The thing with Cluster Bs is sometimes they genuinely do believe their own lies. I wonder if she did trick herself into believing some of her own lies. She's also clearly an unsocialized gooner, so she probably thought some of the shit she did was normal (but beheading human toilet loli is very much not normal). Never make a registered account on a porn/hentai website, especially not with your main Internet alias.
Her LARPs as lesbian and Japanese are hilarious. Even if her great granddad really was Japanese, she's clearly mostly white and shouldn't act like she's a hapa. I would not guess she was any small percentage of Asian. I've met Wasian girls who are half and half, and they do not look as white as she does. Sounds like a "I'm 1/6th Native American"-level LARP.
I don't understand people who use the Farms as a dating/friend-making website. That must be a high level of autism to where you can't even make IRL friends. I've befriended countless other autists IRL though. Just go to......literally any bar or cafe that hosts events in your area. Social skills are a skill that can be learned. And don't tell normies IRL about your human toilet fetish and foot fetish.
I use this website as reading material when I'm bored, or as a place to voice my most controversial opinions (since talking about shit like conspiracies and "alt-right" politics are socially unacceptable IRL). I don't use this site to ERP or post nudes. That seems genuinely retarded given this site is known for making fun of people who do that.
I've made a cool friend here but that was when I was sick for a full week and could barely move from my bed. I think "Don't get super comfy to people on the phonebooking site" should be a given but I guess not. This place is a double-edged sword where you can express what you can't say on other social media or in real life
although that's because society is genuinely fucked now, but you also can't say too much as to liking certain niche things because you'll get phonebooked for liking a literal who mangaka.
I never really talked to Meiwaku let alone knew her but I had read a lot of her posts. I think I had this image in my mind of her being that she was cooler than she really was? I think most of the posts I had read from her were in the Lesbian thread and I'd scourge that thread for advice. I also believed she was a t&h Japanese woman given how much she talked about it. The new revelation about her blew me away since I had not expected for her to ever get into the Hall of Shame thread at all.
I've developed my own pet theory that she probably struggles with hypersexuality, which is usually comorbid with BPD. Apparently most female hypersexuals usually act the way they do because they had been sexually abused in their childhood. I don't know if that happened to her, and if it did I'm not excusing it, but it would also explain the lolisho/hardcore pornography. People who are hypersexual also tend to have pretty poor boundaries which would also explain the New Revelation. (Or then again, she could just be a mill of the run porn addict and just have poor behavioral skills.)
Also, this is probably politsperging a bit, but converting to Islam because of a weird looking ginger from a reality show? Come the fuck on. She's obviously intelligent enough to make her own deductions on philosophy, she shouldn't convert because of being a simp. I think being a little "trad" would be better for her (and by "trad" I mean not being a complete gooner) but she realizes that she'd have to completely change her life around it, right? And being a "lesbian" from BP I don't think she'd last long.
Anyway, to reiterate, I never really knew her and she never really knew me, I've probably scoured her posts more than she has mine. I sort of hope she'll get actual help if its not too late for it.