I like how bitch I might be thinks there's an answer to the mental health question that has baffled every psychiatrist and psychologist I've seen in my life. It's called a paraphilia bitch I might be. No one knows why they exist. It's like pedophiles. You think they want to be into kids? Probably not. Some people are better at controlling theirs than others. Since I'm prone to obesity, have had feet problems that made me sedentary for long periods of my childhood, and an addiction to junk food mine just kinda blew up on me. You know how self aware people sometimes kill them selves or are addicted to bad things? shit happens