How sad it is that he has to resort to advertising the fact that he’ll be acting shitfaced to get people to donate money to his lost cause.
I would imagine many of us remember that time in our lives when we drank in excess, in some cases with the intention of getting drunk. However, most people seem to grow out of that by the time they reach their late 20s. Life comes along and it’s something that just stops on its own. It’s become crystal clear as of late that Phil spends a large amount of his time off-stream drinking. I imagine Leanna leaving was the biggest contributing factor to this behavior, as it probably caused a slight realization that he’s totally alone in his life (with the only exception being his parents). He has his fans/patrons/sugar daddies, but there’s not enough mutual respect there to call that any kind of friendship. To drown out the deafening silence of the absent echo in his home, Phil drinks. He probably doesn’t even realize how much he’s had before he’s sloshed. For a while, he kept it decently under wraps. However, this is a man who is crying out for some kind of connection to anyone, and this has led to his alcoholism bleeding into his “professional” persona. Instagramming pictures of booze bottles, the drunken tweets he tried to play off as some stupid ARG, the stream where he clearly was slurring his speech; it all paints the portrait of a man who has developed one hell of a problem. Life has pushed against Phil hard, and his response was to crawl inside a bottle and try to ride it out to better days. Problem is, this isn’t how life works.
As I said, people grow out of this kind of regular binge drinking. Life becomes more busy, families are started, careers ramp up, health habits catch up, and priorities change. While Phil is advertising this as some one-off thing, this may be a subconscious attempt to normalize alcohol as a regular element of his khantent. His sorrow and loneliness is taking a front-row seat in his work.
