TGWTG The Spoony One / Spoony / Noah Antwiler and Rachel Baker / @RaeAngel07 - The touching romance between a washed-up videogame reviewer throwing a decade-long pity party and his delusional Canuck stalker. #weaknotsick #donttellmehowtosulk

[30+GameOvers]

According to his no-longer-archived livejournal it was meant to be a Mazes & Monsters style flick about a FLGS, where the local GM tortures his player group but it's actually becoming real or something. IIRC it went nowhere since he couldn't write a script good enough to be worth putting on film and the idea floated in his mind for years before starting TSE.

Yeah, that sounds retarded. No wonder it went nowhere, especially since he would have to be the villain.

 

[demicolon]

I don't think the trajectory of Spoony's career would be any different however.

Something else would have make him activate the Sonichu behelit, it's the nature of that type of people. Like Rekieta who'd get into Adderall sooner or later if Juju did not got him into drugs and he'd burn his life down regardless. Spoony knew all this time he has rich parents who'd enable him for decades if he decided working is not for him.

 

[p1138]

Yeah, that sounds retarded. No wonder it went nowhere, especially since he would have to be the villain.

the livejournal is still up.

announcement

https://spoonyone.livejournal.com/8480.html

https://archive.ph/ks0r0

auditions(lol)

https://spoonyone.livejournal.com/14423.html

https://archive.ph/2Se3Q

first scene written

https://spoonyone.livejournal.com/9018.html

https://archive.ph/1d7Ur

Complaining about how much it costs to make 3600 copies because 8 cents a page was too much

https://spoonyone.livejournal.com/13534.html

https://archive.ph/5PYPc

Script revisions and auditions

https://spoonyone.livejournal.com/14023.html

https://archive.ph/1WinG

Front page of the livejournal was archived ages ago, archiving the rest of the pages now(each link is the previous 20 entries)

https://archive.ph/ifM1f

https://archive.ph/yH0Ba

https://archive.ph/DjRvV

https://archive.ph/Dsljy

https://archive.ph/jMfT0

https://archive.ph/oGPS7

https://archive.ph/rv5QQ

https://archive.ph/2CHnP

https://archive.ph/QxX7u

https://archive.ph/dNfq6

It's the old kenzerco forums where he got banned, got into slapfights with the regular users, found himself being fired as a volunteer writer for their magazine after they printed a "cut here to remove noah's movie review from your issue" along the edge of a page, etc. that are no longer available.

 

[Oliver Onions]

I remember Spoony getting raked over the coals by Allison over the rape joke, which.... yeah was edgy and a bit too far but its clear that's what it was. a joke.

That whole thing was retarded, but like so many lolcow crossroads it could have been easily smoothed over if Noah had just said 'okay sorry' even if he didn't mean it instead of repeatedly doubling down. But not Spoony, he had to keep tweeting until he ensured he'd pissed off absolutely everyone possible.

Leave no bridge standing, all in the name of a tepid rape joke.

 

[p1138]

That whole thing was retarded, but like so many lolcow crossroads it could have been easily smoothed over if Noah had just said 'okay sorry' even if he didn't mean it instead of repeatedly doubling down. But not Spoony, he had to keep tweeting until he ensured he'd pissed off absolutely everyone possible.

Leave no bridge standing, all in the name of a tepid rape joke.

Considering all of the complaining about people in his journal about his local gaming groups, his counter monkey videos where he ensures he won't get invited back to things(D&D AL, VtM games, kotd, etc.), and then blowing off the remaining friends he had inviting him over for holidays and such, telling off his fans on other forums/his own forums/streams, that's the one consistent thing about Spoony.

Like check out this post.

https://spoonyone.livejournal.com/4748.html

While I was there, the clerk Patty kept me there for about 90 minutes talking about how awesome I am, and how impressed she was with my Bent Spoon webcomic (strange, that...) and that my reviews are in print for Knights of the Dinner Table. I didn't mind, of course; I love talking about how awesome I am. She wanted to know what my goals were for the future with the whole movie-review thing, and I sort of gave a hem-haw "well I've got grad school..." pussy response. She really kicked me in the ass about how I need to get cracking on setting goals and trying to get my reviews off the ground and make a career out of it.

"I don't really know how to do that," I whined.

Well, she was actually very helpful. She told me I just have to get to writing letters and questioning newspapers and magazines, and most importantly, to prepare a portfolio of my published work. The notion that I have published work is a big edge, but I need to start exercising it. I'm going to look into pushing my work to the local free papers here, the New Times and Get Out, but I really doubt I'll get anywhere with them other than an impassive "We're not interested." But what the hell, I guess you never know until you ask, right?

So even the clerk at the local game store gave him a piece of advise that isn't unreasonable so the first thing he does is reflexively whine about it. Do you really think he followed through with anything?

Another counter monkey I'd never really met before (named Mike) agreed with most of this and gave me various other advice regarding my career. Evidently he's a published author as well and wrote several Deadlands supplements, and he seemed to have quite a lot of business savvy. He advised me to get my KODT deal arranged in writing since my current understanding between Jolly and I is an informal "You wanna write a review for me by the 10th?" basis. He also had some tips regarding my pipe dream to one day pursue a television show, and to get my writing published in a major publication-- not that KODT isn't a presigious publication, mind you...

Sure, KodT was a zine, however that still doesn't change the fact that it could have been considered a professional writing gig. But he didn't want to treat it like that.

The first thing he suggested was to take my Highlander fanfic and bury it in the deepest depths of my backyard, and never to mention it again. I suppose it makes sense, the very word "fanfic" raises a stigma over my whole work, not the least of which is a legal dilemma, because fanfictions are not legal uses of copyrighted characters, even if I'm not making any kind of money of them. In reality, my Highlander fiction doesn't use ANY characters and is more of an alternate-universe thingy that's very self-contained. But still, I understand where he's coming from. Even some people who read and respect my work won't even go near the fanfiction for the sole reason that it is a fanfiction. Which is a shame because I really think they'd like it.

This Mike guy was completely correct. But apparently Spoony considered his shitty highlander fanfic to be his magnum opus at the time. Funny how little things change.

Regarding the television show, he suggested that I simply go to the local public access television studio and make it happen. I'm never going to attract any kind of attention from an agent or get any kind of offer unless I get some solid television experience under my belt. The only ways to do that are to whore myself out as an intern for a television studio where I won't get paid and they'll treat me like a dog for two years, or to be my own boss and put a show on the air myself. I'd never really considered that, since I don't even know how to tune into the local public access channel, let alone go and contact them to set up a show idea. But it's something to think about. Who knows? Spoony Rant TV Show? Could happen!

But Mike had a big effect on me. He was nearly shaking me by the shoulders to get this stuff in my head. The last thing he said to me was "Noah, you're 24 and the one thing you're never gonna get back is these years. If you're going to do this, do it now. Don't waste one more day. Not one more day."

So instead of ensuring he can get experience in a professional environment because he's afraid of doing an unpaid internship(wtf?), he'd rather just fuck about and flail around on his own for a bit before giving up and moving on.

So...I guess I have to get started. Patty's offered to help out (she's a saint) with whatever I do. She told me how to set up a portfolio, mentioned that she knows some engineers who would work on a television show with me for free, and even mentioned that she knows reknowned author Michael Stackpole personally and might be able to hook me up with some sage advice from the Stack-man himself. Whatever happens I'm gonna do something every day to get nearer to that goal, even if it's just to send out an e-mail or fix up another entry in my portfolio. I guess Mike was right, I can't afford to waste any more time if I want to make this sort of thing happen. And I can't really count on much help to do it.

Ignoring how shit of an author Michael Stackpole is for a moment, clearly Spoony never took advantage of the advice and connections this Patty from the game store had. You know that modern day proverb about the moron on his roof in a flood who ignores someone going by in a canoe, ignores someone going by in a boat, ignores the rescue helicopter claiming god will save him, guy dies and meets god and asks why he didn't help and then god says something along the lines of "I sent you a canoe, a motor boat, and a helicopter"? That's how spoony has operated for the past 20 years and probably did so in highschool as well(although we don't have much about that and I'm not going to fault a dumb highschool kid for being a dumb highschool kid).

 

[Oliver Onions]

that's the one consistent thing about Spoony.

That's true it was totally on brand for him, I just find it amusing when e-celebs can't keep their foot out of their mouth. It's why I find DSP so funny when he goes on one of his flustered rants and takes 30 minutes to say nothing.

 

[IrishGuy088]

Guys I miss 2007 so much.

 

[Yamcha's Only Fan]

That whole thing was retarded, but like so many lolcow crossroads it could have been easily smoothed over if Noah had just said 'okay sorry' even if he didn't mean it instead of repeatedly doubling down. But not Spoony, he had to keep tweeting until he ensured he'd pissed off absolutely everyone possible.

Leave no bridge standing, all in the name of a tepid rape joke.

He did eventually apologize, which is the worst thing you can do to women like alison and marzgurl.
These two loved being the victim and rather than just go 'dude uncool, knock it off' they carried that torch for years.
It was clearly a bad joke but they acted like Noah actually had intentions to carry it out, and went to management to complain "MOM NOAH SAID A BAD THING."
Mike michaud was right when he called them children.

 

[Oliver Onions]

Mike michaud was right when he called them children.

It really was a powder keg of emotionally stunted idiots who all had Main Character Syndrome.

It's a wonder Channel Awesome took so long to fully implode, and even then I think most of whistleblowers in that giant Google doc would have kept their mouths shut if they felt like they could still milk CA for any perceived benefit.

 

[LordofCringe7206 Vol. 2]

He did eventually apologize, which is the worst thing you can do to women like alison and marzgurl.
These two loved being the victim and rather than just go 'dude uncool, knock it off' they carried that torch for years.
It was clearly a bad joke but they acted like Noah actually had intentions to carry it out, and went to management to complain "MOM NOAH SAID A BAD THING."
Mike michaud was right when he called them children.

The lesson here is that whether joking or not, it is never a good idea to have unstable and retarded personalities interact with each other. You are just creating a recipe for disaster no matter how you slice it.

It really was a powder keg of emotionally stunted idiots who all had Main Character Syndrome.

It's a wonder Channel Awesome took so long to fully implode, and even then I think most of whistleblowers in that giant Google doc would have kept their mouths shut if they felt like they could still milk CA for any perceived benefit.

It took so long because it needed the right environment for everything to take place. 2018 was perfect with social media becoming the village square, #MeToo being in full-swing and cancel culture wielding significant power. That and it took along time for enough fans to have become disillusioned with the site and wanting to see everything be burnt to the ground.

 

[mlanguishi]

He did eventually apologize, which is the worst thing you can do to women like alison and marzgurl.

And Marzgurl was the biggest hypocrite getting upset because she had made rape jokes on some podcast herself way back, but I don't really remember her going to hard on him. In fact they tweeted back and forth for many years I think until she blocked him out of the blue in 2023 cause he kept simping on her so much. It's one of the few times I could understand her side for blocking someone.


Similar to Linkara, she'll put up with any sex weirdness or jokes as long as they're shitlibs. Linkara I guess never came on to her so they keep going to this day. If you cross her politically though that's all that matters really.

 

[p1138]

It really was a powder keg of emotionally stunted idiots who all had Main Character Syndrome.

It's a wonder Channel Awesome took so long to fully implode, and even then I think most of whistleblowers in that giant Google doc would have kept their mouths shut if they felt like they could still milk CA for any perceived benefit.

Shit, considering the nonsense I found and posted in the armz thread a couple weeks back they've still got dreams of buying the channel awesome name from Doug and then re-creating the site for themselves as if that'll accomplish anything.

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Post in thread 'Kaylyn Saucedo / Kaylyn Dicksion / MarzGurl'

Jul 2, 2025

https://bsky.app/profile/kirakennedy.bsky.social/post/3lszinnm5nc2f

https://archive.ph/8i3kO

Oh look at that, it's a pile of people that can't move on with their lives and haven't done anything in almost a decade
Buying "channel awesome"? Setting up another stupid useless website with no draw so their stupid friends can get the old gang back together? Linkara wanting to make rchan/rapechan/rapechannel?


Yeah because that bullshit would totally draw traffic away from youtube in 2025, and there's so many...

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[Oliver Onions]

It took so long because it needed the right environment for everything to take place.

I always assumed it happened because MCNs like Channel Awesome and Machinima were no longer a necessity for small creators, so the "talent" decided they didn't need Papa Doug to protect them any more.

 

[LordofCringe7206 Vol. 2]

And Marzgurl was the biggest hypocrite getting upset because she had made rape jokes on some podcast herself way back, but I don't really remember her going to hard on him. In fact they tweeted back and forth for many years I think until she blocked him out of the blue in 2023 cause he kept simping on her so much. It's one of the few times I could understand her side for blocking someone.

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Similar to Linkara, she'll put up with any sex weirdness or jokes as long as they're shitlibs. Linkara I guess never came on to her so they keep going to this day. If you cross her politically though that's all that matters really.

She didn't go too hard on him over the rape joke. That was part of the reason why the flame war surrounding the controversy happened and a lot of fans took Spoony's side: Marzgurl wasn't angry over the rape joke. She instead showed a little sympathy because she knew Noah was in a bad place mentally at the time. It was the fact that Lupa was getting mad on Marzgurl's behalf over something she had no reason to be involved with. Besides just lashing out at a man because she is a cunt.

The controversy erupted the way it did because Lupa stoked the flames due to her own grievances with Noah and fans took notice of it.

 

[Yamcha's Only Fan]

I always assumed it happened because MCNs like Channel Awesome and Machinima were no longer a necessity for small creators, so the "talent" decided they didn't need Papa Doug to protect them any more.

Even in the early days they could have walked and formed a CA copy site. Easily could've since not one of them had a contract. None of them had the balls to try to step up and be the administrator. But that would mean pulling up their big boy pants and not being an artist which each of them wanted to be.
Now there's no need for a site like CA, even doug doesn't need it.

And considering how predictable CA members are, in another 10 years we'll get a reunion and they'll all suck Doug's dick about how things weren't really that bad and they always liked him.

 

[Captain Syrup]

That's true it was totally on brand for him, I just find it amusing when e-celebs can't keep their foot out of their mouth.

I think you hit the nail on the head for why so many of these early-days YouTube guys are now total jokes. They cannot tolerate not having the last word. Someone calls them out and they immediately go into 14 hr. shit-fits.

It's a wonder Channel Awesome took so long to fully implode

Channel Awesome cratered the second “recaps dressed up as reviews” stopped being legally ambiguous.

I’m sure Allison wants to believe she was the Svengali who brought the whole thing down from the inside, but that’s like giving a termite credit for collapsing a building which was already on fire.

 

[Falcon Sebben]

Even in the early days they could have walked and formed a CA copy site. Easily could've since not one of them had a contract. None of them had the balls to try to step up and be the administrator. But that would mean pulling up their big boy pants and not being an artist which each of them wanted to be.
Now there's no need for a site like CA, even doug doesn't need it.

Well Lindsay did have her site "Chez Apocalypse" where she and her friends posted their stuff but it didn't last. I was actually surprised that other former Channel Autism alumni didn't join her there. Lewis still has his site and both Spoony and Brad had sites of their own. Brad still does but it hasn't been updated in a while.

Long story short none of them had the juice to really go the distance.

Channel Awesome cratered the second “recaps dressed up as reviews” stopped being legally ambiguous.

Actually Doug and Brad are still doing that. It's the rest of them that have moved away from their old format because they no longer have the legal backing that Channel Autism has.

 

[Son of Big Boss]

All the women in CA were very unfunny and talentless, especially Lupa i literally never laughed at one of her jokes.
No wonder they created drama whenever possible, it was their only way to stay afloat.

 

[Oliver Onions]

Even in the early days they could have walked and formed a CA copy site. Easily could've since not one of them had a contract. None of them had the balls to try to step up and be the administrator.

Yeah that's what I mean. They needed the MCN to do all the grown-up stuff for them because they just wanted to make videos.

Looking back it's crazy to think there was a time when MCNs were even necessary, although I'm not sure the YouTube Partner Program that rendered them obsolete was the preferable timeline, but it's not like we're ever getting the Total Copyright Death we deserve.

I think you hit the nail on the head for why so many of these early-days YouTube guys are now total jokes. They cannot tolerate not having the last word. Someone calls them out and they immediately go into 14 hr. shit-fits.

What's really interesting to me is the handful who are like this but it benefits instead of ruining them. Like Destiny basically built his career off of always taking the most reprehensible or contrarian stances and he made an absolute fortune.

Then again Spoony has never been swept up in a million dollar revenge porn lawsuit so...swings and roundabouts.

 

[Captain Syrup]

All the women in CA were very unfunny and talentless, especially Lupa i literally never laughed at one of her jokes.

I laughed when she was doing those actor impressions.

Credit where it’s due, the bit about the black cop from Charmed. (Weirdly specific.) Like she found the one guy whose entire job was “Roger Murtaugh got stationed on the set of Buffy but refused to acknowledge it" and built a microeconomy of jokes around it.

But outside of that, her delivery is just so dry.

Destiny basically built his career off of always taking the most reprehensible or contrarian stances and he made an absolute fortune.

Destiny didn’t used to be this much of a cretin, I swear there was a time when he was just some guy in a gaming chair talking about tax brackets; not whatever this tedious Bill Maher persona is now.