How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Dizzyuntildeath]

It's good. Even when it isn't.
I work down in the trenches of mental health and addiction and it's gonna get worse before it gets better. My colleagues and I are having 'How do we even fix this?" meetings more and more often. Something is gnawing on the soul of humanity. Some of them and the higher ups have suggested terrible upheaval is imminent and that instead of stemming to bleeding we investigate cutting off the rotting limbs. I struggle with concept, though I see the merit in it, but I have loved ones down in those rotted limbs.
I look to the sun and work for tomorrow while enjoying the light while it is here today. Breath in the body and the sun in the sky means we can still work to change the future.

Christ I'm gay sometimes.

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

I woke up from a dream where I was in bed with my favorite college-aged grill from work and she was looking at me lovingly.

 

[666NASTYFUCKINGFREAK666]

God damnit, I finally have an interview and for cybersecurity no less. Don't know when it'll be, likely this week.

The maws of hell beckon to me - Friday evening. Preliminary investigation shows that only 2 people applied to the job on linkedin (one of them wasn't me, i was cold-called) and they need a person by the first week of June, so I have that going for me. This is gonna be such a massive pain in the fucking ass, getting skullfucked by a panel of gimps with fucked ass cybersecurity questions for an hour straight.

Guess the plan is going down the list of the job requirements but the thing I hate is that I won't know everything and I'll eventually be showing my ass in this interview. I'll probably get the job anyway though lol xd

 

[Cun75p4rkl35]

Seems like the most appropriate thread to rant about some libcuck shit pissing me off. (the tism unfortunately comes with a strong sense of right and wrong)

The fact that libcucks will defend crooks as just "uwu wittle babies so precious" pisses me off to no end. What I am referring to specifically is a tumblr post about a guy sleeping on his apartment floor and a crook comes in and reverse robs him (gave him shit they stole) and all the obviously liberal (because they're the only ones who do the fake commie shit) going "yes W criminal, take from the rich give to the poor, where did you get this from, "someone who needed it less than you") . All of these people OBVIOUSLY either live with their wealthy parents or live in a suburb. CROOKS STEAL FROM ANYONE. But these people with room temp IQs can't bear to believe that the criminals in question stole a mattress from a guy who worked hard to earn it, who maybe just saved enough to replace it, or was sleeping on a shitty 15 year old mattress before and finally managed to scrounge enough ONLY TO HAVE IT STOLEN because it would shatter their safety bubble world view where "bad things only happen to bad people", their feeble minds incapable of true empathy and it takes far more critical thinking than the average liberal is capable of. If you try to take my shit I'm sending you to the fucking morgue. It's the same shit they love to accuse rightoids of, just a different flavor, giving "If you're poor, how can you afford a fridge? If you're homeless, why do you have a phone?"

Sorry for being a sperg but goddamn the absolute lack of anything going on in the majority of humanity's heads makes me want to weep for the future. "You will own nothing and be happy" indeed.

 

[niggercattle]

At this point Chris has better chances of getting laid than him. I mean, after Barb even.

Just like men, different women are attracted to different things, so even conventionally unattractive people can find a mate, although with greater difficulty. However, no woman in the history of the world has ever been attracted to weakness and self-pity. It's over for Null; he'll die bitter, fat and childless.

This is gonna be such a massive pain in the fucking ass, getting skullfucked by a panel of gimps with fucked ass cybersecurity questions for an hour straight.

Look at it this way: if Jackie "The Street Shitting Ogre" Singh can become a cyber security expert, why couldn't you?

 

[Second Alter Ego]

 

[Black Hole Vacation]

I think I just flunked an important job interview. I fucking hate being autistic.

 

[Cun75p4rkl35]

I think I just flunked an important job interview. I fucking hate being autistic.

submit a form for government gibsmedat

 

[The Lawgiver]

it's gonna rain for the next whole week again, and then be humid and rainy. My spraypaint project Ideas are fucked for now. Missed a shot to get some thing ordered I worked on with some friends/acquaintances (edited cause i do consider em friends-ish but it's not super super know about each others personal info type friends yeah) last year before sending to some company to make it and lost the chance forever recently. long story I'm not gonna go into, but I lost sleep over it for some reason. Likely less due tot hat one frustration and more just due to it being an extra speck of shit on this whole last several years, trying very hard not to seem edgy here while sleep deprived for 2 days lmao.

Anyways, a few nights back i was reminded of this music again. It's not the most on topic thing but I think it fits the feeling the rest of this week is gonna have.

EDIT: fuck I think I sent this music in here a while back, didn't I? Eh, it still works if I did.

 

[Cemetery Support]

Called my sister. Literally the first sound I heard on the phone call was her smoke alarm chirping. I asked her how long its been going on and she said for over a year. She said she just got used to it.

It continued throughout the duration of the call. I figured out that there are two of them chirping in her apartment. Shes having a rough go of it. I am considering making the drive just to go replace her smoke alarm batteries.

Other than that, due to where I am in life right now, my jaw is constantly tense and my girlfriend tells me I grind my teeth in my sleep.

 

[Mike Patton Official]

Just sent my first e-mail asking for an internship.

Being autistic sucks because I don't know how the professor will interpret my e-mail. I'm always so scared of them finding the way I write rude. It's so difficult trying to write something that is both not rude/dry but also professional. May have used chatgpt for help, but only to give me some bullet points and to proof read it.
Anyways, I definitely need to send more e-mails, can't put all of my eggs in one basket that probably won't even read my e-mail. I'm just very scared of this type of thing, and I feel too stupid for all of these research groups. It's not imposter syndrome, I'm pretty sure I'm too dumb for real.

Wish me luck please, I seriously need a miracle. Being an autistic fucking retard sucks.

 

[BABANGUIDE64]

Literally the first sound I heard on the phone call was her smoke alarm chirping. I asked her how long its been going on and she said for over a year. She said she just got used to it.

It continued throughout the duration of the call. I figured out that there are two of them chirping in her apartment. Shes having a rough go of it. I am considering making the drive just to go replace her smoke alarm batteries.

For how long has the "smoke alarm chirping" meme been going? Is it something recent or have I myself been living under the rock with no smoke alarms whatsoever?

 

[Mike Patton Official]

For how long has the "smoke alarm chirping" meme been going? Is it something recent or have I myself been living under the rock with no smoke alarms whatsoever?

I have seen the chirp memes since about 2020. Makes sense since people were having a lot of Zoom meetings at the time.

 

[BABANGUIDE64]

I have seen the chirp memes since about 2020.

Same

 

[Myra]

Been busy gardening and yesterday I discovered that a duck had laid eggs in the mulch next to my patio. I am concerned for their well-being because of the number of predators in the area. I moved all my tools to the other side of the patio so as not to bother her. Just hoping they will get a chance to hatch.

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Edited to add: When I came home this afternoon all the eggs were gone - shells and all.

The duck returned. She had cleverly hid her eggs under the mulch. She is such a little darling and I say hello to her every day. I am still gardening and am really sore and my hands hurt so much from digging out old roots.
How are YOU?

 

[Lovely Kin]

It's a sad to see how some parts of my town are rotting away I knew things have been declining since deindustrialization, but it's really sad.

 

[Sneed on Cloud 9]

This evening, I sat in the garden and watched the fireflies. They're relaxing. Sometimes my dog tries to catch them. She has a great time as well.

How are you?

 

[The Feline Solution 2]

I am freshly back from a six months stint working in a rich arab country (making serious money for the first time in my life) and i already hate being back in my hometown. Made it back in time for Grandma's birthday and i'm also happy to be back with my girl but apart from that it sucks shit. The difference about how muslims behaved over there compared to the utter fucking shitskins here is the most jarring it feels like. Literally night and day. I also missed family and friends much more than i thought i would, not to mention the other way around. Girlfriend surprised me by having our whole place renovated and decorated, it's still deep in a shitty hood but at least it looks nice now.

I also have no idea what to do with all the money i made, having been poor for so long seriously lowered my standards and i pretty much have everything i need already. Also stayed clean while i was over, rotting in an arab torture jail for the next twenty years just because i wanted to get high didn't really feel that alluring to me. There were definitely drugs in the country, though. I wouldn't have had time to get high in the first place, motherfuckers worked me to the bone but for that kind of money i would've risked full blown burnout, i made more in six months than i would've made here in three years (with my low education and aptitude), it was that good. I left the place in very good standing and the door is still open, gonna see when or even if i go back. If i was 20 years younger with no obligations at home i would've stayed and made my fortune but as with so many things in my life it just happened too late. No sense in complaining about it, the experience was still good overall and, again, the money was worth it.

One last thing, it's really fucking weird to spend Christmas in what is practically a desert, looking at camels and shit. Not to mention that there pretty much was no Christmas because Sharia doesn't allow that

 

[Sayer of the N-Word]

Lately I've been hitting it off with someone, but she's not white, which is difficult for me.

I dropped the headlight dust cap while replacing a bulb in my car at the exact moment I thought "I'd better not drop this", and it vanished somewhere under the engine. This happened while it was raining, and after a few minutes of searching I was on the verge of getting into the car and driving into a lake. The local dealership would sell me a replacement for $45, but there was an OEM on ebay for $15. Go fuck yourselves dealerniggers!

 

[RCRA/CERCLA/GOONER]

Physically my body hurts, mentally I'm not sure. I plan on going to therapy for PTSD