1. obsene ammount of time on his crappy job
i d call 14 hour shifts "obsene ammount of time", you think he works that? note even 8 on average.
and thats including everything.
and dont forget, thats the way he learned to like it.
give a dog in isolation a chew toy and he ll chew it constantly.
thats what i mean by "learned", his cult and detractors are his whole social support structure.
without all this social media shit around him, who is he? what is he? does he exist, if noone posts a tihydp?
you think he needs a website for his "job" or is it just an "attention beacon"?
if he was so hard up for money, wouldnt an (according to him) costly site few frequent be the first thing to go?
his whole internet activity has become his life.
he has nothing else.
watch his haters dissapear and watch him fall into depression and obscurity.
2.zero privacy
wrong. whatever he wants to keep private, he keeps private. he just divulges information that thinks will benefit him, along with minor "slips of the tongue".
3.laughingly low ammount of money.
missanthropes cant be choosers. you cant isolate yourself from the world and expect to be pulling ceo levels of cash.
besides, perception is key. to him, formerly living in a condo, alone, working a job his dad got him, hating it and drinking yourself stupid each night while playing games...the life he has now is paradise.
a paradise with some problems but still a paradise.
phil is like the guy that won the lottery, got the nice house and car and is happy to be scraping by with few hundred bucks every month.
4. pure hell to me.
again, perception is key.
you might be well adjusted to society, phil is not.
cant you tell?
he constanly trys to "numb" himself with fast food, video games, ego power trips, attention.
zero appreciation and joy from playing games.
just a "pill" to numb the pain.
anything to distract himself from himself.
"whats that? i m 15 and everyone thinks i m full o shit and an asshole? nobody wants to associate himself with me? well thats fine...i ll autismo-devote myself to a video game and become the best there ever was...i ll show them, they ll respect me then and i ll get that big boobed girl, i ll show them"
socially, he has forgoten "how to human"...thats assuming he ever knew in the first place which is debatable.
its just a different path down elliot rodger lane. thats all.
you might hate living in st. petersburg but to a guy living in siberia, st petersburg might look like heaven.
a marathoner runners 10k practice run is hell to some. not to the marathoner.
when you are pig, a pig sty is right for you.
i think he is beyond fear at this point.
like a cornered rat he almost at full on "Survival mode".
"pump out vids, fight the tweeter fights, show them kids on my forum whose boss, lie, flipflop, project, anything...i gotta survive"
fear gave the wheel to paranoia.
when he stays up late, peering through the blinds, with a heavy object behind the door,ready to start drunkenly swinging on the fist shadow, its not because "housework got him pumped up" and he cant sleep.
its because he expects sok strike force 5 to jump in through the windows and throw acid sharpened empty game cases at him.
he developed this magical thinking where "if i stay up late guarding the lower floor, they cant get on the first floor where they expect me to be sleeping. nevermind that i go on grocery and fastfood runs during the day, nooo, i m safe then. sok forces are also part vampire you see."
magical thinking. gotta love it.
That gigantic house must look like swiss cheese to him right now. So many windows, so many openings, so close to the gated community gate.
oh and its obvious he is playing "angry phil" just for the camera at least 40% of the time, failing on purpose.
he has said so himself, in an old vlog
"back then people wanted more rage more fails, so i played it up for the video"
