Mostly skimmed it all because I'm getting major Elliot Rodger vibes and it's creeping me out, but this part sticks out to me the most, as it's a thought I've had since learning about this guy and I hate that he's confirmed it. If Russell was actually a good, selfless person who was making the attempt to live right and treat people with respect, and not hide behind his disability, I would feel sorry for him for this alone. But to admit the only reason he's trying to legalize prostitution in Utah is to "fill the void" so he won't try to kill himself anymore (and also so he doesn't have to travel far) I think sums up his personality perfectly.
Who knows why he was born with this disability, but as he admitted before, it clearly wasn't going to affect everything else about him, and he's had opportunities to overcome it and live a normal life despite it. I don't know who he thinks he is that he can have a say that
all 18-year-old men don't like being told "You're never going to get married in this life" (I have no idea where the hell he thinks he's "damned" for his disability, clearly he
wasn't keeping up on his scripture studies), but it's real fucking obvious this has all been about "me, my dick, and I" ever since he took notice of girls. It's not like he's the only person in the world who's never been married, some people just don't or can't get married for whatever reason.
So maybe he
didn't want to be reminded of that, or his parents/bishop/anyone worded things wrong/didn't properly teach him; I mean, who knows, someone
could've decided to marry him in this life, even if it was later in life. But chances of that ever coming true at this point have practically gone out the window since he one: wasn't seeing women as
people to begin with and every girl he's ever met knew this, and two: deluded himself into thinking never getting married in this life is literally Hell on earth. Despite how positively (or optimistically) the church paints the afterlife and heavily emphasizes living a righteous life so those who
couldn't get those blessings in their mortal life
will have that opportunity in the eternities, all Russell could think about was, "I don't want to wait or make that effort to be a good person, I want the pussy and I want it
now."
He deserves everything karma dishes out on him, and he'll continue to play the disability card, probably to his dying breath at this rate. I just hope he doesn't bring actual harm to anyone in the process.