I am cats. Ask me Nothing

[*Grunts Softly*]

rip cats

 

[Wendy Wheelchair]

No details like that, sorry. I doubt his kid would have seen anything though. One of the big things that had him in such a dark place was a split with a woman I never knew who basically left with his kid and his (then) cat. He never got over that as far as I know and he never mentioned being in regular contact with them.

I honestly think it's really comforting knowing that a piece of him still lives on.

 

[SSj_Ness (Yiffed)]

Dunno if this has been known for a while or what, but I'm a friend of @Cats and just today found out he passed away. We've known each other online since 2005ish and been buds the whole time, and he was the one who pointed me towards Kiwifarms. He would often dip out and just not respond to me for days or weeks and occasionally months but keep posting here so when I happened to see his username posted here in an unrelated thread it made me come here and when I realized he'd also stopped posting just a few days after the last message he sent me on April 15th I got worried.

Started digging and eventually found an obituary and though it lacks details my assumption is that things got so bad he just couldn't handle it anymore and noped out. I'm angry at him for not talking to me first even if there's not much I could have done, but I'm mostly really upset that I've lost a friend of so long. He'd been dealing with depression for many years and it got especially bad after a failed relationship and I knew he was hurting but it was literally only a week before he died (going by the obit) that he was showing me pictures of the miniatures he'd painted and shit. It's a fucked up situation.

Anyway, I know he was well liked here and now that I know for sure I wanted to make sure people knew what happened. That's all.

Shit, man... He was a cool user. Wow, you'd never know based on his posts. Suffering in silence like that is just so sad. RIP, @Cats.

 

[Anonitolia]

Spoiler: big fat baby cries over dead cat

I think this is the first time an internet loss has genuinely saddened me like this
It's an odd feeling, and I'm not entirely comfortable with it, but I'm not sure I'd rather have had it for anyone else
Cats was probably one of the best posters on here, almost every post he made brought cheer or intrigue and had merit and humor to it
As fucking embarrassing and gay as it is to admit his posts seriously got me through some really bad times, I remember lurking before I'd even made an account and enjoying his posts as one of the first things to do with the site in my memory, I wanted to sign up just to give him nice reactions or contribute to his catposting threads
His anecdotes about his work and his life were really interesting, I'd never read anything like them before and it fascinated me to learn what it was like for him
He seemed incredibly strong for going through what he was describing and I couldn't even imagine the kind of mental scars that shit might have left on his psyche
I guess I really couldn't, I never really expected this of course
Sorry, this is probably an incoherent ramble, I just feel like I can't keep my mouth shut like I dont' care

Cats was the prime example of a good person, he withstood hell on earth and came out the other side with a smile, decided instead of being bitter and jaded that he'd make people smile with funny cat edits and a super unique sense of humor that tickled all the right funnybones for autists on the farms
his anecdotes were genuinely informative, his jokes were almost always funny, simply seeing him in a thread automatically improved that thread for me

I still hope he isn't dead, that I'll wake up tomorrow and EmpGulcasa'll have been banned for making a really tasteless and morbid joke or something, but I keep digging into his obituary and his post history to try and disprove myself and it's doing the opposite
I don't think Emp is lying, I think this is real and he's actually dead
Under that assumption I guess I'll cut to the chase and just say the obvious, rest in peace cats
May you live your remaining 8 lives someplace where you're treated as kindly as you deserved to have been treated in this one

 

[MS-09 DOM]

"graphic design is my passion"

 

[Korpon]

We'll miss u nigga

 

[Sammich]

A friend to cats will always be someone cool, RIP to news posting @Cats

 

[Joshuan Moon]

This is some painful news. For me it is especially heavy because of the last attempted interaction I had with him. I messaged him to let him know how happy I was to see he was back and how sad I would be to see this site without him; I never got a response. Now I know that in days time he would leave us all for good. I regret that him and I had so little direct interaction, I am sad that there was no help any of us could give, but I am sobered by knowing that there was some outlet for him here. My hope is that whatever pain he suffered, this place and the people here helped him endure just a bit more.

I'll hug my cat for you, Cats.

 

[Niggs Monaghan]

I also had just messaged Cats recently saying I missed his posts. Fuck. This is so sad.
Not Cats
Why did it have to be him?

The cutest cat in honor of Cats. The most I can do besides praying for his immortal soul.


I do have a question for @EmpGulcasa . Obviously you don't have to answer if you don't want to, but did Cats have schizophrenia or something? His art and website really struck me as similar to art by schizophrenics I've seen over the years.

 

[Rattus Ebrius]

Jesus, that's some heavy news. Cats always had this weird energy about him, this aloofness and joviality that was rare on the internet of today. He had some of that early internet optimism to him- he created art and enjoyed just forming connections with people. I'll miss him popping up in chat. I'll miss his posts full of little creatures he created. Mostly I'll just miss him as I saw him- a dude just trying to brighten up our and his day by posting little funnies, because what else do you have to do at the end of the day.

You can't fix all of the worlds problems, hell, most of the time you can't even fix one of your own problems in a day. But you can make a couple people laugh. And that laughter will take some of the weight off of their shoulders, make them think about the world a little more lightly, and maybe even give them enough hope to keep on chugging tomorrow.
Its sad to lose people who can do that kind of magic. Rest in peace, Cats.

 

[EmpGulcasa]

I also had just messaged Cats recently saying I missed his posts. Fuck. This is so sad.
Not Cats
Why did it have to be him?
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The cutest cat in honor of Cats. The most I can do besides praying for his immortal soul.


I do have a question for @EmpGulcasa . Obviously you don't have to answer if you don't want to, but did Cats have schizophrenia or something? His art and website really struck me as similar to art by schizophrenics I've seen over the years.

He didn't have any serious mental issues as far as I know. That was just his sense of humor. I've been going through old messages with him today and a good 30% of the stuff from him is bizarre art and just weird images. He liked making people laugh from the absurdity of it.

The only medical problem I know of was that he had severe back pain for most of the years I knew him and was on and off medication for it and I know that took a toll on him.

EDIT: Guy was just a goof. This is the sort of shit I'd wake up to from him on Discord.

 

[Prince Vegeta]

@Cats was my favorite Kiwi in this place. He had such good humor and was always there to chat about random things or to cheer you up. I'd be taking lethal amounts of copium but that obituary sounds like him too much. He really made an impact on me. I will miss you @Cats thanks for everything!

 

[Demislob]

Goodbye Cats. It was always fun to see your posts. Rest in peace brother.

 

[Lerias]

 

[i440BX]

This doesn’t change him posting some whack shit, and getting called out, only to react in the least sensible way possible
Anyone who uses this “fact” to ignore his unceremonious exit is an idiot

Why are you a nigger?

But getting to the main topic. I am saddened by his death. While I only met him few times on SneedChat, he seemed to me to be a nice person. I couldn't have imagined a prison guard having such a heart of gold. Rest in peace and I wish his family the best.

 

[Sperg Spectating]

That was just his sense of humor. I've been going through old messages with him today and a good 30% of the stuff from him is bizarre art and just weird images. He liked making people laugh from the absurdity of it.

EDIT: Guy was just a goof. This is the sort of shit I'd wake up to from him on Discord.

He had an extremely unique sense of humor, yet everything he posted was pretty fucking funny. I've never seen another person like him.

 

[Niggolash]

I wasn't one of the lucky few who was close to Cats, but my heart goes out to everyone who is grieving his loss.

This situation does make me wonder about how many other Kiwis out there have died without anyone realizing. Particularly those who have attempted—or seriously considered—suicide, and are so isolated that they don't even have another user who was close enough to report or even notice their absence. This happened to me last year. It was also over a failed relationship, so I understand all too well how difficult it is to deal with.

@EmpGulcasa you had mentioned something about how just one week before his death Cats was sharing photos of his figurines he painted. Sometimes suicidal people will appear normal, throwing themselves into their hobbies as a distraction or coping mechanism for intense grief, but it rarely ever helps.

 

[Mortan Shekelstorm]

This situation does make me wonder about how many other Kiwis out there have died without anyone realizing. Particularly those who have attempted—or seriously considered—suicide, and are so isolated that they don't even have another user who was close enough to report or even notice their absence. This happened to me last year. It was also over a failed relationship, so I understand all too well how difficult it is to deal with.

I would reckon it is a large percentage of the user base without speaking on my own experience.

 

[Aunt Carol]

[Little Sam Perkins]
By H. P. Lovecraft

The ancient garden seems tonight
A deeper gloom to bear,
As if some silent shadow’s blight
Were hov’ing in the air.

With hidden griefs the grasses sway,
Unable quite to word them—
Remembering from yesterday
The little paws that stirr’d them.

 

[Mesh Gear Fox]

God dammit this makes me so sad. Cats has always been one of my most favorite users. As soon as he started posting I knew I was gonna love this guy. He was so odd and bizarre, but in the best way possible. He was just one of the most unique people I've ever encountered. It breaks my heart to know how much pain he had to be in to do that.

Now for a little levity, his thread on Hedgehogs always has me laughing my ass off. His bizarre humor on full display.

Godspeed dude.