Megathread SRS and GRS surgeons and associated horrors - the medical community of experimental surgeons, the secret community of home butchers

[Stan]

They're SO CLOSE to the real thing, though!!!

Spoiler: sunburst-red Shai Hulud bagel 'penis' vs 'normal' glans

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VERSUS

A quote unquote "noooormal glans"

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I can't see any issues, can you? Even a male urogenital surgeon can't tell the difference!!!

I mean, sure, one looks like a tightly closed-lipped system that keeps in urine and keeps out bacteria while the other looks like a Chernobyl-melted remora made out of blood-deprived playdough with too many chromosomes but aside from all that, what really differs between the two?

What do you mean? Glans penis isn't supposed to look like a scarred butthole?

 

[Magic Pickle]

At only 21 years old, this tranny is already getting set up on the path of plastic surgery addiction, speculating what procedures he needs to undergo to finally look like the angel of his dreams. His wishlist includes rib work (i.e., rib removal), shoulder reduction (i.e., clavicle smashing and restructuring) and possibly breast implants. And guess what? He's already speculating about all of this only two weeks after his stinkditch installation!
windblown7823 (vaginoplasty)
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how do i fix my body​

i have a consult with dr leif rogers in a week, what should i ask? what procedures do you think would work best for me.. im desperate about how masculine my body looks and am basically looking for any solution. lipo/fat transfer sounds appealing because its your own tissue but apparently theres tons of problems? rib work sounds really cool. i dont know if i should get implants.. i dont know if that would look good or how compatible with being very active it is. same worries are with shoulder reduction. what else could i possibly ask for im so scared at all the surgeries

also does my vagina look good for 2 weeks post op

Spoiler: And his fauxgina looks fucking nasty!

Totally tubular, dood: a TiF's rotdog is so remarkably cylindrical, it looks more like some sort of Frankensteinian meat-pipe than anything actually... well, phallic.
teamcha0tic (Drs. Chen, Safa, Watt; radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty)
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2 weeks post op!!​

Sorry for the cropped pics - I have way too many tattoos to blur otherwise! Swelling has gone down substantially! Most incisions are healed/closed except the big scab on my scrotum. Lots of the scabbing is coming off my skin graft donor sites (both thighs bc the dr’s were willing to work around my tattoos!) so moving around is 100x easier. I’ve gotten used to the flip flow catheter and bladder spasms have drastically reduced this week. When I peed before it felt wet behind my scrotum near natal urethra but that feeling has gone away. I can feel the difference between pain in my scrotum, v-nectomy site, and penis which is awesome, before it just felt like general pain all over. Pain this week is 4/10 at worst. So far I haven’t had any swelling in my donor side hand, I’ve been able to wear my wedding ring since getting out of the hospital. Anyways I think that’s all for my 2 week update!

Spoiler: Why is she standing like a cowboy in a standoff?

Ed Geinpples: after getting top surgery, a FTM asks the ever-classic question: Are My Nipples Okay? The rough, reddened stitching and the leather-brown color to these crispy nips don't bode well, but I have seen results worse than this make fair recoveries, so maybe OP will be the lucky lottery (lo-tittery?) winner this time.
dudepersson (double incision bilateral cosmetic mastectomy with free nipple graft)
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16 days post op, are my nipples okay?​

i had di w/fng on june 30th. i had my first follow-up appointment 8 days ago. the nurse told my to cover my nips with vaseline and the non adherent pads and keep them moisturized 24/7. i’ve noticed a growing red area around the nipples and they are also starting to get that white skin around the sutures. normally my skin gets like that if i’m in the water for too long, like around my nails and whatever. i’ve started to take a break with the binder for 30mins to an hour just to let them dry out because i’m getting kinda concerned. they have also recently (maybe 4 days ago?) started to smell a tiny bit whenever i take the pads off to re-moisturize them. i don’t think i’m getting an infection because i don’t have a fever or any pain or anything, but this might just be due to the numbness. i’ve also heard that a slight smell can be normal just due to sweat and the bodies healing process.
i would reach out to my surgeons team but i have no way of submitting pictures and i don’t want to make an appointment and go in if it seems like just the normal healing progress. i’ve tried to look at other pictures online of about 2 weeks, and none of the others i’ve found look as irritated around the areola as mine do (although there aren’t many detailed close ups of just the nips at 2 weeks).
i’m just mainly concerned if it looks like i’m moisturizing them too much or if there are signs of a potential infection and i should go into the clinic.
any advice is helpful!!

Spoiler: Burlap sacks look smoother and silkier than these.

Whew, this one is a fucking doozy: a "gay trans" TiF hailing from Providence, RI named Mikaela24 recounts a Veinscrawlian tale about the unfortunate journey she's been on in pursuit of getting a fake dong (even though she identifies explicitly as nonbinary). If you think she sounds insane, it's because she fucking is: a deep dive into her Reddit profile shows that she suffers from antisocial personality disorder (and despises children and dogs to the point of claiming that she would abuse them if she had them), dissociative identity disorder, autism (which she blames her lack of empathy on), fibromyalgia, hidradenitis supperativa, sleep apnea (as she was once ~270lbs at 5'7"), previously suffered from prediabetes, hypermobility spectrum disorder, and is also envious of those who use power chairs. If you only read one part of this post, read the part where she starts comparing her phalloplasty to the Tuskegee syphilis study!
Mikaela24 (Drs. Cetrulo, Wintner, O'Brien and Boysen; radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty, urethroplasty, vaginectomy)
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Be cautious if you're choosing Dr. O'Brien/Dr. Boysen for surgery. My experience with them has been absolutely dreadful​

I'm writing this as a warning of sorts and to be completely transparent. As of right now I'm still with this surgical team but I AM looking for different surgeons because at this juncture they've completely lost all my trust. I can't continue being operated on by people who do not have my best interest in mind. This is rather long so I don't blame you if you don't wanna read but there's a TONNE to go over.
So to begin, here's my surgery dates:

• December 2022 (Cetrulo): Phallus Creation (RFF)
• January 2023 (Cetrulo & Wintner): Covering of the arm graft with a graft from the leg and the beginnings of my urethroplasty
• May 2023 (Cetrulo & Wintner): The urethroplasty has split a bit so that was to be fixed with a buccal graft and then connected to my penile urethra. That didn't happen. Wintner inverted my clitoris and made it the end of my penile urethra. But with this nerve hookup was possible
• April 2024 (O'Brien and Boysen) This was basically just my vaginectomy and was supposed to hook up my two urethras but that didn't happen
• December 2024 (O'Brien and Boysen) This was to once again fix the stricture in my penile urethra but that closed again.

Okay let me know if any of this is confusing and I'll try to elaborate in the comments. But as you can see, this is essentially a 4 year process and I'm nowhere near done. I've been with 2 teams and I'm now looking for a 3rd. It's THAT bad. Let me explain why and why I feel like no one should go with Dr. O'Brien’s team.
I originally switched to this team because my original surgeon, Cetrulo, was moving to LA. Also I was convinced by a bunch of idiotic ppl to switch to O'Brien. They sang him HIGH praises as if the sun shone out of his ass. I THOUGHT he was a good surgeon based on their recommendations and my own research but ofc I'm wrong.
From the jump (late 2023/early 2024) there were red flags. When I initially consulted with Boysen I told him I didn't want a vaginectomy. That's actually why I chose Cetrulo, he offered urethroplasty without vaginectomy. Boysen told me essentially that it wasn't really possible to do urethroplasty without another fistula appearing again unless I did a vaginectomy (just say you're incompetent and go). I was against this initially but wanted phalloplasty more so I agreed to do it in the end. But the red flag was that I brought up that surgeons like Crane and Chen do urethroplasty without vaginectomy and he told me a bold-faced lie about it. Basically saying that those surgeons essentially extend the urethra only through the clitoris and do a separate urethra in the neophallus. Anyone that's gotten those procedures with either of those surgeons knows that's not true. I knew it wasn't true back then cuz I've TALKED TO SEVERAL OF Y'ALL. But I let it slide.
My mistake.
In the midst of all this, before my December 2024 surgery, I also had a cystoscopy done by Boysen to see the extent of the stricture in my penile urethra because it scarred close. He told me based on what he saw on the camera he was optimistic it wasn't extensive and that they could go ahead with the joining of the two urethras in my surgery in December. That didn't happen. The scarring was much more extensive. He WAS transparent and said that things may change once they get under the knife but still he had that optimism and fed ME that optimism only for me to be disappointed.
(I have to sidenote here to elaborate. Apparently multiple former patients of Wintner who have had the same inverting clitoris thing have had their urethras stricture. I was explicitly told this on more than one occasion and was told that they were going to put a skin graft to try and fix the issue. But this is what I was told was the problem in the past. But now they're making it my fault. You'll see what I mean if you read on.)
Great.
So fast forward to recent days. I'm told I'm finally ready for Stage 2 and it's originally scheduled for TWO DAYS AFTER MY BIRTHDAY. NICE!!! I go to an appointment in April to see if the penile urethra closed and spoiler alert: it had. So that plan was shafted. I was DEVASTATED. And that's an understatement tbh. In my post operative care they wanted me to pass a catheter through my penis every day but they didn't communicate to me the frequency, so I was only doing it 2-3 times a week. Moreover for a bit I stopped cuz I was very busy with work and getting home really late. But still I wasn't told the pertinence of doing the catheter passing every day so I didn't think it was a big deal if I faltered. Well clearly it was!!
That appointment was a clusterfuck and so were the proceeding phone calls with Dr. Loughran (an assisting doctor of O'Brien’s. Idk her official title). I was PISSED cuz it felt like something wasn't communicated to me so I fucked up my post op care and this fucked me over big time. And I wanted Stage 2 to happen. I told them I didn't want to have another redo and I wanted to go ahead with Stage 2. They were saying no cuz I'd have to have a catheter for an extended periods of time. that it was “unpleasant”. I didn't give a single fuck. My spouse can attest to me being a tough cookie and idc about catheters tbh (I look forward to them almost cuz I can sleep through the night with my OAB). But we worked out that I would get a revision in July and then Stage 2 in December. Okay smooth.
Before I go on I need to point out something about these calls with Dr. Loughran. There were two. The first one was enraging. We agreed to have a second one on the following Thursday and she ghosted me. I think it was a surgery that ran extra long but no one sent me a message or anything and I rearranged my whole day to be available at the time we had arranged. She said we could talk over the weekend and I was available on Saturday and she never replied to me after Friday afternoon. So I didn't hear from her all weekend. We did talk next week which was when the plan for July and then December was hashed out but the poor communication is going to be a pattern.
So from this point on there's barely any communication unless I initiate it which is already fucked up imo. I reached out to the team in May, and asked for a surgery date. This is what was said to me by Piper (the admin I think):

Great timing--I actually just emailed Dr. Boysen about this! I believe we have to wait until your cystoscopy with him on June 23rd to officially schedule, but we have a possible date of Monday, July 21st for you. Would this work for you if you're cleared after your appointment?

So based on this I'm thinking that July 21st is my surgery date (barring being cleared by Boysen). Cool! I prepare but not extensively. I move my hotel stay to the 20th and just tell my spouse about the new day. I don't do much else.
Mid June I also get a message from the PA Lineidys:

I know your surgical plan is still pending after you see Dr. Boysen on 6/23/25, but we currently have your surgery scheduled for 7/21/25. Therefore, if we move forward with that date I just wanted to let you know that we may ask you to stop your HRT 2 weeks prior - so your last dose should be no later than 7/6/25. You can restart your HRT at 7 days after surgery.
Note: If you use Androgel, that can be stopped 1 week before surgery.

Please tell me you peeped her saying “your surgery is scheduled for 7/21”. So I hope I'm not crazy for thinking that date was at least fucking reserved or something right???
I do get an appointment with Boysen for another cystoscopy on June 23rd. After he takes the fucking camera out my dick I explicitly ask him about my surgery date and he says that the date should be good. I also tell him I have paperwork from my job to be filled out for my leave and he says to send it to his team. So from these interactions I'm under the impression that he knows about the July 21st date. In addition after I sent his team the paperwork for my job I get this message:

We have received your documents. Once completed by Dr. Boysen we will send them back.

So things are working in the background for a surgery date of 7/21. At least that's what's being communicated to me.
Lol. LMAO even.
So I haven't gotten a pre-op appointment so I sent Piper a message. And she sent me back a message asking me to come in yesterday for a conversation to discuss the surgery. No problem!! I come in and it's Lin and the social worker, Emma, so I already know something is fucky.
They tell me some REAL BULLSHIT:

1. I'm not getting surgery next week! Apparently that was only “pending” and not set in stone. Even though I was told numerous times it was pending Boysen’s approval and I was given Boysen's approval. So apparently he communicated something completely different to me than he did to O'Brien. AND NO ONE TOLD ME. No one gave me any indication until today that my surgery wasn't happening. I already started the process for leave off work. My spouse took time off. My SIL took time off. I booked a fucking hotel and I can't get that money back because I used a card with an account that I closed. WHAT THE FUCK.
2. I'm too fat for surgery. Even though they operated on me twice thus far and were going to operate on me a 3rd time, suddenly I'm just morbidly obese I guess and completely unable to be operated on unless I lose an absurd amount of weight or something. Mind you, I lost almost 40 lbs hitherto in the past 4 months! But that's not enough. I need to lose more (I used to be 270 lbs). Lin straight up told me to get on Ozempic. Like???? What the fuck!!??! (I used to be prediabetic too so wouldn't going on a GLP-1 fuck with my potential diabetes idk the ins and outs tho)I even told her and Emma that I have trauma surrounding food and weight loss and she said that O'Brien might not care. So this man is operating on a vulnerable demographic that MANY have their fair share of various kinds of trauma and he wants to inflict more??? Why the fuck did he operate on me to begin with? Why the fuck is he working with such vulnerable people??? Why not just turn me away if I was too fucking fat!???!? Lin said they made exceptions for Cetrulo’s patients (Cetrulo had no BMI limit) and now they're pulling the rug from under me.
3. They don't know WHEN my surgery will be. Not at all. Like, apparently Boysen talked to O'Brien and they came up with some basic semblance of a plan, ran this modicum of bullshit by me, and then O'Brien went on vacation. Cool. Like I genuinely don't know what they're going to do. Boysen posited to me doing a buccal graft instead of a skin graft this time to see if they yields better results (after the cystoscopy) but that's not even a fucking concept anymore I guess??
4. To further elaborate on the first point actually. So like, let's say the original plan for my surgery was "Plan A", right? But after Boysen saw whatever he saw in the cystoscopy he was like "oh we have to do 'Plan B' actually". So I asked why couldn't Plan B happen on the 21st. She said they needed more time to hash things out. But this wasn't communicated to me!!! Moreover it's been 3+ fucking weeks do these ppl never talk?? She tried to make it sound like they needed to talk to me first before making their plan but all Lin told me was that I was too fat and to keep the catheter in longer and I don't see why that was such a necessary conversation when me being fat was never an issue before today and the catheter thing could've been addressed at my first post op. So it really seems like they just dropped the ball majorly and frankly strung me along.

One thing I forgot to mention was that in today's discussion Lin outright told me that she was unaware about my surgery date for 7/21. But as you saw above SHE FUCKING SAID that it was scheduled. So when I called her out on it, she pointed out that she said it was “pending”. Pending Boysen's approval. Which he told me he gave. But he gave O'Brien’s team some completely different information THAT WAS NOT COMMUNICATED TO ME.
NOTHING WAS FUCKING COMMUNICATED TO MEEEEEE!!!
I need to give further context: I don't live in Massachusetts, I live in RI. Moreover, I don't have a car. So I have to ride a train, ride a subway, and ride a shuttle to get to these appointments. I literally leave 5 hours before to get to my appointments on time. And that's why I need to get a hotel: I book it for the day before and leave at 5 am to get to my surgery on time cuz there's no train that runs that early. This is a fucking kerfuffle for me to figure out each and every time. The logistics are ANNOYING. So I have to fuck everything and just throw it all away because I was low-key lied to for several fucking months. I feel like this team thinks all their patients are privileged white ppl with all the support in the world when that's the furthest thing from the truth. And I expressed to them MULTIPLE TIMES how hard all this shit was on me at least from a logistical standpoint (and much more!) and it still seems like they don't care.
It's also just absurd to me that I was made to feel stupid for having myself and my family prepare for this projected date even though I didn't get a pre-op letter. First off I had to ask for my surgery date all the way back in May to begin with. And then for the appointment yesterday I had to ask for that too. Lin said she told Piper to reach out to me and SHE NEVER FUCKING DID. So if I never sent her a message I would've turned up at the hospital next week and no one would have any idea why I was even there. That's just wild to me because it makes me feel like they just think I can take extensive time off work, book a hotel, have my spouse take time off, have my SIL take time off, and so much more at the drop of a hat. FOR FUCKS SAKE NO??? Be more appreciative of the time your patients take out to fucking accommodate you.
I can't keep doing this. I hope it's clear why I can't keep doing this. The communication is abysmal. I was lied to in the very fucking beginning and forced to do a procedure I didn't want. I'm “fine” with it now but I'm still a little bitter about it some days. Now I'm essentially going to be forced to do something else (go on Ozempic) or else they won't operate on me anymore and they don't care about the trauma this will cause me. Again, the communication is fucking ABYSMAL. They were low-key gaslighting me tbh. Like I genuinely left the appointment today feeling like I was going insane and had to talk to my spouse and a friend to calm me down. They don't have any respect for the myriad of bullshit they're putting on me. And I'm sick of this.
Fun little side note: I asked Emma if anyone else was dealing with some fuck shit and they said “People have dealt with some _BS._” Oh that's reassuring. I mean that genuinely and sarcastically. It's nice knowing I'm not alone but saddening knowing that this team is full of bullshit. Also the fact that the fucking social worker is privy to this leads me to believe that multiple patients have vented to her. They're not on the medical side of things but they're still knowledgeable about all the fuck shit that's happening. This tells me it's a CHRONIC issue.
Circling back to the idiots that recommended this travesty of a surgical team: they would hem and haw about how Cetrulo was egotistical, didn't know what he was doing, rushed their appointments, and was an ass. I genuinely don't know why the everloving fuck I listened to them because that's the completely OPPOSITE of my experience. At least that man showed up to all my fucking appointments. I've seen O'Brien like once maybe twice since December. And Cetrulo always answered my questions, seemed very knowledgeable imo, and was a cool dude. I will admit he did seem a tad egotistical but I thought it was humourous and it never put me off him. And lbr, what doctor doesn't have an ego these days? I know O'Brien definitely does.
And continuing on this train, at least Cetrulo actually tried to fucking work with me and get me further in my process, even though Wintner was chronically fucking me over. Like Wintner was supposed to be in my first surgery in December 2022 but he bailed 2 weeks before and Cetrulo still did something. He had to delay the nerve hookup but still progressed at much as he could (despite Wintner doing essentially the bare minimum surgically every fucking time) to like give me something. Cetrulo has honestly been the only motherfucker that seemed to actually give a semblance of a rat’s ass about my care.
Anyway, back to the point I'm trying to make: just avoid this team. Clearly they're not above lying to their patients, they DEFINITELY don't give a rat’s ass about fucking talking to them about the bare bones necessary bullshit, seem to chronically fuck over multiple people, essentially gaslight their patients, keeping appointments is a suggestion I guess, and maybe you'll get a doctor that'll give you the time of day.
The only good thing about this whole experience has been Emma who's been candid, honest, and humble the entire time. Like they're the only one that I can look to in order to help me keep some semblance of sanity in these appointments cuz I outright don't trust any of these people anymore. They even gave me the number to Family Services I think it's called where I can lodge a complaint about the team's numerous failings and I'm definitely doing that when I have the time. I doubt it'll do much but I still want to try. Also they're the only one that doesn't misgender me there so that's nice (everyone there calls me “he”, but I'm nonbinary and use “they” pronouns. You'd think a team “dedicated” to helping trans clients would use their correct pronouns as a starting point).
I straight up told her I felt like there was some degree of racism (I'm mixed black) at play here, and please don't roll your eyes, the current affairs should tell you racism is alive and well. You have to realise medical racism is still very evident with many white doctors still believing in current times that black people feel less pain. But we can also go back to the forced sterilisations of hundreds of black women, the methods Marion Sims used to discover his gynaecological findings, the Tuskegee Syphilis Study, and much much more. If you're going to fight me on the fact that medical racism is a thing just block me and leave. Many doctors are fucking racist and they may not even realise it. So to sit there and essentially force a black person to undergo medical procedures they did not want and force them to retraumitise themselves or renege your services is fucking diabolical.
(And I'm going to address this here cuz I know there's O'Brien patients in this group: yes Lin is not white. I believe she's Latina. First off, anyone of any race is capable of upholding white supremacy. Secondly, I've had my fair share of Latines be antiblack to me. So no, she's not exempt. Also, another sidenote she's the only PoC there which really shows this office's commitment to diversity.)
Anyway, I'm sorry if this rant seemed disjointed, again hmu if you have any questions I'll be happy to answer them. Like I said in the beginning I know it's long but I just wanted to be as clear as possible so I fit a tonne of info in. And there's still probably a bunch of nonsense I missed. I'm so over this whole experience. If you're going to get this surgery, just make sure the team you're going with is DAMN good. Do not make the same mistakes I did. And definitely do not trust O'Brien’s team.
I asked Lin if she actually cared or if the loss of funds was the most pressing issue and she outright said she got paid either way so I mean me leaving is not that big of a fucking concern. She tried to finesse it and say that she meant it in a way like saying she cares about her patients more than the income but then why gaslight them!????! It's like I know at the end of the day this whole shebang is a business but you can operate a business and still treat your clients LIKE FUCKING PEOPLE. Everyone in this clinic is treating me like I'm a damned moron that they can lie to and the only (and biggest) moronic thing I've done is trust them with my care.

 

[toilet_rainbow]

Actually, much of the darkness surrounding OP's genital region is likely just natural hyperpigmentation rather than necrotic tissue, as necrotic tissue is typically more purple-black. He reports that he is Indian, and Indians (among other ethnicities, but especially prevalent in Asians) are more likely to have darker and sometimes more desaturated skin around the genitals, armpits, elbows, knees and knuckles - this can make things appear more ashen when compared to the warmer and brighter pinks people may be accustomed to seeing on light skin (which is more common among those of European heritage).

Yes, his pit is fucking horrible to look at and has brought me to the brink of madness upon bearing witness to it, but judging from the rest of his complexion I would assume a lot of that off-coloring is moreso due to poor lighting washing out his natural skintone than horrific necrosis. The actual colors inside of the pit, however, are definitely brewing the next global pandemic. Ew!

Okay, that explains a bit. The lighting made him look a lot lighter than he actually is (and it shocked me because I thought I was looking at a very ashy black guy at first. That photo needs a lot of time to be digested. More than I'd rather not have to spend at the moment).

Also explains why he was trying so hard to hide his transition from his family. Dude effectively became a hijra when he could’ve kept his dick and be an overall happier and healthier gay man. Play stupid games win stupid prizes.

Whew, this one is a fucking doozy: a "gay trans" TiF hailing from Providence, RI named Mikaela24 recounts a Veinscrawlian tale about the unfortunate journey she's been on in pursuit of getting a fake dong (even though she identifies explicitly as nonbinary).

tl;dr for that very, very, very long rant: The Diary of a Mad Black Woman Pooner

 

[stinky patchouli]

@Magic Pickle

Now I'm essentially going to be forced to do something else (go on Ozempic) or else they won't operate on me anymore and they don't care about the trauma this will cause me.

~*Forced!!!*~ to go on ozempic against her will, there are no other options! Traumatic!!

 

[Marvin]

They're SO CLOSE to the real thing, though!!!

Spoiler: sunburst-red Shai Hulud bagel 'penis' vs 'normal' glans

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A quote unquote "noooormal glans"

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I can't see any issues, can you? Even a male urogenital surgeon can't tell the difference!!!

I mean, sure, one looks like a tightly closed-lipped system that keeps in urine and keeps out bacteria while the other looks like a Chernobyl-melted remora made out of blood-deprived playdough with too many chromosomes but aside from all that, what really differs between the two?

God, it looks like a taquito they have on those rollers at 7-11. Welp, I'm not getting those anymore.

 

[Magic Pickle]

At last, a biological penis that finally actually looks like a phalloplasty! Erm, except it's because this retarded tranny got an orchiectomy and the post-procedural swelling is deforming his genitals to the point of resembling an anteater's snout instead of the reproductive organ nature had originally mapped out. Hopefully pooners will be able to find it reaffirming nonetheless.
Meekuly (orchiectomy)
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Is this amount of swelling safe?​

Double orchi with scote removal, surgery was 2 days ago, swelling gets worse each day

Spoiler: It just embodies the world "hurple" to me.

Dog ear dog world: after getting top surgery that made her put the "lass" in "lassitudinous", a TiF gets a second chance under the scalpel and decides that nipples are a waste of time.
jeannotforsale (Dr. Jessica Lee; double incision bilateral cosmetic mastectomy with free nipple grafts + revision with removal of nipple grafts)
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DI Revision, scars and tissue removal
I had DI with nipple grafts in 2023 at CHLA by Dr Jessica Lee. For context: I was scheduled for a revision later this year but due to Trump’s threats of cutting federal funding, CHLA is closing their trans youth clinic, including all trans related surgeries. The surgery team was able to move my surgery to June 30th to get it done before closure!!
This is a before and after my revision. I decided to remove my nipple grafts and opt for tattoos in the future. I am 5’5 and around 210lbs.

Spoiler: Dare I say she actually looks... better?

An update on numb_anxiety whose made-in-Mexico phalloplasty was falling apart right before her eyes: it seems that she has, miraculously, not completely lost the entire thing to necrosis. I also decided to do a bit more research on the details of her surgery, so I'll go ahead and include it in this post for comprehensive recordkeeping. This includes fun new facts such as that she is the first patient of Dr. Aguilar's to have received this procedure, she is a 40-year-old single mother who claims to be a "gay bottom" and this is also why she has purposefully kept her vulva intact due to a "love/hate relationship" with it.
numb_anxiety (Dr. Ivan Aguilar of Guadalajara, MX; bilateral conjoined flap phalloplasty AKA Kim phalloplasty)
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Week 7.5 update​

For anyone that's been following my progress/process. I'm 7.5 weeks post op from having bilateral conjoined groin flap phalloplasty.

I initially was so happy with my penis, but I ended up having complications with necrosis and infection. See my previous posts for reference if you want.

Now I'm so disappointed and depressed . Everything's healing up great now that necrosis and infection is gone but it's just ugly, and the way it's healing it's pulling straight up instead of hanging down. I'm trying to remind myself that I can get revisions later, and trying to figure out how to love it now but I just can't at the moment .

But here are pics of how it's healing since my last post

Spoiler: You look at that thing and tell me there is a God.

Cs get degrees: a FTM's top surgery showcases just how little effort plastic surgeons have to go to in terms of getting paid to do what they love most - butchering people. The nipples on this one are so dry, even cacti started applying Vaseline at the sight of it.
Goblin_rat (Dr. D Cantwell at Alina Health; bilateral cosmetic mastectomy with fishmouth incisions)
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About 3 weeks post op​

Is everything looking okay? I'm feeling good! Not too sore and am doing everything to take care of my chest. These were taken right after I got out of the shower

Spoiler: More like the Innsmouth incision.

If at first you don't succeed, try, try, again: immediately post-op, a TiF's fauxnis begins to crumble and rot, prompting her doctors to wheel her right back into the operating theater for emergency surgery. Due to the extensive tissue death, her entire psuedodong is removed, leaving her with extensive arm scarring and a lonely "ballsack" and nothing to show for her efforts. Dr. Delong, however, is not discouraged - in a show of bloodthirstiness, he insists that they will simply explore her options for receiving an anterolateral thigh (ALT) phalloplasty instead once she's recovered, thus showcasing the innate wickedness of these doctors.
sumthinthumpin (Dr. Ng and Dr. Delong of UCLA; radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty with scrotoplasty, vaginectomy and urethral-lenghtening)
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Failed Phallo​

Hi all,
Sorry for the long post, but I know I need to release these feelings and hoping this subreddit will help with support.
Last week, I was set to have RFF with scrotoplasty, vaginectomy, and UL. For context, I’m 5 ft 5in and was 175lbs at time of surgery. This surgery was with Dr. Ng from urology and Dr. Delong with plastic surgery at UCLA.
My flap failed. I was told I went in the first time, my surgery time was 15 hours and everything was successful. However, when I was wheeled to my hospital room, my fiancé kept telling the nurses I looked really bad. My face was pale and I looked like I was dying. The nurses first brushed it off, but when Dr. Delong came back to check on me, he right away noticed exactly what my fiancé did. They checked for blood flow in the phallus, and found nothing. I was rushed back in for emergency surgery.
Six hours later, I came back out. My fiancé said my color was back and I looked so much better. However, the phallus was removed because I kept clotting. Note that I never had any issues with clotting nor do I have any family history of any blood clotting issues. They gave me anticoagulants multiple times but ultimately made the choice to remove the phallus as the tissue was dying. I also required multiple blood transfusions and they didn’t want to risk anything else coming up already having been under anesthesia for 21 hours.
I spent a week in the hospital. I’m thankful to be alive, but also feeling like I am trying to hide the sadness that I have been dysphoric all my life and the final part of feeling relief to the dysphoria had failed. I came home with what now feels like an unnecessary left butchered arm, extreme weakness due to the extreme blood loss, extreme discomfort from the catheter, an additional catheter that hangs around without a phallus, and a lonely scrotum.
Dr. Delong was visibly upset over not being able to do anything no matter how hard he tried. Poor guy looked like he wanted to cry when he would talk to me. He is hopeful that we can try again but with the thigh instead and the risk of clotting is much lower. He’s hopeful that it will work out. I just know that electrolysis was so costly and took forever the first time and idk how I feel about the need to wait for that again because the catheter may need to stay in during that time.
Dr. Ng says my scrotum looks like it will heal nicely, and has no concerns. However, she didn’t have much to say about other ways I can pee until we see how things heal down the line. She knows the catheter will probably need to stay in as I mentioned before, but I was hoping I could maybe stand to pee with an external device or if the catheter needs to stay, maybe I can just flip the cap off whenever I need to pee. With the complications, ultimately Dr. Delong and the plastic surgery team will be leading the next steps.
I feel like a freak. Balls but no dick. Left arm all cut up, but it is healing nicely. Which kinda frustrates me more because to me, it doesn’t seem like it would have been too noticeable at the end of the day. I’m always tired and hate it. My poor fiancé taking care of all my needs and feeling like I was selfish for putting her through that. I HATE the catheter. It makes me feel dysphoric in some way and it’s so uncomfortable for me.
I guess I’m just looking for some support that maybe there are ways I can relieve my dysphoria through standing to pee and not needing to wait until all the hair is gone on my thigh. Even if there are things someone has heard of that are similar to my case that have positive outcomes will help boost me. I’m so thankful to be alive, but the dysphoria is too strong to not try again.
Thanks, everyone. I wish you all the very best in your future affirming care.

 

[Slideshow Bill]

A horrifying new amhole reminiscent of Triple-Ditch/babysoots just dropped on r/Transgender_Surgeries

Truth to be told, this looks even worse to me than Triple-Ditch's crotch, and that alone says something.

Spoiler: I am warning you, this shit is graphic and likely to result in severe ocular trauma or a full on tonic-clonic seizure

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OP says:



"If yall see anything that is concerning" ...Bruh.

Even the comments section is filled with not quite healthy levels of doubt:

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"That looks not healthy". No shit.

https://www.reddit.com/r/Transgender_Surgeries/comments/1m11t8h/day_13_post_op_general_advice_and_any_concerns_i/

Link to OP's reddit account. He mentions going to Montreal for his GRS, so I'm assuming his surgeon is Brassard.

EDIT: ...and he's deleted his post. Either the hugbox didn't deliver, or someone told him he's now a Kiwifarms GRS horrors thread exhibit.

That's the content I come here for. Pitch black with a tinge of green, mystery meat white and pink, an abyss of purple and red. What a beautiful rainbow of necrosis.

They constantly threaten suicide at the drop of the hat, why would the military want them?

Not so fast. That's the perfect use for them. Go 41% for America's imperialist interests, Alice.

 

[Mechanical Pencil]

a FTM asks the ever-classic question: Are My Nipples Okay?

I just woke and my still sleepy eyes read her (very feminine script) annotation of, "after drying" as "after crying" and I laughed hard enough to fully wake myself up.

I haven't personally told you this, but I super appreciate your posts here Magic Pickle. Godbear bless you.

 

[Peaches Demure]

This one's a total doozy: a troon actually broke his perineum dilating and observed, correctly, that the dilator is showing through the skin there. You wonder how all of this is possible? Unfortunately luckily for us, he posted photographic evidence.

First I'll show you the SFW version where he talks about his, err, problem and asks the Reddit hive for advice:

What can be done? Fissure from perineum to vaginal canal.​

I am two weeks post op from my PIV vaginoplasty. I had one minor complication with wound dehiscence near my perineum. My surgery team said that it is a common complication and that there is nothing to worry about. To treat it, they said to fill the hole with gauze and change it regularly. However, while I was dilating, I discovered that there is a fissure from the dehiscence on the perineum that looks into the vaginal canal. If you look at the picture, you can see the purple dilator through the hole in the perineum. What can even be done in this situation? I contacted my surgery team, but I’m afraid they are just going to shrug it off. I am worried that I am going to be left with a butchered vagina. I just don’t see how it could possibility heal normally now.

Now for the truly disgusting stuff:

Spoiler: Can you see it? Yes? No?

How about now:

Spoiler: Full size picture under this cut

https://www.reddit.com/r/Transgender_Surgeries/comments/1lx7ac2/what_can_be_done_fissure_from_perineum_to_vaginal/

 

[Positron]

Pitch black with a tinge of green, mystery meat white and pink, an abyss of purple and red. What a beautiful rainbow of necrosis.

Let's make a pride flag with that.


That thing is a urinary catheter.

the dilator is showing through the skin there.

"Bonus hole" is not just for trans men!

 

[Mad_Dog]

This one's a total doozy: a troon actually broke his perineum dilating and observed, correctly, that the dilator is showing through the skin there. You wonder how all of this is possible? Unfortunately luckily for us, he posted photographic evidence.

First I'll show you the SFW version where he talks about his, err, problem and asks the Reddit hive for advice:

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Now for the truly disgusting stuff:

Spoiler: Can you see it? Yes? No?

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How about now:

Spoiler: Full size picture under this cut

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https://www.reddit.com/r/Transgender_Surgeries/comments/1lx7ac2/what_can_be_done_fissure_from_perineum_to_vaginal/

Bro can attach a carabiner to his crotch and use it to carry stuff

 

[Peaches Demure]

Bro can attach a carabiner to his crotch and use it to carry stuff

Good point. The angle of the dilator going in(?) is so confusing. How would one, as a guy, go about to have sex with that? (Just in theory, of course). It looks like you'd have to do push-ups to penetrate it.

 

[Lovely Kin]

Now for the truly disgusting stuff:

That's not just a butchering, that's pure absolute destruction.

 

[Adjustable Autism]

This one's a total doozy: a troon actually broke his perineum dilating and observed, correctly, that the dilator is showing through the skin there. You wonder how all of this is possible? Unfortunately luckily for us, he posted photographic evidence.

First I'll show you the SFW version where he talks about his, err, problem and asks the Reddit hive for advice:

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Now for the truly disgusting stuff:

Spoiler: Can you see it? Yes? No?

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Dude should feel super euphoric. Vaginal tears often happen during childbirth. If he puts a bonnet on his dilator, his illness addled brain might come up with some extra cope.

 

[Mad_Dog]

Dude should feel super euphoric. Vaginal tears often happen during childbirth. If he puts a bonnet on his dilator, his illness addled brain might come up with some extra cope.

I mean, if he were a real woman pregnant with twins, he could give birth to both of them at the same time with that double-barreled snatch of his.

 

[Otterly]

Dr. Ng and Dr. Delong of UCLA; radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty with scrotoplasty, vaginectomy and urethral-

Quote: My flap failed. I was told I went in the first time, my surgery time was 15 hours and everything was successful.
15 hours?? Something went veeeery wrong in there methinks. I’d be checking I still had all my kidneys.

Good point. The angle of the dilator going in(?) is so confusing. How would one, as a guy, go about to have sex with that? (Just in theory, of course). It looks like you'd have to do push-ups to penetrate it.

I dont think many of them are having sex with their holes.
Quote: you look at the picture, you can see the purple dilator through the hole in the perineum. What can even be done in this situation?
It looks like that strap of flesh will just rot away. So not much, to be honest. in a rational world they’d carefully suture it back, and then leave it well alone and hope, but you need to be ramming a big bit of plastic in there a few times a day don’t you so that’s not going to happen. Best case scenario you don’t die of sepsis and/or retain bowel and bladder function

 

[Cun75p4rkl35]

This one's a total doozy: a troon actually broke his perineum dilating and observed, correctly, that the dilator is showing through the skin there. You wonder how all of this is possible? Unfortunately luckily for us, he posted photographic evidence.

First I'll show you the SFW version where he talks about his, err, problem and asks the Reddit hive for advice:

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Now for the truly disgusting stuff:

Spoiler: Can you see it? Yes? No?

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How about now:

Spoiler: Full size picture under this cut

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https://www.reddit.com/r/Transgender_Surgeries/comments/1lx7ac2/what_can_be_done_fissure_from_perineum_to_vaginal/

wtf why is the plastic all warped, is the inside of the fake snatch that caustic? It's either that/whatever nasty goo is stored in that thing or the dumb fuck bought a fucking ribbed dildo like a total coomer and thought "this'll do"

 

[Otterly]

wtf why is the plastic all warped, is the inside of the fake snatch that caustic? It's either that/whatever nasty goo is stored in that thing or the dumb fuck bought a fucking ribbed dildo like a total coomer and thought "this'll do"

It’s lashings and lashings of lube

 

[Peaches Demure]

wtf why is the plastic all warped, is the inside of the fake snatch that caustic? It's either that/whatever nasty goo is stored in that thing or the dumb fuck bought a fucking ribbed dildo like a total coomer and thought "this'll do"

I don't think so. Natural vaginas actually are low pH (acidic if not exactly caustic) and it's been known for a looooong time that amholes cannot replicate the acidic environment of the vagina, and therefore end up with infections that women either don't get or have to be really sick to get. I think the dilator is just really low quality. I've seen similar "peeling" of the outer layer on my dog's plastic chew toys after he's had them for a while.

 

[Aunt Carol]

I’d be checking I still had all my kidneys.

The patient is a pooner with urethral lengthening; the sooner she starts viewing kidneys as ephemeral, the better she'll adapt.