Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville

[Carcinogenesis]

Because I love her and without her I feel incomplete.

Can't you find someone else? Your attempts to reconcile with her only pushes her farther away...

 

[Telefunken]

Like I would tell the group here . Nice try. Its in the USA in the western half. More than 2000 miles away from where I live.



Food grows in the desert actually its just significantly harder. But other cultures do it. Such as Egypt. In the beginning it would be food from the store. Eventually maybe there'd be enough food to grow on the land self sufficiently. Who knows. Maybe instead ill buy better land someday instead of crappy desert land. But i got desert land because i wanted to get as much land as possible to fit as many people on it. That was my vision.

Good luck growing food without a source of water.
Do you actually have any experience farming?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Have you ever considered just stopping this crusade to be with her, friend or otherwise? She gave you a restraining order, that should be enough to tell you that Melinda wants you to stay away from her. It will only hurt you more if you continue stalking her...

I've known for a long time that she wants me to stay away from her. That's why i've been stalking her so I can try to change her mind by knowing more about her. She gave me a protective order, but thats only for two years. I know right now that's how she feels but a lot can change in two years. And one of the private videos i have on my channel goes through two stories about two women who fell in love with their stalkers. So there's hope for me based on these and other stories.

 

[Cato]

If she doesn't want to be married to me, I'm ok with that. But if she doesn't want to be my friend I'm not ok with that.

Tough shit. Someone else's decision to be friends or not be friends with you is their own choice that should be respected and isn't subordinate to whether you are "okay" with their decision. You shouldn't want to be friends with anyone whom you know doesn't have mutual feelings on the subject, regardless.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

@tamarlover

Do you smoke weed?

Spoiler

I don't do any drugs other than masturbation.

MIT beat you to it bud.
https://ocw.mit.edu/courses/

my vision offers something unique that there's won't i believe. Eventually it will anyways. I have a very different scheme of education than most groups. but also you can have two organizations doing similar things.

 

[Carcinogenesis]

I've known for a long time that she wants me to stay away from her. That's why i've been stalking her so I can try to change her mind by knowing more about her. She gave me a protective order, but thats only for two years. I know right now that's how she feels but a lot can change in two years. And one of the private videos i have on my channel goes through two stories about two women who fell in love with their stalkers. So there's hope for me based on these and other stories.

Have you considered that it's just not worth the trouble?

 

[Cato]

I've known for a long time that she wants me to stay away from her. That's why i've been stalking her so I can try to change her mind by knowing more about her. She gave me a protective order, but thats only for two years. I know right now that's how she feels but a lot can change in two years. And one of the private videos i have on my channel goes through two stories about two women who fell in love with their stalkers. So there's hope for me based on these and other stories.

Do you have any self-awareness about the fact that this makes you sound like a total psycho?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Would it be evil of you to at least style the thing or tie it up so you don't look like you have an organic ghillie suit growing out of your head?

Chicks dig a guy who's hair doesn't resemble overgrown shrubbery, you know.

That would not be evil to tie the hair. that would be ok to do, yeah. Maybe. I'll consider it.

 

[Telefunken]

I've known for a long time that she wants me to stay away from her. That's why i've been stalking her so I can try to change her mind by knowing more about her. She gave me a protective order, but thats only for two years. I know right now that's how she feels but a lot can change in two years. And one of the private videos i have on my channel goes through two stories about two women who fell in love with their stalkers. So there's hope for me based on these and other stories.

So you have the cult mentality of Jim Jones with the stalker mentality of John Hinckley?

 

[LD 3187]

I've known for a long time that she wants me to stay away from her. That's why i've been stalking her so I can try to change her mind by knowing more about her. She gave me a protective order, but thats only for two years. I know right now that's how she feels but a lot can change in two years. And one of the private videos i have on my channel goes through two stories about two women who fell in love with their stalkers. So there's hope for me based on these and other stories.

Could you allow us to see those videos or link us to a mirror? Do you only masturbate thinking about tamar? Wouldn't that be against the 10 commandments?

 

[BOLDYSPICY!]

If this is true and Tamar had no other friends or family besides you to relate to on a deep emotional and familial level then she must have had a very good reason to break away from you. What happened?

I'm eager to hear the answer to this, too. My guess is that what drove her away was some creepy CWC-Megan behavior at best (inappropriate touching, no respect for boundaries, raging at random guys that want to "steal her away," etc.) & Nick Bate fuckery at worst (the @tamarlover equivalent of videotaping himself smearing shit all over his microdick & sending it to his lawyer to prove he didn't rape his little sister).

They also deflect criticism of themselves by portraying themselves as victims, with some sob story about the world not understanding their autism.

Edited for accuracy. Also, whoever made the tag "makes @Jaimas look taciturn" owes me some new sides.

 

[Curt Sibling]

I'll change her mind with money I'll get someday. That's the only hope I have. I don't consider her marriages seriously. If she stays with a man for 1 full year, then I'll start thinking ok maybe she's going to be with this guy for good. Otherwise, I only need to wait until she's single again.

Look, Manson - Do yourself a favour. Just move on and attract some other chick with your vast tracts of land.

 

[Cuck Norris]

my vision offers something unique that there's won't i believe. Eventually it will anyways. I have a very different scheme of education than most groups. but also you can have two organizations doing similar things.

Yeah what you want to do is called "brainwashing".

 

[KimCoppolaAficionado]

@tamarlover

You say you're a sperg, but I think your autism issues are more systemic. What you don't seem to realize is that your victim (and don't have any illusions about this, you ARE victimizing her with your behavior) isn't an NPC who you can automatically woo over by raising her affection stat high enough. She's a human being, with her own free will and ability to make decisions, and she has made many, MANY decisions that all indicate that she wants nothing to do with you.

Honest question: is there anything, literally ANYTHING, that can happen that will dissuade you from her? If she tells you she will never love you, ever, that she will never be your friend, that she actively hates you and never wants to see you again and then stabs you with a knife, will you get it? Because if that's not where you draw the line, one of you WILL end up dead, mark my words. You kill her in a fit of tardrage, she kills you in self-defense, you kill yourself in some fucked-up love offering, she kills herself because she realizes the only true escape from you will be death: one (or more!) of those. You don't want that. I hope.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

If this is true and Tamar had no other friends or family besides you to relate to on a deep emotional and familial level then she must have had a very good reason to break away from you. What happened?

Her original reason for breaking away from me was not a very good reason, but how I reacted to her breaking away from me quickly created a much stronger reason for breaking away from me, something you might consider a very good reason. It started when she was entering relationships with other men. I was jealous and got involved. i was also facbeook friends with some of her enemies which she didn't like me doing. one week she asks me if I could move in with her or if she could move in with me. Then after she gets angry about a religious belief I tell her about (i told her i believe that someone i know has a small chance to be saved even though he molested children in the past. She got angry that I believe he could be saved and wanted to end friendship over that. I got upset with her. Then I decided to get revenge on her by taking her website she had confided me with her password and started editing to make it look like she was admitting that she was a prostitute. She had told her ex right before breaking up with him that she had been a prostitute. So I posted the screenshots of her conversation on her website and wrote up a little post pretending I was her and admitting proudly that she was a prostitute and she was proud of it and not ashamed. I used her style of writing and I knew what she believed that being a prostitute in difficult situations was not wrong. and i honestly thought she was telling the truth. I was about to share her website on facebook when she stopped me just in time. Shortly after that I sent the screenshots to a guy she got engaged with. I felt she was trying to use him for money and I wanted to stop him from breaking the guys heart since i knew her history with men was horrible and likely to end in a disaster just like all the other disasters she was in. So i shared the screenshots with him and they had a nasty conversation with each other and her engagement ended as a result. She was pissed off big time at me. I also shared the screenshots with some other people. She decided to leave facebook because me. I sent her emails apologizing and begging her to give me another chance. She said she'd consider it but told me she was lying about being a prostitute and it was just a hoax to test to see who was loyal to her.

A few months later i told her if she ever needed a place to stay i had land she could use even if she didn't want to be my friend. She apppreciated the gesture and started talking with me again for a few months. We became friends again for about a month. Then she told me she had heard that I had had a conversation with the father of her daughter several months before, and that she needed to know what it was if i was to stay friends with her. I told her that I had sent him screenshots of her saying she was a prostitute too. At that point she got really angry and hurt at me because I had done that. So she said she needed time to assess this and whether she can be my friend again. She was wanting to give me a chance, but I kept bombarding her with lengthy messages and then I tried to be extremely honest and open to her about everything and some of my honesty really pissed her off and she said she didn't need anymore time to think. A month later i told her i need her to help me move on or else I might go crazy and do things I'll later regret. So she decided to try to give me another chance one last time. Then another guy came into the picture and she stopped decided to cut off communication with me from that time on. I had also sent her some emails shortly after that indicated i had programs that could track her approximate location. So she starting getting afraid of me but I didn't realize at the time how afraid she was. I began trying to befriend her with fake identities. I was following her online everywhere, and everyone she talked to she feared it might be me. She was getting extremely paranoid. And last year when she entered a relationship and posted on her facebook that she was in a relationship but didn't tell anyone who it was, i was able to find out pretty quickly who it was and i contacted him and tried to break them up. So you'd probably classify this as a very good reason.

What you're saying is you do believe everyone, even the mentally ill are accountable, but you're accountable with the curse of having a more socially inept and improper behavior because autism, yeah?

Explains being dumped and your obsession with religion. Everyhing else, though is just sad. A cult? Buying 50000 fucking acres of sun and sand? Stalking a married woman until you got a piece of paper?

You have to actually shave the beard for it to grow, by the way. It doesn't come out looking like Jesus Hugo Christ automatically.

Not all autistic people are stalkers. I chose to do what I did and it wasn't because of my autism. Perhaps my autism influenced my choices, but they did no cause my choices. An important distinction.

From what I have read, its not true that shaving helps the beard to grow. Apparently thats a myth according to the scientific experts. But maybe you are right.

 

[Windows10]

The lack of self awareness is fucking astounding.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Cult leaders always try to elicit sympathy while abusing others.
Jim Jones and Marshall Applewhite were some of the nicest people you could meet; on the surface.
They also deflect criticism of themselves by portraying themselves as victims, with some sob story about the world not understanding their altruism.

Well i have no arrest record, no history of mental illness (other than asperger syndrome), no history of violence, and no intentions or plans or desires to physically abuse anyone. I'm double minded on the issue. Half of me thinks I was justified in what I did the other half is disgusted with myself and thinks I am a horrible person for a majority of what I've done involving her.

 

[BOLDYSPICY!]

But I would rather her love me for a year and then for me to die.

Maybe you should get a jump on that last part.

I am not trying to force her to love me.

By stalking her & pressuring her into a relationship. . .yeah. You are.

I've known for a long time that she wants me to stay away from her. That's why i've been stalking her so I can try to change her mind by knowing more about her.

That only makes her hate you more. How is this difficult to grasp? I'm genuinely confused over how you fail to see this.
Also, if you actually loved her & respected her, you'd leave her the fuck alone. She gets to decide what's best for her, not you. She's not your property or your slave or a piece of meat, for fuck's sake.

And one of the private videos i have on my channel goes through two stories about two women who fell in love with their stalkers.

That's called Stockholm Syndrome, you insufferable twat.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Cunt-fucking Christ on a cracker, I think my skin just crawled right off my body. Where to begin?


But you have no problem putting Tamar on a ridiculous pedestal?


Ahahaha, oh wow. You have no right to complain about that, all things considered.


Oh, but you're completely normal, got it.

Do you have untreated schizophrenia or are you just really dumb?

EDIT: Oh, wait, just saw that it's autism. It's always autism. Definitely still getting a schizo vibe, though.

That's the thing "its always autism." Which makes me think its more of an excuse. So I don't really think its autism that explains what I've done. Well I'm realistic when it comes to Tamar. I know how much about her I hate but the other parts I love about her. The parts I love about her win over the parts I don't like about her.

 

[Tempest]

@tamarlover you mentioned working 10 months, what job did you do? why have you only worked 10 months? how do you support yourself?