weeks in Tennessee, that's good news for my wallet and my home sickness.
But God, just the whole "you might lose sensation in your natal parts" has my head spinning.
I know it's rare, so rare, I don't think I've even seen a guy on here talk about losing all his natal sensation.
But the fear is insanely real. I have a lot of sexual problems, I only just learned to orgasm when I started T, but even then I've never came during sex, I just can't get out of my head.
To think I could lose the ability to come when ive only just now started is really really scary.
I'm starting therapy again this week, I think I might just put this all in the back burner, I'm still going to go to my imaging appointment, so they can see which thigh is better for being a donor, but I think putting the breaks on this whole thing until I go through some intense therapy and look at my sexual problems would be best.
I think all my sexual problems stem from being trans, I can only cum from a vibrator, I've never been able to touch my natal parts and orgasm.
I don't know, this is alot, this is hard.