Lolcow Andrew Peter Carlson / Anaiah Carlson / Tamarlover / Xtamarlover - Jewish/Christian Wannabe Cult Leader, Stalker, Ugly af, dogfucker, mayor of spitsville

[Florence]

The past couple years I've been working on unjewing myself.

t. Ben Garrison

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Since my name was mentioned in another thread and someone there said they hope i give updates, I thought I'd give a small update on things. Tamar continues her legal drama and she breaks up with Marshall occasionally only to get back together with him. Her life seems to be going around in circles for her.

I still keep an eye on the legal stuff primarily to see if there are any stuff involving me, but just like people here like to be entertained by reading stuff on this site, i get a similar thrill reading about her crazy drama. I do feel bad for her and i wish there was some way i could help but i know now she will never change and there's something comforting knowing she is kind of getting what she deserves by treating so many people like shit over the years.

My relationship for the most part is pretty solid. There is a possibility she will break up with me over religious differences since i am religious and she is not. But if she does break up with me it wont catch me off guard since we have talked about it and ive mentally prepared for it to possibly happen. Also we have a timeline for when she would break up with me if she did. I have thought about it and i would be devastated but at the same time i would be optimistic and positive and use the breakup to better myself. Still going to therapy occasionally though i often disagree with her advice. But it helps to hear an expert opinion.

Death has taught me the importance of family in a strong and powerful way. It makes this tamar stuff pale in comparison. First my cat died who was like my best friend, then my grandma back in february, and now my grandpa died less than two weeks ago. It is heartbreaking. But these kind of experiences, dealing with loss, can actually make you a better person and i do believe it has helped me have better perspective and priorities in life.

I still have my job though i switched to night shift for now to give my girlfriend space. And i want her to have more time for herself and her friends and family. I have started building up credit via credit cards. Me and my investment partner are at about $20,000, and we've made close to $4,000 in profit.

So anyways thats how life is. I am so glad i am not obsessed with Melinda anymore. Life is so much better for me since ive made that decision to move on from her.

 

[Broken Pussy]

Since my name was mentioned in another thread and someone there said they hope i give updates, I thought I'd give a small update on things. Tamar continues her legal drama and she breaks up with Marshall occasionally only to get back together with him. Her life seems to be going around in circles for her.

I still keep an eye on the legal stuff primarily to see if there are any stuff involving me, but just like people here like to be entertained by reading stuff on this site, i get a similar thrill reading about her crazy drama. I do feel bad for her and i wish there was some way i could help but i know now she will never change and there's something comforting knowing she is kind of getting what she deserves by treating so many people like shit over the years.

My relationship for the most part is pretty solid. There is a possibility she will break up with me over religious differences since i am religious and she is not. But if she does break up with me it wont catch me off guard since we have talked about it and ive mentally prepared for it to possibly happen. Also we have a timeline for when she would break up with me if she did. I have thought about it and i would be devastated but at the same time i would be optimistic and positive and use the breakup to better myself. Still going to therapy occasionally though i often disagree with her advice. But it helps to hear an expert opinion.

Death has taught me the importance of family in a strong and powerful way. It makes this tamar stuff pale in comparison. First my cat died who was like my best friend, then my grandma back in february, and now my grandpa died less than two weeks ago. It is heartbreaking. But these kind of experiences, dealing with loss, can actually make you a better person and i do believe it has helped me have better perspective and priorities in life.

I still have my job though i switched to night shift for now to give my girlfriend space. And i want her to have more time for herself and her friends and family. I have started building up credit via credit cards. Me and my investment partner are at about $20,000, and we've made close to $4,000 in profit.

So anyways thats how life is. I am so glad i am not obsessed with Melinda anymore. Life is so much better for me since ive made that decision to move on from her.

I’m sorry about your grandparents, but you seem to be doing well, otherwise.

 

[Cthulu]

Attention whore is an attention thot fuck we talk about to not to you

 

[Robotic Richard Simmons]

The past couple years I've been working on unjewing myself.

Self improvement is always a good thing. Self reflection is part of growing up. Thanks for my phrase of the year and hope things go well for you.

 

[break these cuffs]

I feel horrible about some of what I did to Melinda and I will never do it again. At the same time, I can't help but feel a sense of pride for how epic some of what I did was. Like I was an evil genius in some of what I did. I could definitely make for a compelling movie villain that is scary and creepy if they made a movie about the whole thing between me and Tamar. I would be tempted to make such a movie, if not for the fear that she would sue me for copyright infringement lol. I would do my best to portray Tamar as the sympathetic character. And then do my best to show the redemption of the stalker in the film.

Here is what Andrew had to say in the other thread. There was some stuff before about how he's changed and how awesome his new life is. Much like what he posted above. Andrew couldn't just leave it at that. He had to post this final paragraph and prove once again that he hasn't changed. His behavior has changed because he realized he is neither charismatic enough to manipulate people into doing what he wants, nor intimidating enough to force them to do what he wants. Instead he relives his past abuses and revels in them. This has been said multiple times since his claimed reformation(s?) and he once again proves it true. He's still so narc he can't help but brag about it.

Cows never change.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Here is what Andrew had to say in the other thread. There was some stuff before about how he's changed and how awesome his new life is. Much like what he posted above. Andrew couldn't just leave it at that. He had to post this final paragraph and prove once again that he hasn't changed. His behavior has changed because he realized he is neither charismatic enough to manipulate people into doing what he wants, nor intimidating enough to force them to do what he wants. Instead he relives his past abuses and revels in them. This has been said multiple times since his claimed reformation(s?) and he once again proves it true. He's still so narc he can't help but brag about it.

Cows never change.

When i say i have made progress in my life, i am referring to moving on from melinda, having better life skills, and changing and modifying certain life goals and my life strategies. My underlying personality and religiosity and my overall plans and life goals remain unchanged.

As was discussed before manipulation simply means to maneuver. It can be done virtuously or with sinister intent.

1. transitive) To move, arrange or operatesomething using the hands
2. (transitive) To influence, manage, direct, control or tamper with something
3. (transitive, medicine) To handle and move a body part, either as an examination or for a therapeutic purpose
4. (transitive) To influence or control someone in order to achieve a specific purpose, especially one that is unknown to the one being manipulated and beneficial to the manipulator; to use
5. (intransitive, dated) To use the hands, especially in scientific experiments.

Just be glad im not using pedipulation

https://en.m.wiktionary.org/wiki/pedipulation#English

https://en.m.wiktionary.org/wiki/pedipulate#English

 

[Rumpled Foreskin]

Not all homicide is murder. There is no justification for murder just because someone raped you. The rapist deserves to die. The child does not deserve to die. So for those who deserve to die, homicide is not wrong. For those who don't deserve to die, homicide is wrong. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Justifiable_homicide

Someone who doesn't want to keep the child can give it up for adoption. Women who keep the child conceived by rape sometimes are much happier than they would have been because they feel like something good and beautiful came out of a horrible situation. Certainly not all women feel that way, but many do. I've watched women's testimonies and read about it some.

This post is from earlier on in the thread. If I had to guess, he plans on raping his current girlfriend so that she has his kid and has no choice but to be in contact with him for a long while. After all, a baby conceived in rape should never, under any circumstance, be aborted

 

[break these cuffs]

When i say i have made progress in my life, i am referring to moving on from melinda, having better life skills, and changing and modifying certain life goals and my life strategies. My underlying personality and religiosity and my overall plans and life goals remain unchanged.

As was discussed before manipulation simply means to maneuver. It can be done virtuously or with sinister intent.

1. transitive) To move, arrange or operatesomething using the hands
2. (transitive) To influence, manage, direct, control or tamper with something
3. (transitive, medicine) To handle and move a body part, either as an examination or for a therapeutic purpose
4. (transitive) To influence or control someone in order to achieve a specific purpose, especially one that is unknown to the one being manipulated and beneficial to the manipulator; to use
5. (intransitive, dated) To use the hands, especially in scientific experiments.

Just be glad im not using pedipulation

https://en.m.wiktionary.org/wiki/pedipulation#English

https://en.m.wiktionary.org/wiki/pedipulate#English

You are delusional as ever and I don't give a shit what you use. You are a clown to be mocked and cajoled into performing. Put on whatever show you want. I'll be there to watch and laugh.

 

[Cato]

He's totally over Melinda, guys:

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

He's totally over Melinda, guys:

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Im over my obsession and i no longer desire to be with her. I am no longer in love with her. But I miss her of course. And she's still dear to my heart, just like my ex is. I always look to see what both are up to with what little can be gleaned from the internet. Im waiting eagerly to find out more about Melindas latest lawsuit once the judge offers a ruling

 

[Jaded Optimist]

@xtamarlover your girlfriend break up with you yet? Your last posts said she might.

 

[Shugo]

But I miss her of course. And she's still dear to my heart

Yeah, that means you haven't "moved on" despite your previous posts calling her an absolutely horrible human being who uses and abuses everyone around her.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

@xtamarlover your girlfriend break up with you yet? Your last posts said she might.

@xtamarlover your girlfriend break up with you yet? Your last posts said she might.

We are still together but our future is uncertain due to my religious beliefs. If the relationship ends it will be her ending it, not me. But so far we are still together and its going well for the most part. But im definitely not confident on our relationship lasting like i originally thought. So i have mentally prepared myself for the very real possibility our relationship ends someday. I promised her i wouldnt stalk her or contact her if she breaks up with me. I will keep that promise.

 

[Robotic Richard Simmons]

I promised her i wouldnt stalk her or contact her if she breaks up with me. I will keep that promise.

What an outstanding gentleman you are.

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

Yeah, that means you haven't "moved on" despite your previous posts calling her an absolutely horrible human being who uses and abuses everyone around her.

She's not completely/absolutely horrible. Some parts of her are horrible, but some parts of her are beautiful. Overall shes hateful and meanspirited and cruel, but parts of her are sweet, kind, nice, compassionate, and generous. And maybe part of me overemphasized her negative qualities because I was upset with and mad at her. But a more true and fair analysis presents her as half good, half evil. I like the good parts of her.

 

[IAmNotDavid]

I legitimately can't tell if you're getting better or if you're going to snap in 6 months and be sent to prison for breaking your no stalking promise.

 

[Begemot]

We are still together but our future is uncertain due to my religious beliefs. If the relationship ends it will be her ending it, not me. But so far we are still together and its going well for the most part. But im definitely not confident on our relationship lasting like i originally thought. So i have mentally prepared myself for the very real possibility our relationship ends someday. I promised her i wouldnt stalk her or contact her if she breaks up with me. I will keep that promise.

You're getting better, then.

 

[Florence]

We are still together but our future is uncertain due to my religious beliefs. If the relationship ends it will be her ending it, not me. But so far we are still together and its going well for the most part. But im definitely not confident on our relationship lasting like i originally thought. So i have mentally prepared myself for the very real possibility our relationship ends someday. I promised her i wouldnt stalk her or contact her if she breaks up with me. I will keep that promise.

nigga you’re fucked

 

[Anaiah Carlson]

nigga you’re fucked

Pros and cons for me being in this relationship. I want the relationship to work, but if the relationship doesn't end up working, it could be for the best for both of us. But whether or not something could be better, I am happy to accept this relationship despite the cons. But if the relationship doesn't work out, then I will comfort myself that I don't have to worry about the cons anymore. I will miss the pros of course, but its all a matter of perspective. I can reach my full potential by myself or with someone who agrees with my religion. Someone who doesn't agree with my religion is a limit to my potential. I am willing to limit my potential for the sake of love, but if it doesn't work out, then my potential is benefited significantly. Love is about sacrifice and i'm willing to make plenty of sacrifices to make this relationship work. But if it doesn't work, it won't be the end of the world. I'll move on and be alright. I'll be devastated at first, but I will be at peace about it.