I hate when I tell people I feel like I’m going to die alone and they say “well you’re so young there’s someone for everyone” is there?
I’m a trans man who’s only 5’5”, never wants to have sex, is awkward with affection, emotional, overthinks everything etc. I don’t blame people for not wanting to put up with that but it still hurts. The only people I’ve dated I was guilted into it , by cishet men who say they’re bisexual but then only date women and
pre transition trans men (who are some of my least favorite people in the world btw) . It’s obvious they just like the fact that I was trans, one of them literally told me “you give me both genders!” And only wanted me for my body, they also became very demanding when I said I didn’t want to have sex even though before we started dating
I said I was strictly asexual and that I would never want it and that if that would be a problem they’d have to date someone else.
You could say I could date another trans person or LGBTQ person to fix this issue,
but of the people I’ve interacted with who are also LGBTQ treat trans men like… trans men, and not just regular men. Maybe I’m being sensitive, you could make the argument “oh but that’s what you are, you are a trans man!” Yeah but those people scream “trans men are men” from the rooftops, so why would you treat me any differently than you would a cis man?
I’ve been constantly fetishized, undermined, coddled, treated condescendingly by people who think that they’re somehow being respectful. Just treat me like you would any other man. It’s so aggravating, like honestly at this point, I’d rather you call me a slur then be like “omg uwu trans king!! You’re so valid!

” and obviously like I said it’s not just LGBTQ people who infantilize other LGBTQ people, I’ve dealt with this behavior from cishet people as well - but it hurts even more when it comes from my own community because it’s like… why do they treat me this way? Do people genuinely like being treated like this?
When I get treated like this it just tells me that they don’t see me as a real man.
I’ve been thought based on personal experiences that I’ve lived through, that men only care about sex and women only care about money (yes I know “not all men” “not all women” I know it’s not ALL but it’s alot of them) and it’s hard to trust anyone now. Why do people have to fuck up my image of myself and say they don’t need sex but then guilt trip me into it ? I feel like I’ll never be enough for anyone.
Again I don’t blame anyone for not wanting to date me, and
even if someone did ask me out I would think they’re either A. A chaserB. A fetishizer C. Someone who’s just desperate and doesn’t actually want meD. Someone who can tell I’m a people pleaser E. Someone who will say they don’t want sex and then ask me for it
And on the off chance that I actually do find a genuine person ,
I would feel bad for making them put up with my emotional instability. I’m so lonely and I crave connection, I want someone to care about me and be cared for but I feel like I’m going to die alone because I can’t trust anyone.