I'm old to reading this thread, new to posting. I'm majorly tardy to the party, most stuff I say won't sound like anything tots wouldn't do/hasn't already done, but just a sort of enlightenment on what tots was like irl and what it was like knowing them on twitter. Gonna also say that i sadly don't have any convo screenshots from tots. Apparently twitter takes away any messages from the person who purges their acct in dm's. Same goes for skype.
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I met tots in june at a con. Keep in mind i didn't know who tots was. I hadn't even been on twitter at the time. (they're not appealing to look at up close and in person. trust me. they always looked like they haven't brushed their teeth in years. this was also when she had the buzzed head thing going on.) Also at this time i was 17 years old. Tots was 18. They asked how old i was and i told them. At that age 17/18 is a very blurred line so i didn't think anything of it. They were touchy, loud, kept asking about gross kinks, tots things. I wasn't new to disgusting fandom kinks, so it wasn't phasing. I was very naive at the time and i just wanted to have fun at this con, so i never thought anything of it. It's late on that i catch onto their shitty behavior and why i regret not seeing how bad they were before.
Not long after i got twitter and was mutuals with tots, i noticed a lot of the time they'd be asking for donations. At this time i didn't have my own checking acct so everything came out of my guardian's acct. The first time i gave tots money was bc they said they were running low on food money. Gave them $15. I sincerely thought they were poor at this time. Somewhere around this time too they bought a packer (the kind trans boys put in their underwear to give themsleves a fake penis.) Tots never used it as a packer btw. they bought it cause they said it "looked like totty's penis". It's not even a dildo. Just a fake flaccid penis that you need a budget to actually be able to buy.
The first time was fine but the second time was worse. Made a tweet one morning about buying things for friends as a goof and they publicly corner me on twitter with "please i'm starving". (it was manipulative as hell and i was riddled with guilt) I dm'd them and told them that it wasn't my money and asked for a commission to at least get a material thing out if it. (btw no shock here their art is garbage. they also offered "calligraphy" like. yeah sure.) For $15 i asked for lineart of one character. After i gave her the money she immediately blew me off. 2 weeks later on her twitter i see she'd bought 2 matsu bean pillows. (these btw)
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Those pillows go for $26 a pop. Plus shipping she'd spent like at least $60+. Apparently had no money for food but enough for expensive anime pillows. Sure jan. I never got that commission ever btw. Ever.
Already past the point of realizing that tots was manipulative. Months later after we hadn't spoke in a while they message me on skype trying to act all buddy-buddy. At this time they were living with Niq and Neggy and hadn't gotten fired yet. I sincerely tots was trying to become better friends with me but then they pop the question "btw do you have $20 you don't need?" At this point i had already caught onto tots shit so i said no. I had money btw, but like hell i was gonna let her have it. She kept begging and insisted it was because she "needed to get to work and had no money" and that she was gonna pay me back (yeah right). The biggest giveaway was when i actually asked her "why do you need it by today?" and she immediately bailed. (probably was gonna spend it on the newest super sonico tbh.)
A side note: tots never told me why she was fired from target. She said it was "too personal" to which i can assume whatever went down was probably something only she could pull off in order to get both her and her roomate fired. Still sad i never knew why. She also told me the full stories of her living with her roomates and played the victim card. (said she needed a month to get back on her feet, refused to wash dishes but made excuses as to why she couldn't, etc.)
To wrap up, when i saw this thread way back in the fall, i'm glad i wasn't the only one to catch on to tots manipulative, disgusting, sociopathic behavior. This isn't a very well organized post, so let me end it with the infamous periodmatsu drawing:
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