Being that I have a thread on myself, I am very aware of what my old persona was. Not just what my thread described, I know more than anyone else who I was back then. From 16 to roughly 20 I was a shitty individual, an absolute whiny degenerate. Four years I spent wallowing in puddles of filth I made for myself, ranging from emo trash to absolute faggotry, and for that I am very much deserving of what I was dealt back then. I've been forced out of a lot of communities. A LOT of communities. From lulz.net to furnet. During my time away from the burning trash heap that is the fandom, I reflected on such things, coming to the understanding that I had to stop the cancer I was pulling and fucking grow up. I decided that my actions were only going to cause me more harm than good, and that I needed to get away from my old whiny tantrum throwing faggot self. I spent two more years both improving myself, and destroying my old identity, vowing to never go back to it.
When that thread was created, after 4 years of keeping that old persona away from myself, a small part of me did get upset, and that is obviously normal for anyone, and I will admit this. However I didn't treat the thread as an attack, rather I saw it as a reminder that I made the right choice, that I got away from that disgusting monstrocity I created in my teenage years. I keep that thread in mind to keep myself on the right path, to do good for others, and to not resort to the same shit I did when I was younger. And so I never threw a tantrum, I didn't threaten anyone, and I certainly didn't try taking the thread down. I made it to be my final closure, the final nail in Cinox's coffin that would allow me to free myself from that ungodly sleight.
Do you get it yet, Casey? You haven't learned a thing, you never grew up, realizing that what you are doing is fucking stupid. You keep playing the same cards in a losing bet while others are smart enough to fold. You are so goddamn blind to the fact that all your doing is digging a deeper hole, and instead of even attempting to climb out, you're fucking sitting there, crossed arms, shouting that the hole is easy to climb out of while you dig deeper. I witnessed you doing this first hand, and I continue to do so while I watch you try to toss people into the fire that don't even know why they're being burned.
Be very certain, this is not advice. I am simply telling you why exactly you're getting the shit you are. I couldn't care less what happens to you honestly. I just leak and laugh at you because it's the nature of the beast. If anything, I don't care much what's in these logs, and whoever does I am happy to give someone else their opportunity. I am not going to stalk you like some obsessed moron, nor do I actually care what you've been jerking off to. I am here on the farms to laugh at idiots. I'm going to be fucking here laughing at idiots. And I will continue to laugh at idiots here until I eventually get banned myself, or the site dies. If either happens, I will simply move to the next best thing, as is with any hobby. I'd much rather be the observing phantom in any case.
But for now, I'll leave you to mull over who gave me these. It'll be easy for you, of course and for me, I'm going to sit back, get some marshmallows, and enjoy some s'mores by the bonfire. The one you keep throwing yourself in.
