I'm trying to figure out which of those fits the description for the current state of the Ralphamale and the illustrious KEELSTREAM better. The dude is clearly past the "there's hope things will turn around" stage and obviously views the show as an annoying chore at best. As much as Ralph liked the money aspect, it wasn't what drove him. It was the attention that motivated him. Ralph wants to be the center of attention and affection above absolutely everything else. The money was just an added bonus that was especially nice before the Eternal Corn Harvest.
He's beyond apathetic at this point and he's basically said so himself? The attention nor the money isn't there. Ralph can't find any new sources of attention because he's burned every bridge imaginable. New bridges can't be formed either because of his stellar reputation. Plus that requires energy, which Ralph lacks, and venturing into situations where he may get rejected, which terrifies him beyond all measure.
What's ironic is the KEELSTREAM was likely the first thing Ralph had ever seriously committed himself towards. The dude was a 35 year old nobody living in his wing of the 1,000 sq. ft. with his mother and he thought he
finally found his life's purpose. He stuck to it for a bit and times we're good. Sure, there were some hiccups, but the Ralphamale could sustain himself for once in his miserable existence.
Now, the KEELSTREAM is an inescapable anchor that he despises beyond belief. I suspect he blames the KEELSTREAM for ruining his life and all that (it didn't), but he can't stop because he needs the few morsels the show provides to ensure he isn't literally living on the streets. He's got to chain himself in front of a computer and pretend he wants to be there for 8+ mindless hours almost every day so the handful of remaining paypigs keep paypigging.
He's basically trapped in an inescapable void that can only get worse at this point. A void of his own creation that he built via numerous, iterative steps that has led to him literally living alone in a Mexican shed. Ralph is rapidly approaching the event horizon, if he hasn't already, that'll lead to him being discovered and fused to a couch weeks after his death. Except Ralph is so much worse off since it won't be family that seeks his whereabouts, it'll be an alog. Plus Ralph's estate is non-existent. Xander and Cozy.tv Rozy won't get a house. They'll get a bowling trophy, Nora's old dildo, a hat that says "Kid Diddler", and a purse.
Which leads me back to the original question I was asking before writing this blog. Which better defines Ralph? Is he more "pathetic" or more "sad"? Personally, I'm leaning towards sad because I believe he's keenly aware of his current and future state. What's worse is it's not even due to the cliche of "you made all the decisions that led you to where you are" (which is true, but not the point), but that he fought so ardently to make all those countlessly awful decisions so he could own the alogs.
Ralph is banned from Kick.
How the hell did he get banned from Kick?
He's streaming. Not exactly sure when he started and I get it's a Saturday, but Jesus. 110 mostly fake viewers? The Rumble bot algorithm is close to giving up.
