Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville

[Anaiah Carlson]

Your story changed when it was highlighted how you were not really telling her everything and have not shown any evidence other than your own words. This does two things: first, it dispels none of my doubts that you're pretty much full of hot air about aiming to either improve or make something of your life. This is doubly so given that you admitted to the card, and have not scanned and uploaded it, though even that's rather weak compared to other, stronger evidence.

The second is that you are rather clearly not actually taking the therapy seriously if you are actually going, which is to be expected from a person who has a broken personality. They are mechanically unable to really see just what was wrong with them, even when they have extremely blatant signs like being brought before court due to specific behaviors and accidentally strengthening the victim's case when trying to clear up misunderstandings. This means that congratulations, you are not bothering to reflect upon and realize what is up with your mental state. Also means you're wasting the poor person's time.

You do still have a shot with the paycheck, but until you do, I cannot believe you are able to self-improve and lack the actual ambition to do anything due to just talking about it.

Apologia for stalking is very much like apologia for pedophilia; it's a justification of the horrible actions that a broken person uses in order to pretend that what they are doing is not garbage, and that they are different from all those other monsters.

And guess what the police and feds have when they "stalk"; they have something called probable cause. They actually have to have enough evidence to actually "stalk" a person by searching their homes and work for evidence. PI's are often contracted to do it by attorneys and most of their work is to serve orders, subpoenas, and the like. They are actually working in the legal frame; you are not.

But then, you think you would be accepted by a sperm bank in spite of the fact you have been forced to appear in court, have a restraining order on yourself, having the tism, and are allegedly going to therapy. That's an auto fail for being accepted and that's something you cannot change.

My story didn't change. I have no clue what you are talking about. My story was consistent entirely. I was going to upload a picture of the card but I know it won't convince you of anything so i figured i wouldn't waste my time with that. the check picture will be more convincing.

Your story changed when it was highlighted how you were not really telling her everything and have not shown any evidence other than your own words. This does two things: first, it dispels none of my doubts that you're pretty much full of hot air about aiming to either improve or make something of your life. This is doubly so given that you admitted to the card, and have not scanned and uploaded it, though even that's rather weak compared to other, stronger evidence.

The second is that you are rather clearly not actually taking the therapy seriously if you are actually going, which is to be expected from a person who has a broken personality. They are mechanically unable to really see just what was wrong with them, even when they have extremely blatant signs like being brought before court due to specific behaviors and accidentally strengthening the victim's case when trying to clear up misunderstandings. This means that congratulations, you are not bothering to reflect upon and realize what is up with your mental state. Also means you're wasting the poor person's time.

You do still have a shot with the paycheck, but until you do, I cannot believe you are able to self-improve and lack the actual ambition to do anything due to just talking about it.

Apologia for stalking is very much like apologia for pedophilia; it's a justification of the horrible actions that a broken person uses in order to pretend that what they are doing is not garbage, and that they are different from all those other monsters.

And guess what the police and feds have when they "stalk"; they have something called probable cause. They actually have to have enough evidence to actually "stalk" a person by searching their homes and work for evidence. PI's are often contracted to do it by attorneys and most of their work is to serve orders, subpoenas, and the like. They are actually working in the legal frame; you are not.

But then, you think you would be accepted by a sperm bank in spite of the fact you have been forced to appear in court, have a restraining order on yourself, having the tism, and are allegedly going to therapy. That's an auto fail for being accepted and that's something you cannot change.

Even if my stalking was immoral, it is a MINOR thing. pedophilia is a MAJOR evil. sinful stalking in the degree i have done is a MINOR evil.

I also have probable cause for melinda. the probable cause is that she needs me.

i'm not going to search her home or do anything like that. any tracking of her i do only is online. thats my selfimposed rule to make sure i never cross a line i know is wrong

i said i wouldn't be accepted by a sperm bank unless i made major changes in my life. you missed it when I said that evidently.

 

[Adamska]

Pedophilia ruins for life. Stalking can ruin for life with the added negative of occasionally ending them. She does not need a man who actively helps in ruining her happiness and airs her dirty laundry in the hopes of controlling her. That life is a recipe for killing yourself.

And the bank is forever closed to you mate. It legit does not take people based on their genetic stamp (they count autism as a no-go) and prior history (you have easily found documents and records of stalking), which is something that isn't scrubbed man. It's a sign that "the seed is weak" and so they will always reject you no matter how hard you change. That's the element you're missing here Gatsby.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Pedophilia ruins for life. Stalking can ruin for life with the added negative of occasionally ending them. She does not need a man who actively helps in ruining her happiness and airs her dirty laundry in the hopes of controlling her. That life is a recipe for killing yourself.

And the bank is forever closed to you mate. It legit does not take people based on their genetic stamp (they count autism as a no-go) and prior history (you have easily found documents and records of stalking), which is something that isn't scrubbed man. It's a sign that "the seed is weak" and so they will always reject you no matter how hard you change. That's the element you're missing here Gatsby.

She's ruining her own life by not being my friend. If she just stopped being a jerk and stubborn, all the problems. She could talk to me a tiny amount once every few months, and i'd be satisfied. But nope she is stubborn and brings on her own suffering. I will not tolerate her behavior towards me and others and how she treated me. So i am making a strong and powerful stand against her. by the way she ruins MANY other people's lives. So if she feels her life is ruined, first of all she is choosing to feel that way out of her own stubborn heart. secondly that is justice for how she has treated other people. it is not my intention to cause her suffering, but if she suffers because of her own choices, she can only blame herself and it is the principle of karmic justice running its course.

the element you say is false. You can only say based on what things are like now. things could change majorly in future years. you have no knowledge of the future so your assumption the rules of sperm banks, etc will remain the same. that's an ignorant assumption.

 

[Adamska]

And there's self-centered aspect of your psyche coming to the front to assuage your ego. "It's the other person's fault for not doing what I want. Well the rules can change to give me what I want."

This is why your parents asked you to go to a psychologist. This is also why you were handed a restraining order. This is not a healthy thought process, and until you realize that you're going to be stuck doing this metaphorically:

 

[Zarkov]

You only make assertions but offer no proof. Share how all stalking is abuse.

LOL says the guy who can only answer "no" or "not true" when confronted with cold hard facts.

What an honor it would be to make it to number 1 negative ratings on the site. I have overtaken Dynastia for being part of the top 10.

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You'll never beat Marjan, he's the God of sick fucks.

 

[repentance]

I also have probable cause for melinda. the probable cause is that she needs me.

She needs you like Jodie Foster needed John Hinckley.

 

[Begemot]

It's a regular family afair,

She's ruining her own life by not being my friend. If she just stopped being a jerk and stubborn, all the problems. She could talk to me a tiny amount once every few months, and i'd be satisfied. But nope she is stubborn and brings on her own suffering. I will not tolerate her behavior towards me and others and how she treated me. So i am making a strong and powerful stand against her. by the way she ruins MANY other people's lives. So if she feels her life is ruined, first of all she is choosing to feel that way out of her own stubborn heart. secondly that is justice for how she has treated other people. it is not my intention to cause her suffering, but if she suffers because of her own choices, she can only blame herself and it is the principle of karmic justice running its course.

the element you say is false. You can only say based on what things are like now. things could change majorly in future years. you have no knowledge of the future so your assumption the rules of sperm banks, etc will remain the same. that's an ignorant assumption.

Great, more victim blaming from this malignant beanpole cuck! You don't deserve love, kid, you have to earn it. I don't think you're willing or able to earn her respect. Deep inside you know this. You can hide from the truth, kid, but it's always there.

 

[AnOminous]

This means that congratulations, you are not bothering to reflect upon and realize what is up with your mental state. Also means you're wasting the poor person's time.

If she deals with court ordered visits, she's probably entirely used to dealing with sociopathic fuckups like Andrew who will never improve.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

You'll never beat Marjan, he's the God of sick fucks.

Second place is sufficient

 

[💗Freddie Freaker💗]

She's ruining her own life by not being my friend. If she just stopped being a jerk and stubborn, all the problems. She could talk to me a tiny amount once every few months, and i'd be satisfied. But nope she is stubborn and brings on her own suffering. I will not tolerate her behavior towards me and others and how she treated me. So i am making a strong and powerful stand against her. by the way she ruins MANY other people's lives. So if she feels her life is ruined, first of all she is choosing to feel that way out of her own stubborn heart. secondly that is justice for how she has treated other people. it is not my intention to cause her suffering, but if she suffers because of her own choices, she can only blame herself and it is the principle of karmic justice running its course.

the element you say is false. You can only say based on what things are like now. things could change majorly in future years. you have no knowledge of the future so your assumption the rules of sperm banks, etc will remain the same. that's an ignorant assumption.

Who's life has she ruined?

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Who's life has she ruined?

She really wounded some of her exes. One of her exes almost killed himself because of how traumatized he was. they were all horribly traumatized by her. they've all had various levels of success moving on with their lives, but they still have to carry those painful wounds in their hearts deep down inside. And i know how that is.

 

[💗Freddie Freaker💗]

She really wounded some of her exes. One of her exes almost killed himself because of how traumatized he was. they were all horribly traumatized by her. they've all had various levels of success moving on with their lives, but they still have to carry those painful wounds in their hearts deep down inside. And i know how that is.

What did she do to traumatize them?

 

[Yellow Yam Scam]

Post therapists business card if you want us to believe you went.

 

[Cyber Bowling]

She's ruining her own life by not being my friend. If she just stopped being a jerk and stubborn, all the problems. She could talk to me a tiny amount once every few months, and i'd be satisfied. But nope she is stubborn and brings on her own suffering. I will not tolerate her behavior towards me and others and how she treated me. So i am making a strong and powerful stand against her. by the way she ruins MANY other people's lives. So if she feels her life is ruined, first of all she is choosing to feel that way out of her own stubborn heart. secondly that is justice for how she has treated other people. it is not my intention to cause her suffering, but if she suffers because of her own choices, she can only blame herself and it is the principle of karmic justice running its course.

Pretty weird thing to say about someone you want to have as a friend, let alone claim to love. Why do you want to so badly be with someone who just has a history of using people and ruining their lives? And why are you so adamant about her being in charge if you two were to get together, since that would just put her in a position where she could ruin your life and just continues to enable her bad behavior. Do you honestly think there is some kind of relationship there? Sure, you could change her, but if you have to change her in the first place, doesn't that mean you don't actually care about her as it is? I mean, changing one or two negative habits of a partner is one thing, but it sounds like you're pushing for a pretty huge personality change, especially since we've known seen how toxic she can be.

Also, isn't a bit hypocritical to call someone else stubborn, when the root of the problems is your stubbornness in refusing to let her go and live her life the way she wants? She's decided she doesn't want you in her life, but you're the one stubbornly refusing to accept that fact and stalking her, and you're also stubbornly insisting that she *has* to be your friend because you are also stubbornly insisting that she *has* to follow these specific views, despite her clearly having no interest in them. You're also stubbornly clinging to cherry picked sources and interpretations, so couldn't someone just twist your own logic around here and say that karmic justice is running its course on you? If you feel your life is ruined, aren't you feeling that way out of your own stubborn heart? Is this just for how you've treated other people? It doesn't seem like her intention is to cause you suffering, she just wants you to stop stalking her, but if you suffer because of your own choices, such as stalking her, don't you only have yourself to blame? Seems like that's the principle of karmic justice.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Post therapists business card if you want us to believe you went.

I decided not to post the cards for her sake. But you can bet I would do to make myself look better in the eyes of the court.

 

[💗Freddie Freaker💗]

I decided not to post the cards for her sake. But you can bet I would do to make myself look better in the eyes of the court.

For her sake? How is it helping her not to post the business card? Just censor her name and address if you're concerned about her getting stalked.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Pretty weird thing to say about someone you want to have as a friend, let alone claim to love. Why do you want to so badly be with someone who just has a history of using people and ruining their lives? And why are you so adamant about her being in charge if you two were to get together, since that would just put her in a position where she could ruin your life and just continues to enable her bad behavior. Do you honestly think there is some kind of relationship there? Sure, you could change her, but if you have to change her in the first place, doesn't that mean you don't actually care about her as it is? I mean, changing one or two negative habits of a partner is one thing, but it sounds like you're pushing for a pretty huge personality change, especially since we've known seen how toxic she can be.

Also, isn't a bit hypocritical to call someone else stubborn, when the root of the problems is your stubbornness in refusing to let her go and live her life the way she wants? She's decided she doesn't want you in her life, but you're the one stubbornly refusing to accept that fact and stalking her, and you're also stubbornly insisting that she *has* to be your friend because you are also stubbornly insisting that she *has* to follow these specific views, despite her clearly having no interest in them. You're also stubbornly clinging to cherry picked sources and interpretations, so couldn't someone just twist your own logic around here and say that karmic justice is running its course on you? If you feel your life is ruined, aren't you feeling that way out of your own stubborn heart? Is this just for how you've treated other people? It doesn't seem like her intention is to cause you suffering, she just wants you to stop stalking her, but if you suffer because of your own choices, such as stalking her, don't you only have yourself to blame? Seems like that's the principle of karmic justice.

I'm her only chance to be a good person. She has many holes in her that I can fill, and I have many holes in me that she can fill. And no i don't mean sexually, pervs (ha). I can help her overcome the flaws in who she is as a person, and she can help me do the same for myself is what i mean. If i help her be my loving kind compassionate and forgiving as well as more understanding, she can help me be more mean and hateful and vengeful. Which would be good for me and good for her. a win win. I'm a softee often too much. She would help me stand up for myself and not take shit from other people and be firm and powerful and speak my mind and she would encourage a healthier amount of anger and hate than i currently have. i would help her be much less hateful and angry than she is and be more loving and forgiving.

Doing whatever she wants me to do would be a sacrifice for her that would be initially very limiting, but over time, my influence on her would help her loosen up and not be so uptight of a person so she'd be less strict with me as a result.

I believe true love is trying to change everyone you know if at all possible to be what you think they should be.

I'm stubborn no doubt, but my stubbornness is mostly good. Not all stubbornness is bad.

You could argue that my actions of pursuing her are resulting in karmic justice of getting me in legal trouble and I have no one to blame but myself. But she was always be worse than me as a person the way she currently is. the only chance for her to be better than me is if is with me and I teach her how to be better than me. Besides in general, I have a reputation among almost everyone I know as being a very kind person. My reputation has been harmed only in regards to the issues of Tamar. If i had not pursued tamar, my reputation would be a good amount higher. In contrast, Melinda has a reputation of being a coldhearted bitch. Its harsh but true. Everyone. And Melinda disowned her entire family because of religious differences. I don't disown my family. I don't hate people. She hates almost everyone in the entire world. I don't have sex with many people. She does. I don't sue people for stupid lawsuits. She does. She is widely considered by a large number of people as a predator of men, a jezebel, and that she is a dangerous and extremely toxic person. People don't describe me as a toxic person normally. Its only with my issues with Tamar that people started calling me a toxic person but thats still a minority. There are not a lot of people in this world that hate me. A large number of people hate Tamar. Which breaks my heart.

You say it doesn't seem like she wants to cause me suffering. While initially that was true, she has now switched her procedure, and she is in fact trying to cause me suffering. She is trying to get me extradited to Virginia so I go to jail and she is trying to steal money from me.

Damn, two or three people just implied I am a woman on facebook and they are being totally serious. They don't know me but i'm in a group on facebook talking with them. They see my picture of my long hair and my name Onieh.

For her sake? How is it helping her not to post the business card? Just censor her name and address if you're concerned about her getting stalked.

Damn, two or three people just implied I am a woman on facebook and they are being totally serious. They don't know me but i'm in a group on facebook talking with them. They see my picture of my long hair and my name Onieh.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

I'll show you what my friends think

 

[Big Meaty Claws]

Tamar your talking to yourself for almost a whole hour, just drop it dude.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Maybe I can tire and exhaust people to the point that they don't care about the drama involving me and Tamar.