📚 Megathread SRS and GRS surgeons and associated horrors - the medical community of experimental surgeons, the secret community of home butchers

[farmer andy]

they're running patient trials as we speak

Guys I don’t think there are jokes we can make that will be more ridiculous than what these people will really do. It’s impossible to parody.

 

[Chester Copperpot]

Sadly, I'm pretty sure that Lee is 32...

In recent videos he's been saying that he was born in '76, and is therefore nearly 50.

Unlike his typical surgery videos, where he hates what is done and is planning the next butchery from the recovery suite, he seems pleased with this one for now. I think it's thrown his lower face proportions off. He's definitely crossing into the uncanny valley region with his surgeries now.

Decades of effort and tens of thousands of dollars to try to catfish a straight guy. What a waste.

 

[TismFarmer]

In recent videos he's been saying that he was born in '76, and is therefore nearly 50.

Unlike his typical surgery videos, where he hates what is done and is planning the next butchery from the recovery suite, he seems pleased with this one for now. I think it's thrown his lower face proportions off. He's definitely crossing into the uncanny valley region with his surgeries now.

Decades of effort and tens of thousands of dollars to try to catfish a straight guy. What a waste.

By the actual look of him, even with filters, I'm thinking that the '93 birthdate he gave years ago was the one that was false, and the '76 birthdate is much more likely.
It also explains his urgency in getting surgeries, finding a partner, starting a new business...

 

[a kiwifarms user]

It sounds like she got nullification done. During nullification for women, they go in and do a total hysterectomy and then a vaginectomy and vulvectomy, so she would not menstruate anymore with the uterus and ovaries gone and then the vagina burned out and then sewn shut. As the vulva is also gone, all that is presumably left of her genitals is her urethral orifice. She is basically a real-life "female eunuch" like the title of that feminist book Germaine Greer wrote in the 1970's.

The only real difference between nullification and phalloplasty is that they try to do flesh origami with skin grafts, the clitoris, and the labia of the vulva to make an approximation of a "penis" and "testicles".

Godamnit. I know about those people who got piercings and body modifications to look like they have dragon horns or whatever so I guess I can't really ethically arguing against someone modifying their body on the basis that "no human looks like that" or "it isn't natural", but a 19 year old who aluded to past rape while talking about the procedure getting desexed?

 

[Hepativore]

Godamnit. I know about those people who got piercings and body modifications to look like they have dragon horns or whatever so I guess I can't really ethically arguing against someone modifying their body on the basis that "no human looks like that" or "it isn't natural", but a 19 year old who aluded to past rape while talking about the procedure getting desexed?

Without the protective folds of the labia of the vulva to keep out debris and bacteria, it would seem that it would leave a woman who has undergone "nullification" very prone to urinary tract infections.

 

[Candidae]

Late cause I forgot to hit reply (probably intending to archive the posts but I'm lazy and you get screenshots now):

All in all I would say having sex with her is about like having sex with a cis woman with vaginismus or something like that

Oh absolutely, the following absolutely describes a woman with vaginismus.

the reconstructed urethra is rather prominent, to the point where if you didn't know, you might think it was the vaginal opening.

Currently we can't really do penetrative sex with her receiving beyond a gentle finger.

she definitely needs plenty of lube bc self lubrication is very minimal

The angle to get into the vagina is a bit different, like you distinctly have to go down toward her backside then in

Just like a woman with vaginismus! Haven't we all mistaken the urethra for the vagina and accidentally fingered it? Always remember to go for the ass and make a harsh angle to get in! I'm sure this leads to wonderful and fulfilling sex between the happy couple.

I checked out her other posts, nothing worse than the hematoma described, but hilarious in opposition with her cope. Especially to see how things change from the start to now.

Spoiler: The Handmaiden Tales of a Failed Ditch

His surgical team and the initial glowing reviews made around the time of surgery



And of course a reminder to get back in the bucket. I'm sure she and her husband have absolutely no regrets on this surgery!


Also he was an alcoholic who transitioned after they married




Also a nurse who works on troon surgery patients. Don't know about if he worked on troons prior to transition, but he was certainly an alcoholic at the time


And now the rolling chaos of the "like natal" hole he got installed where she looks for solutions for him:



They're doing so well


It's funny they deleted her post, all things considered I think she gave it a glowing review. And how could it all go wrong? He was the 5th/6th person to get this surgery and the doctor took pictures of his stuffed animal to show a small child!

Bonus:

Of course she's doing all the work for him in trying to keep him alive


Girl WTF? This person loses their cat and now has to see.... That! I don't know if she did it to be quirky or what.


Even with a looksmatching wife, you can still clearly tell the dude here.

 

[Hepativore]

Godamnit. I know about those people who got piercings and body modifications to look like they have dragon horns or whatever so I guess I can't really ethically arguing against someone modifying their body on the basis that "no human looks like that" or "it isn't natural", but a 19 year old who aluded to past rape while talking about the procedure getting desexed?

What I would like to know is who the hell signed off on this or did the surgery? She is obviously suffering from psychological trauma such as PTSD, and so should have been disqualified for something like this, not to mention that I do not see how this would be something that would be recommended for anyone as I do not know what possible benefit this would bring.

 

[Chester Copperpot]

By the actual look of him, even with filters, I'm thinking that the '93 birthdate he gave years ago was the one that was false, and the '76 birthdate is much more likely.
It also explains his urgency in getting surgeries, finding a partner, starting a new business...

I'm of a similar vintage and my unscientific feeling is that he's also Gen X. Just the things he talks about from the past, plus his general political outlook.

I think the surgery thing is just an extension of his body dysmorphia. He'll keep hacking away until he dies. They all seem to do this. I'm assuming its a product of viewing womanhood entirely as an aesthetic - there is no just 'being' a woman, its a perpetually incomplete performance.

I might look in the mirror and think a nip or a tuck might freshen things up, but I won't feel 'more female'. My femaleness is not how I look, it is what I am.

 

[RonRiot]

“They’re really trying to get the ball rolling” is a choice when attempting to positively describe the cock butchering experience. I’d like to hope it’s the wife’s subconscious rebellion against the husband skinwalking her before he has the troon courtesy to divorce/murder her to chase cock.

Decades of effort and tens of thousands of dollars to try to catfish a straight guy. What a waste.

And any ‘straight’ guy he can bag as a tranny is part of the subset of ‘straight’ guys he could have bagged far more easily as a twink. Unhinged behavior.

 

[Aero the Alcoholic Bat]

Call me stupid but what is the point of having (possibly) multiple painful invasive and permanent surgeries to filet o' fish your body to create yourself a dick since apparently your natal junk causes you such terrible gender dysphoria and then deciding before surgery you now need/want both sex organs?
I mean what the hell happened to all that "My pussy is the problem mom and dad. I'll never be able to pass in the locker room unless some SS surgeon bolts a play-doh coke can on to my otherwise healthy body?"

Forgive me for the puzzle piece stickers, but never underestimate the things that can damage your brain to the point that you accept things that not even people with an IQ in the negatives would swallow.

* Trauma
* Gooning
* EPI
* CSA

 

[Renfrew_Customer_Support]

said

Perhaps. Maybe at least with both holes now to play with this poor creature can some day possibly experience what most of us experienced at 11 or 12 by accident.

 

[JohnnyG]

What I would like to know is who the hell signed off on this or did the surgery? She is obviously suffering from psychological trauma such as PTSD, and so should have been disqualified for something like this

What did ya'll think Increasing #Inclusive Access and Removing Barriers & Gatekeeping meant? Vibes? Papers? Not surgically castrating every molestered product of a broken home?

“They’re really trying to get the ball rolling” is a choice when attempting to positively describe the cock butchering experience

The saccharine enthusiasm for "new & exciting" methods always sounds more like Oprah's fad diet item of the week (acai berries! kale! quinoa!) than man-made horrors beyond your comprehension.

"OMG you guys, Dr. Chopitalloff out of West Sudan is piloting his new Reverse Enhanced KitchenAid Blender Method...I'll even get a commemorative plaque that says I'm Experimentee #3!"

 

[FattyMcFatterson]

Women of kiwi, what do you girls do when you're farting from your vagina? It doesn't sound good...

AFAB folk have doctor ignoring our symptoms of health issues in general, and even more so when it comes to gynocological problems.

TMI but since you asked ... In addition to queefing, which is embarrasing but normal; Horrible period pains, soaking through Maxi Pads like the doors in The Shining, cysts on your ovaries, Sex Life hampered by period problems, Zero desire to get pregnant let alone keep it and want to get an Ablation or removing your Uterus? We cant Approve that! (Rinse, wash, repeat through your 20s)

You have a husband now? He agrees - cause a man's approval is Imperative for a womans Body atonomy - and also doesnt want kids? We still cant approve! (Rinse, wash, repeat for another decade)

Teenager who wants a full hysteroctomy because they identify as a dude? Yeah; lets yeet that shit out!

 

[a feel]

AFAB folk have doctor ignoring our symptoms of health issues in general, and even more so when it comes to gynocological problems.

Women. You mean women.

 

[Audit]

Women. You mean women.

It's a lot to expect that a lost redditor taking a sarcastic joke seriously knows what a woman is.

 

[FattyMcFatterson]

It's a lot to expect that a lost redditor taking a sarcastic joke seriously knows what a woman is.

Sorry for wanting to clarify Im talking about *women* bleeding from our vaginas instead of trans women AKA MTFs AKA dudes with an inverted dick that cant stop oozing blood and literal shit in a trans horrorshow thread...

 

[Magic Pickle]

Aw, guys, let's not fight. This holiday season, we must remember what really matters: laughing and gawking at horrible mutilations that serve as proof that Hell has opened up and the devils have overtaken the earth. Doesn't that sound fun?

Shortly after his surgery date of October 25th, 2025, a loony troon was unfortunate enough to get the Fistulissic outcome of having a bag of his own turds strapped to his person at all times for the foreseeable future. This is so upsetting to him that he's taken to Reddit to vent his outrage and pain, but this has lead him to being banned multiple fucking times as he's tried in vain to tell his story. But don't you worry, bestie: here at the Farms, we always listen to trans women...
Comfortable-Foot5682 (Dr. Heidi Wittenberg; vaginoplasty)
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Result of a Wittenberg “vaginoplasty”​

I know this will be deleted since everyone wants to worship this surgeon!

Great you had a perfect surgery with her but you know what when she does this to you she sends you a voicemail, no bedside “motherly” chat!

Just gaslighting and walking away when she wants to wash her hands and leave you with years of out of pocket recovery surgeries she caused!

Spoiler: Call that a bear, that shit's so grisly!

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Heidi Wittenberg is a hack!​

Had bottom surgery in October, this was supposed to be the last best surgery and I came to her for help with finally being me! She ended up giving me a rectal perforation with a three inch vaginal canal which turned into a fistula and now no vaginal canal and an added gift of a colostomy bag!!
Happy fucking holidays!!!!
She left me a voicemail after the surgery did not have the integrity or courage to tell me bedside I was 2000 miles away from home and this narcissistic egomaniac treats me like that?!?!
Her PA actually thought coming into my room and gaslighting me with the virtues of having initially a 3 inch vagina was perfectly fine because “many” women have a three inch vagina?!?!?
Once the fistula was found during my first post op and my vagina was now only 2 inches they wanted nothing to do with me. They told me to let the 2 inches to fail and cover the fistula and sent me on my way to deal with a colon surgeon! They just wiped their hands of me!
Heidi only cares about her wins if she fails she just walks away and lets you figure it out!
Stay far away from MoZaic Care in San Francisco!
Also if you don’t already know California is sanctuary state for hack surgeons, good luck finding any representation for malpractice since the max you will get is 430,000 dollars and no law firm will spend the time when they can get millions off your case. If you do find someone you might get less than half of that maximum and is it really worth having a colostomy bag for life?!?

Spoiler: More of his schizoposting down below.

[–]Realistic-Bill-9775 [original OP under new account]
Wittenberg ruptured my rectum, caused a fistula at day 4 of recovery, no I was not running around town I was laying down in my VRBO like everyone else hoping the rupture would not blow out but it did.
I have no vagina and the thing on my belly is where I have to poop out of now because she ruined the place you hold your poop until it comes out of your anus!!! So i have to empty a bag 3-4 times a day!
Nobody want to believe this happened a wants to blame me for what happened!! Unlike others that got her best treatment and was given motherly love at their bedside all I got was a voice mail telling me she fucked me up and basically tough!

[–]Plus-Philosophy-1217 [original OP under new account]
I am the original poster, the mods seem to not want me to keep this thread alive or post on other subs because with in a hour or 4 my accounts will be banned.
So has she told everyone that she has created a fistula during surgery that she is blaming prostate scarring as her reason she ruptured your rectum? After looking into this phenomenon cancer is the only thing I can find that causes prostate scarring, no HRT meds anal sex does not cause it!
I have never had a positive PSA test nor been diagnosed with any form of cancer! Dutasteride is even used to shrink the prostate once cancer has been diagnosed and would not cause scarring!
She is using this as a scapegoat to cover up her incompetence!!!!

[–]Bright_Bug6022 [original OP under new account]
She also left a ton of erectile tissue (as stated by her in her post op notes) that feels like I am getting an erection?!?
What kind of surgeon is she?!? She is not helping patients at all and just complaining mining the pattern of harm physicians have been propagating on transgender people for decades!!
Please feel free to post your Wittenberg horror stories, the more she is exposed for the fraud she is the less harm she does to anymore trans patients!

[–]Due_Direction_6020 [original OP under new account]
The point in showing that is because she butchered me and gave me a fistula from rupturing my rectum! That’s how I have to poop now! I have no vagina and at least 4 more surgeries over 2-5 years to fix her fuck up!!
A Wittenberg vaginoplasty gets you the stoma aka your new vagina!!

[–]Due_Direction_6020 [original OP under new account]
Not AI not a fake account I took those pictures of myself on November 20th 2025 and November 17th.
All you have to do is look at the meta data. So now you see the kind of work she did no me!!
You think I am lying?!?
All of you are horrible people for thinking I am lying and I have to empty a bag of poop 3 times a day and have no vagina because of her horrible work!

[–]Due_Direction_6020 [original OP under new account]
She did nothing, I fired her and I have a new surgeon! I have to get MRI’s and a rectal surgeon consult next week to see if I have to wear this bag for life depending on how bad she fucked me up!
Then if I can get surgery in maybe 6 months the wait another 3-6 months to heal, then get my colon put back together wait another 3-6 months to heal. If that works and no complications I can maybe get a vaginoplasty revision and heal for over a year to see if that works. But also have to be able to accrue time of which I spent 2 years accruing for this surgery she fucked up!
She wasted so much time and money and emotional energy that she should be fired or lose her license! I have sunk over 12k in the last month with her and will need 2-3x that over the next 2-5 years!

This post-op psuedopussy is sure to gross out many a Kiwi, but don't be too shocked by its coloring - OP appears to simply be a darker-skinned individual and the flash of the camera isn't playing nicely with his rothole. However, for everything else, please have a barf bag ready, because this is definitely not a pretty kitty.
Suitable-Whereas-109 (Dr. Del Corral and Dr. Liles; jejunum (AKA intestinal) vaginoplasty)
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Wound separation advice​

Hello everyone, I’m seeking advice. I am 11 days postop jejunum Vaginal plasty I’m having some wound separation at the bottom of my canal near the Anus …I reached out to my doctor about it. He said that it’s normal which I already knew 30% women experienced this because of dilation… he suggested silver with nitrogen. I googled that and it said silver nitrate before I buy it. I need to know if I’m getting the right thing and if anyone else knows any type of brands or products you can suggest.

I will say I’m not in any pain at all and dilation is going well so it’s just a matter of the warmth separation issue that I’m trying to fix and I’m satisfied with the results because once it healed it’s gonna look so nice. I will attach a picture when I first saw it. please excuse the area lol because it was really black after being in a wound VAC for eight days.

Spoiler: I kind of want to call it a portapotty, but that seems insulting to portapotties.

Another appearance from a Wittenbergian trench, though this one is in remarkably better shape than the first one we saw. But let's not pretend this thing isn't also fucking hideous, which leads me to believe Dr. Wittenberg takes a bit too much joy from carving up trannies like Christmas turkeys.
Depressed_Girlypop (Dr. Heidi Wittenberg; vaginoplasty)
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Dr. Heidi Wittenberg - San Francisco CA - Post Op Day 0 Results​

Hey all! Not quite a week out from surgery but incredibly pleased with my results and with the bedside manners of both Dr. Wittenberg and her staff. I can’t say anything like dehiscence won’t happen, but the follow up visit is next week. Currently still catheterized but very excited to see the results once everything is healed. PPT vaginoplasty.Feel free to ask anything.

Spoiler: Is Wittenberg a TERF? Discuss down below.

4 weeks ago, a father of a toddler got his dick ripped off and turned into dumpster pastrami that even hobos wouldn't touch. Thankfully, he has pictures for us to see - and a very detailed schedule that involves mostly laying around and recovering as his body tries to figure out what the fuck he did down there. According to the flesh origami that has taken shape, his anatomy is just as confused as I am.
SurgeryPostPanda (Dr. Michele Fascelli; penile-inversion vaginoplasty (PIV))
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Dr. Michele Fascelli - Cleveland Clinic - PI Vaginoplasty - 4 Week Update​

It’s been four weeks since surgery. It feels crazy to think that it’s both been that long since surgery and also that it has only been that long…

The past few weeks at home have genuinely been quite a bit more difficult than I was anticipating. As time has gone on getting in and out of bed has gotten easier and even moving around the house is largely pain free. Unfortunately, while the pain medication is working I am still quite uncomfortable most of the day.

The swelling has subsided significantly as can be seen in the photos. As I have mentioned before though, with less swelling comes more nerve activity and that has been difficult to deal with. The medication helps significantly but the last hour between doses can be pretty intense.

I should mention that the regimen at home can be pretty time consuming. The way that I have been doing it is:

7 am - wake up take medications w/ small snack, make coffee
8 am - finish coffee, do prep and dilation
9 am - shower, post shower wound care, clean up from dilation
10 am/noon - read, work on stuff, take a nap
12 pm - lunch
1 pm - next round of medications, do prep an dilation
2pm/4pm - clean up dilation, do more reading/work
4pm - Toddler comes home from school so all hell breaks loose.
5 pm - Have dinner
6 pm - Try to spend time together as a family
7 pm - next round of medications, do prep an dilation
8 pm - clean up from dilation, shower, wound care
9 pm - have something with chocolate and go to bed
1 am - wake up for next round of medications
7 am - repeat…

It’s been tough with this schedule for me to feel like getting into any big activities. Yes, there is about 2-4 hours each day, but between the discomfort and everything, I have struggled to fill that time with something productive. Mostly I have just been listening to music, taking naps, and reading. I have other things I set up ahead of time that I should do that would be more impactful but I just don’t have the motivation currently to work on them. I don’t want myself to worry about it, stress isn’t helpful to the body when it is trying to heal.

One pretty unpleasant experience has been having the skin on the opening and inside of the canal slough off as it heals. When it first happened I hadn’t noticed when I used the restroom and saw it fall out of the vaginal opening in the bathroom mirror. This is apparently normal but it still freaked me out. It was a whole thing and I ended up calling the doctors in a state of panic. They assured me it was normal and help guide us on how to trim it. I think we had to do this twice at various points during the last few weeks.

The hematoma has been shrinking but still hasn’t gone away completely. The primary swelling that remains is the tissue between the urethra and the hematoma. I am not totally sure at this point what the swollen tissue is a part of. I am pretty sure it is not part of my inner labia…I guess I’ll find out more once the swelling goes down.

Dilation hasn’t really been an issue. I am currently primarily using blue with purple as a warm up. I have been able to fit teal at the end of a dilation session so I feel good about getting there soon. Personally, our strap is slightly smaller than teal so if I can get there I won’t need to go any larger.

The bulk of the stitches were removed at the 4 week appointment. They left the sutures as those should work themselves out. Having the stitches removed was kinda painful (especially the one through the clitoris) but mostly it’s just an uncomfortable pressure and/or tugging. I can say that once they were removed, the shooting pain in my clitoris did decrease which was much appreciated.

Lastly, my diet is finally back to normal. This is great for the most part but as I am laying around most of the day I have started to gain weight. I will need to keep track and be mindful with portions again.

I think that is about it for this update. Stay tuned for more in another few weeks or so.

Spoiler: Like the blossoming of an evil flower.

Had enough vaginoplasties yet? Too bad, because it's basically Cock Chop Christmas for those who find them the funniest of all troon procedures. This one, deceptively, doesn't actually look too bad at first, but if there's any similarity to be found between a stinkditch and Pandora's box, it's that nothing ever, ever good comes from looking inside.
Hrtparty (Dr. Brandt; vaginoplasty)
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Penile inversion with Dr Brandt at tower health, reading pa​

So I am about 4 weeks post op and I am extremely happy with the dr, staff, treatment and results. And I haven’t even been cleared to do anything with my new vagina yet.

I made it a goal to get to my ideal weight so I went in at 173 and pretty darn fit. Running and lifting every other day and so on. Compared to the girls that didn’t I apparently was mobile and active way faster so I really recommend getting fit before going in.

You totally need someone to help cook and clear and take care of you for about 2 week post op. For me after that I was making my own food and able to do laundry and such.

I did need silver nitrate for the entrance since the skin wasn’t healing well but that is common.

Please feel free to dm for questions.

Spoiler: Heeeere's Johnny!

Okay, okay, the boys have had their fun in the sun. Time for the ladies to take the stage!
In the wake of getting her sad little noodle of a rotdog stapled to her body, this TiF is enduring some serious necromorphification of her skin grafts with her arm and leg left oozing, red and raw from the procedure even a couple of weeks after the procedure. While the photos may be shocking, I bring to you some Christmas cheer: the butcher that did this to her will no longer be able to practice gender medicine due to her clinic's blanket rulings about tranny healthcare. Rejoice!
MrT1gg3r (Dr. Weinstein; radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty)
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Skin Graft healing troubles​

I've been having a hard time healing my split thickness graft to my arm. The wound vac came off last checkup and shortly after I developed tons of blisters all over my arm. We think the cover I was using was causing friction because I was using my arm too much. In attempts to heal it, we'd wrap it at night with medihoney and xeroform but it kept sticking to the graft and pulling skin. Now I'm covered in scabs, but we figured out that it was too wet initially and would dry overnight into the xeroform. Apparently there is a too wet, and you have to be really careful in the early stages of the wound graft to not let it get too wet or too dry. This is one aspect I definitely wish I had had more information on and felt a little underprepared by my surgery team. Everything has dried up now for the most part but I've definitely got a couple pockets that have scabbed pretty badly and some that fully lost the skin I fear.
My wound care aid recommended products called Tefla gauze in place of the xeroform, and that has helped tremendously. Tefla is a true non-stick as it has a kind of sheen coating. It does keep more moisture so you have to use less to almost know ointment based on where your skin is at in healing.

Spoiler: All of that brutality for that limp li'l shrimp?

This isn't this TiF's first time showing up in the thread, though from what I gathered, it's the first time we got a chance to see her bouncing baby boy; last time she appeared, she made playful allusions to her "dick birthday" which is not defeating the whole "rotdogs are psuedobabies for pooners" allegations. Now we get to see the little lad who makes Mama so proud, and trust me, you'll wish you hadn't!
No_Incident_8489 (Dr. Keith, Dr. Sterling and Dr. Paik; radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty with vaginectomy and glansplasty + metoidioplasty with buccal graft, urethral lengthening, scrotoplasty)
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9 weeks post op full meta (unburied), 2+ years post op phallo​

Pissing vid: https://www.reddit.com/r/Metoidioplasty/comments/1ovl71y/pissing_video_9_weeks_post_op_full_meta_unburied/ (archive)
Movement/angles vid: https://www.reddit.com/r/phallo/comments/1ovlhof/9_weeks_post_op_full_meta_unburied_2_years_post (archive)
Currently coming up on 14 years on T.
Spring 2021: hysto
Spring 2023: stand-alone vaginectomy (just canal removal, no perineal reconstruction, so everything looked and mostly felt the same)
Fall 2023: RFF phalloplasty shaft only, no UL, no scroto, no glans, no burial, YES nerve hookup. Done by Dr Keith in NJ
Fall 2025: full meta with buccal graft UL, scrotoplasty, and perineal reconstruction, plus glansplasty on my phallo dick. UL done by Dr Sterling, scroto and glans done by Dr Paik (both in CT)
I‘m now 9 weeks post meta/scroto/UL/glans. Overall pretty happy! My front hole dysphoria was debilitating and I’m so glad it’s finally fully gone. It feels weirdly so so normal and natural, though I plan to go pelvic floor PT since there’s a lot of stress and trauma held in that area. My scrotum is cute as hell. My glans is doing a lot for my connection to my phallo dick, it feels good to have a difference in texture, shape, and color along the length of my dick, as opposed to being one smooth shaft.
I knew what I had to work with and wasn’t expecting to clear my fly, my desire with UL was to pee from my meta dick, the potential for sex fluids to also come from there, and for peeing standing up in private spaces or in the woods. My meta dick is still fairly flush with my scrotum and surrounding tissue, so even while pulling everything back I still get an unavoidable dribble down the front of my scrotum, such that I have to dab myself off with TP each time. At my most recent post op, the surgeons suggested that a future revision to clip off some excess tissue and tubularize the urethra further to the tip might help, but I’m going to see how swelling reduction over the next several months might change things too. I’ve been pissing standing at home and in single stall toilets, plus a couple times on hikes, and it’s been really fun.
I currently don’t experience my meta dick as having much of an underside, it’s still kinda stuck to my scrotum and honestly feels less mobile than pre op. Probably related to my length and the work needed for UL, plus the usual swelling etc. At the post op, my surgeons suggested that there are some revisions possible to create more underside length, which I will likely pursue although not soon. My current next stages will probably be A) a pump erectile implant for my phallo dick, and mayyyybe a ball implant (unsure if a ball would make using my meta dick even more difficult), and then B) some nips and tucks to free up more meta dick underside, clear some tissue away from the upper parts of my meta dick, and maybe a mons lift or lipo depending how I feel.
This recovery involved more acute pain than phallo for me. Phallo was intense in an exhausting, prolonged semi-numb discomfort kind of way, while meta‘s preserved nerves meant my dick and scrote were hurting p much immediately lol. Meta recovery went much faster for a multitude of reasons and it was a lot easier to find ways to have fun since I was way more mobile and had the use of both hands. I only had a foley catheter in, and only for 3 weeks, which I think was ideal for me psychologically and physically. I had some wound separation plus a pseudomonas infection around 2-3 weeks post op, but that cleared up and healed over by about 6 weeks.
Overall, I’ve had a good experience with this surgical team and feel like they did good work on me. They are also very local to me and it was deeply pleasant recovering at home and not having to travel. I will say, though, that my girlfriend has also been pursuing bottom surgery with them, and she’s had a very different experience. She is a fat trans woman seeking penile preserving vaginoplasty, and while they seemed initially willing, discussed risks with her that she accepted, and asked her for letters and said they’d schedule a date, they then dropped the ball on communication, to the point where I had to bring her to my post op to get them to respond to her multiple emails from 6 weeks ago asking about the surgery date they had promised her months ago was “penciled in”. It’s fine if a surgeon feels unsure performing something that they’re not experienced with, but hemming and hawing and ghosting a patient for weeks, instead of clearly communicating what‘s going on, is just not it. The worst I experienced during my surgery, pre or post op, was that we had to track down anybody to give me actual discharge instructions when I left the hospital, and they didn’t give me enough painkillers upon leaving the hospital. Everything else was fine. All that to say—people can have very different experiences w the same surgeon, sometimes to confusing and distressing degrees. I would still recommend this team for most people and think that they did a very good job on me.
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Spoiler: Rosemary's Baby.

Whew, okay, my retinas are starting to detach as a form of protest. Let's switch out to some text posts to end this macabre collection.
Last year, known ex-drug fiend OneBlueEyeFish was showing off her nasty arm graft (as seems to be the wont of the crazy girls who get RFF), but now she's wallowing in despair over her pointless boner surgery being cancelled because the patient before her had emergency complications that required more attention from her doctor than her bonerizer. She's really throwing a pity party in this one, so let's hope OP stays clean enough so that this dood can get a doodad for her doodle.
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Surgery canceled​

TW: Negative self talk, depression
Last minute, my surgery was canceled this morning. I knew it was bad news, the second i heard my surgeons voice on the phone. I wanted to cry, but i choked up. These things happen, the patient ahead of me has emergency complications. There wont be time for my surgery. 10 minutes into the hour to cancel my Uber, so i was charged a $30 cancelation fee. I just spent money yesterday on easy to make food for myself after my surgery. Sigh….i don’t have the kind of money to blow on food, I’m not going to eat at the time. I must continue to mask up and be cautious to not get sick for even longer. I do this any way, but I’m much more on the ball over it. As we all know, these surgeries depend on being healthy and having enough money to scrounge up for gauze and frozen tv dinners. (Ok that last part is for those that have done this alone) This is a huge set back for me financially.
On top of it all, i feel like i cant cry about this. Like to even say I’m disappointed or crushed, feels like i should be ashamed…..all because this surgery was about getting an erectile device implanted. It’s like a “ha ha, aww couldn’t get your boner device? Crying because you cant get it up otherwise? Now everyone can see how sad you are about it freak!” Whats worse is that i know already, the worst things people say. I really don’t need them to say it irl. Or say the things that solidify my negative conclusions. The cruelty always feels like it comes from “penis privilege”. Maybe they don’t think about how badly messed up it is. To be a man thats had to exist this way. Idk. Feels quite cruel to not try and stand in my shoes.
I guess i just wish every human would think about how it sounds to hear, that i might need to accept never experiencing intimacy in a way that connects me to my partner. Or “theres more ways to have sex”. Yes i know this. Ive HAD to know this. THIS WHOLE TIME! Like my WHOLE life! Ive not had that moment, of connection and ecstasy with a partner. Nor have i had, the instinctual drive in my mind, completed through my body. When i say “i feel incomplete.” It’s not some dumb teenager saying it. It’s a sad empty man thats tried everything his whole life. To have a REAL physical connection, with his partners. Boys get to dream about it, knowing it will be a reality. And instead I’m having to stay quiet about a dream not realized. All because no one thinks, i should think it’s that important.
It would be so nice to have something to look forward to in this life. (Not like travel is a fukn option!) Im missing an important element in my sex life. The most basic of requests. To function as every other man. (A man who gets depressed over it like any other man) It’s all i ever wanted, since i was a teen. I feel I’m not asking for too much. It’s basic mens healthcare really.
Venting over, I’m exhausted.

This FTM with enough disabilities to render her stuck in a wheelchair and homebound is considering getting a fake dick sewn to her already beleagured, weary anatomy because... um, it's just validating, you know? But first she must consult her fellow Sisters of the Cavetown Playlist before she can proceed comfortably instead of doing the rational thing like talking to anyone who actually went to medical school.
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Any disabled people with phallo (any type)?​

Im interested in phallo eventually (need to medically stabilize and get hysterectomy), but I’m concerned how my disabilities would impact surgery and healing.
I have diagnosed: functional neurological disorder, hyper reflexia, thoracic outlet syndrome, hyper mobility, venous stasis, migraines, and some mental health stuff.
I have suspected (by medical professionals): hypermobile Ehlers Danlos syndrome, postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome, chiari malformation, cranial cervical instability, myalgic encephalomyelitis, gastroparisis, and probably other comorbid conditions to hEDs.
I am almost completely home bound outside of appointments, and am a full time manual wheelchair user. When I had top surgery, I wasn’t allowed to push myself for 6 weeks.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed (2022) with no complications, and had top surgery (2024) with minor complications.
Top surgery itself went fine, healing was the problem. It worsened my MECFS symptoms, and made me go from mild to moderate-moderately severe. I’m still not back to what I was before top surgery. I also had issues getting parts of my incisions to close, which left thick, hard scars in some spots. I also have “cigarette paper scarring” where the scars wrap around my sides, under both arms.
I am possibly having 2 medically necessary surgeries in the next year or two, so that’ll give me more information to go off of.
I guess I’m just looking for a little hope?

Finally, another update, this time from Legal-Ad4972. On today's episode, he's fearful of the next doctor he was about to lay under the knife of - a one Dr. Stiller - due to an article lambasting him; yet without Dr. Stiller's potentially healing touch, he is left with nothing left but the darkest parts of his mind tempting him towards a noose and a stool. Do a flip!
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Struggling. Need another revision, need advice. Need a friend. Rant​

What do people think of Dr Stiller? I read a horrific article about him the other day. He operates out of Spokane Washington and I was considering him for a revision surgery and that article really freaked me out. I’ve already had three surgeries and am still without any function or aesthetics. I am sort of desperate and out of many options. I’ve met with 8 surgeons total and I’ve had 3 surgeries. It’s hard to have hope and then when I read articles like that I am genuinely horrified, but it fits into how I feel about surgeons because I’ve only had horrible experiences and regret ever having surgery and think about suicide every day. Does anyone have reasons for me to ignore the awful article I read about Dr Stiller? Anyone wealthy and want to sponsor my 4th surgery. I have no depth. No labia minora. No labia around the introitus. Painful clitoris. Lumpy/angular mons. Introitus is distinctly detached from the vulva. It’s a mess. I pee all over myself and have erectile tissue left and it took me three painful surgeries to get this far. Honestly, the more I think about it the more I just want to end my life. I feel like an alien and I don’t have human genitals. I’m not passable and am not gendered female anywhere in the world. My license now says female and I went to the ER yesterday and still was written up as male. What’s the point in living if my identity is only seen by a handful of people? I have no sexual function and the discharge and odor is non-stop. I don’t know what to do but I need help. I really do want to die. I can’t talk about a botched GCS with anyone. There is no where to go for support with it. I think about self harm constantly. Seriously what do I do? I don’t know how to handle it. The two year anniversary of my original surgery is 2 years ago in 3 days. Almost 2 years since I had a functioning human body. I font know how to grieve it and move on. It’s all day every day. I don’t exist. I’m not real to the world. I see articles of trans people under attack every day. I see hormones and gender affirming care being under attack constantly. I hate myself so dang much and don’t know how to deal with my situation. I want help.

 

[Positron]

Keith, Dr. Sterling and Dr. Paik; radial forearm flap (RFF) phalloplasty with vaginectomy and glansplasty + metoidioplasty with buccal graft, urethral lengthening, scrotoplast

Just several days ago someone asked in this thread whether we saw girls getting both a rotdog and a hyena clit. You're welcome.

 

[Bigideas McTucker]

Today marks the last time I will enter this thread too soon after eating.

 

[Hepativore]

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He is going to have a bag stuffed with something else this Christmas instead of presents!

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I see somebody brought out the Christmas ham...

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It is like one of those tropical flowers that smell like rotten meat because they are fly-pollinated.