My name is Jessica. I often go by the nicknames of Poppy, Penny, or the account name Lady Diabolique in most places online. I am a therapist and a former content creator on YouTube, currently on hiatus. I am also a transgender woman who struggles with chronic illness in the form of intractable migraines and chemical sensitivities. I live with my partner, struggling with chronic illness and being unable to work due to it. Needless to say, I am my family's only source of income for the time being. To be clear, we are doing okay. While some months are tighter than others, we live comfortably, and my partner is looking to pursue SSDI to supplement their income.
With all that said, my life over the last few years has been difficult. On the positive side, thanks to the help from GoFundMe, fighting insurance, and wonderful friends, I was able to get all of my transition surgeries. I have gone through vaginoplasty, breast augmentation, and facial feminization as well as two revisions to one of my surgeries. I am fortunate in that regard, despite the $7,700 I still owe for my facial feminization surgery. But during this time of recovery and surgery, there were other issues.
In mid-2023, an ex of mine began a campaign of hate in an attempt to defame me. They started posting Google documents (the first of which was purposefully released while I was in the hospital recovering from vaginoplasty) with out-of-context screenshots and incoherent rambling, falsely calling me abusive among many other things. For the most part, her nonsense didn't get much traction until early 2024 when I publicly came out about being assaulted by another partner after filing a police report, and nothing came of it.
This situation began a wave of harassment that led to these people working together to accuse me of everything and anything they could fabricate to force me offline. This abuse included:
- Telling people how to contact my job and file complaints, which resulted in my job giving me an ultimatum of either ceasing to be honest online about my assault or being terminated. I chose the latter because my integrity was more important than a 20-year friendship and keeping my job.
- Filing false complaints against my license as a therapist, which included attacks against my mental health and baseless claims.
- Weaponizing my estranged adult child, who emotionally abused my partner via gaslighting.
- Continuing to post hundreds of pages of obsessive and defamatory accusations, sharing them with anyone who would listen.
- Encouraging people to harass me in DMs or via alternate accounts, which include awful accusations, death threats, and people telling me that I am allegedly a "terrible person" and that I should commit suicide.
- Working with an internet hate website known for harassing and stalking transgender people, known as Kiwi Farms. This coordination includes supporting this website: doxing my address and work, speculating on my life, and applauding them as they deadname and misgender me, my partners, and my friends.
- Spending time in a content creator's Discord server in a channel named after myself, where I was regularly accused of every crime under the sun, the harassers' plans were made to coordinate harassment, and these people speculated on my life to such a degree that it looked like they were writing fanfic.
- Became so stressful to deal with that my partner and I needed to take a hiatus from our hobby of content creation on YouTube for the sake of our mental health.
- Led to the creation of a video by a Neo-Nazi who read directly from the above Kiwi Farms thread with scary music and viewed by over 1 million people. This godawful video is to say nothing of the dozens of drama videos made by so-called leftists spreading this slander, with one creator alone making at least 13 videos trying to milk as many views from my harassment as possible. This, by the way, is the same creator above who allowed a Discord channel to speculate on my life and work with members of Kiwi Farms, as noted above.
My intention with this new GoFundMe is twofold:
- I need help paying off my medical bills. Blue Cross Blue Shield ultimately failed me in covering this surgery, as they said they would. After numerous denials, they informed me they would approve it if I found a surgeon in Michigan. I did so and even ensured that the billing CPT codes were correct. However, after the surgery, they refused to pay. This decision left me with a bill of $30,000. However, after numerous pushes, I did get them to cover some of the cost and Henry Ford Hospital also waived some of the price due to my protest, bringing it down to $7,700. I hope to get help paying off that cost.
- I am seeking financial help to cover my legal costs. At the same time, I cannot go into specifics. I am attempting to seek legal restitution for the harm this defamatory harassment has done to me, my family, my career, and my mental health, as well as defend myself from any potential legal actions. Lawyers are expensive, with the average retainer being $5,000 to $15,000. While every legal professional I have spoken to has been clear that I am in the right and have suffered harm in this situation, I still need to pay them.
I understand that I am asking for a lot. I am also aware that there are people on here who are struggling far more than I am. All things considered, I am lucky in many ways. But I did not deserve this treatment from a jaded ex who wouldn't move on with their life. I did not deserve to be assaulted by someone I trusted and subsequently harassed online, being called every horrible thing possible.
Anything you can spare or simply sharing this would mean the world. I cannot express how painful this situation has been, watching people leave my life because they chose to believe fabricated slander or see my name dragged through the mud; all while trying to take care of my family and recover from several important and necessary surgeries.
Thank you so much,
Jessica
More important to archive when Poppy announces a commission than the horror itself.
at the "Neo Nazi" who made a Youtube video, reference to Turkey Tom.
