So, I'm a 52yo trans woman, who has been primarily female attracted for my entire life, but I've always had a dark fantasy about being used by a man and filled with cum. Shortly before I sobered up and realized I really was trans,
I went through a phase where I tried desperately tried to prove to myself that I was "only" gay. I cruised men in gay bars, and went home with several. I went to their homes with the sincere intent to let these men top me, but I always fled before consummating with anal intercourse. It always felt somehow wrong (for me) to be a man with other men.
This was all over 20 years ago, and in the meantime,
I've never once seriously considered sex with men. For most of that time, I've been celibate. Recently, 3.5 years into social and medical transition,
my celibacy ended with another trans woman about my age. Touching her erect penis awakened those old feelings in me, and I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. So I put up an ad on Fetlife,
searching for men who might want to rail me senseless and leave me dripping.
I also started the process of gettig on PrEP. And to say I've been getting interest would be an understatement.
Three men are already eagerly awaiting for my meds to kick in so they can have their turns pounding my ass, and I know now that the missing element, my full and honest expression as a woman. I'm still homoromantic, but I'm definitely also bisexual. I can't wait for it; I'm ready.
Anyway, thought I'd share that here, where my trans sisters may empathize and even maybe draw some hope.